Kiss Me With Your Eyelashes Tonight

GOODBYE

2009-08-30T17:04:00.001+08:00

my 300th post will be on onsugar. been contemplating if i should move to onsugar, or rather when to move.

so long and goooodbye blogger. :(

ONSUGAR.COM

299TH POST

2009-08-30T16:28:00.000+08:00

yay so proud of man u once again. i was still telling sean i think arsenal would win since they were pretty on form for the past few matches. and guess who scored again! rooooooooney! :D he even slided with his head man! hero roooney! we were right in wearing their jerseys out yesterday. :D

could finally settle down after three weeks of studying & exams & one whole term of school. i kinda miss those times when we had to rush through all the projects like crazy. staying up almost every night just to complete it. its ironic i know but now it feels empty not to do anything everyday.

gonna go back to school tomorrow and yay could finally see those familiar faces again! :D

NEW LESBIAN PARTNER

2009-08-29T23:14:00.003+08:00

suppose to go shopping and marche with sean today but my mom just had to spoil the plans. lol. so went to ehub for the proposal. its hilarious and nice and kinda touching. see sean, i told you its funny right. i wanna go to alaska! it has nice scenery and so peaceful. good place for retirement. then headed to white sands to kill time.

went to mandarin for dinner and its super duper filling. ohh we were talking about hotel rooms! and my mom told me she has one complimentary room at st regis which worth eight hundred bucks! yay i asked if i could have the room on my birthday so at least i could stay out with my friends that night. but ah, i don't think she'll give it to me anyway. i can't wait to work, go taiwan, hongkong and indonesia! yay, shop shop shop shop shop till i die.

shit, i'm so addicted to shopping now. i just can't wait to have the shopping adrenaline rushing through my blood all over again! i swear to enjoy myself to the fullest before the whole hectic semester starts again. then againi'm worried for my results. sigh. :(

oh yes, my new lesbian partner. she's kimmy and we're in the man u jerseys! don't you think sean looks like a girl if you cover his nose and mouth? :D

OUR LOVE IS LIKE A SONG, YOU CAN'T FORGET

2009-08-29T02:13:00.000+08:00

after posting up the pictures, there's problem with blogger again.

so today's poa was. i don't know what to say since i can't balance the first question and its fifty marks. damn it, i can't blame anything but my lack of sleep.the night before poa paper i was at sean's house until 2 to get all my poa concepts right. but i only managed to sleep at 5. its just insomnia. for the past five days, out of the hundred twenty hours, i only slept for less than ten hours. when i flipped the paper open i was so happy since i've practiced those questions that came out. oh well, my head just had to keep spinning and i can't think much. :(

the first thing i knew when i walked out of the exam hall, i see somebody in blue walking towards me. and the first question sean asked was, ' can do anot? ' i was so close to tears. okay lets just say there were tears in my eyes. i think i let him down cause he taught me POA for the whole night. was damn depressed. but it was better since we went to queensway to see boots and had laksa. his nonsense and words just never fail to make me smile. :D and guess what? we've finally got our man u jerseys! yay, and it was so unexpected! saw alvin and his giant friend too!

and it was girls night out today! super duper fun. we went to yellow jello. and the person is really kind to let us in knowing we weren't eighteen. :D tonight was kinda crazy, we drank four jugs of vodka. and vodka redbull is damn good. we got really high after drinking and played double dare. hahahah k, as what fenglin says, what happened tonight at yellow jello stays there. took alot of photos and ahhahahah! it look really scandalous. probably going to the clinic soon!

holidays are here! velly velly eggcited! monday would kick start the list of the whole holiday plans! photoshoots, stayover, gatherings, overseas!

JONANTHAN'S BIRTHDAY, RUSSEL'S HOUSE

2009-08-29T00:26:00.006+08:00

F. UP ECONS

2009-08-27T12:33:00.004+08:00

this is really bad. i screwed up my econs paper, badly. how can i actually make such a careless mistake in calculating the opportunity cost. its just have got to the simplest formula on earth. eleven marks, mind you. what other adjectives to use other than dumb. of course, there're more screwed up questions.

oh well. i can't whine to anybody so i'll whine to my blog. it never shuts me up when i whine. i'd just rather talk to blog in future. of course i know there's still poa paper tomorrow and that i should stop dwelling on it since nothing can be done. i swear i'll ace my poa paper. i swear swear swear swear. ugh, i don't want my gpa to fall below 3.5. but now, it seem all impossible. god bless me bless me bless me okay i love you very much.

k sleep.

SMILING STOMACH

2009-08-27T01:48:00.004+08:00

yay, my stomach's always happy during this hour. for the past few weeks i've been eating in the middle of the night. and that explains why i've put on weight. i mean i'm serious that i've put on weight. my shorts can't be worn anymore its so tight! the pull and bear shorts that i couldn't wore previously can be worn now and its tight. oh my god. i'm becoming a fat ass!

ahhh, now i feel like eating the tortilla chips & salsa from marks and spencer. :D

i miss you darling.

BUSINESS MANAGEMENT

2009-08-26T12:26:00.004+08:00

surprisingly sean called me last night when i said i couldn't sleep. i haven't really seen him for seven days except for that few minutes on sunday. its making me crazy i swear. because he haven't been meeting me, i seem to be angry with him for everything he do. sorry babe. i miss you super alot, you know it. :(

BMGT paper today was alright. i think charan kaur is really kind not to set questions from the textbook.

i realised something. each time when i had to go for BMGT tutorial i kinda hate it cause its boring. not only its boring, she always doesn't let us use the laptop. so all she says is ' laptops down please'. after time, it gets all so annoying. but today, in the Convention Centre while doing the paper i felt a sense of familiarity when i saw her standing there smiling at me. it feels like home. perhaps its the last time i'll have her as my teacher. :( i have to say although she's annoying, always with her same hairstyle, she's really nice and motherly.

Microecons paper tomorrow and i'm at the least bit motivated to study for that. i don't know why but i have this mentality that i couldn't aced it so i don't feel like studying. :( i didn't score very well for term test the previous time so unless i get eighty ninety plus then i can get a distinction.

oh yes, i'm the queen of procrastination.

ALL ABOUT FINANCE

2009-08-26T03:09:00.001+08:00

was talking to cheryl on the phone yesterday. and ah, after knowing the modules for next year it seems like i don't like my course anymore. :( its all about finance. Financial International Trade, Financial Management, Financial Planning, Financial Regulations and Practices, Accounting Applications & Analysis, Corporate Finance & Advisory Services, Credit Management, Investments, Treasury and Bcomm 2.

i must be too free to type it all out. booooo. what are all these modules, it all seem so foreign. i know i should be sleeping now considering the fact that i've paper tomorrow. but...

RUSSIAN ROULETTE IS NOT THE SAME WITHOUT A GUN

2009-08-25T23:35:00.000+08:00

i only managed to sleep around seven plus in the morning. there's really something wrong with my bio clock. and the thing is i suck at time maximising. i wasn't even studying i was just lying on my bed reading remember me by sophie kinsella.

attempted to do POA but i'm kinda stuck at accounting for inventory because all the textbooks illustrations and figures are the same. i can't seem to figure it out. oh well, nehmind. shall ask my pork.

BMGT paper tomorrow and erm, i seem to lost the motivation. i was all so excited and motivated to study for this paper but well, i don't know where it all gone too. :( doubt i'll be able to sleep tonight since i woke up about two hours ago. so i'll be studying it. i love love love bmgt, i know i love it to the max man!

IT IN BUSINESS

2009-08-24T16:41:00.003+08:00

i got a shock when i woke up. because i'm supposed to leave the house at eight. guess what, i woke up at seven fifty three. with only seven minutes to prepare. awesome me. then there was traffic jam along king albert park to school. really jam not heavy traffic. lol. so i was all panicky and ran to the lift. i remember i pressed four and i got out at fourth floor. but when i looked up, it was third floor. tell me, how's my day. lol.

was kinda late for the paper in the morning. we're suppose to be in the room twenty minutes before the paper. and ten minutes before the paper, the paper would be given out. so if you reached ten minutes earlier, you're late. hmm, what weird rule. oh well, i ought to keep my mouth shut when my mom constantly remind me that there'll be traffic jam and all so must leave house early.

the paper was alright. all the questions were from the revision lecture. but there were some very weird questions. and crap, there's this ten mark question, i think i screwed it up. i hope hope hope i could still ace it.

a break for today and tmrw, then brings the next paper. i don't know why but i'm feeling rather excited and can't wait for sit for the bmgt paper. and today after the paper, we were discussing about where to go immediately after the exams and of course, our holiday plans. :D

I'M A LAZY PIG, AS ALWAYS

2009-08-23T23:54:00.004+08:00

yay, blogger's finally back to normal. but what a wrong time, i don't have time to post up those photos.

i'm kinda proud of myself today yay. :D i finally found the motivation to start on my poa. left with accounting for non current assets and inventories. hoooray. what a small accomplishment i know. perhaps my classmates are all done with poa. lol.

ITB paper tomorrow. and i'm not really confident. because me being a lazy person, i only studied from the revision lecture slides and not the chapter slides. yesterday i realised that the chapter slides have a lot more to study than what is included in the revision lecture. but ah, god is fair. he sees that i'm finally actually studying after o's. hahahha!

business management on wednesday, microecons on thurs and poa on friday. and say hello to holidays! :D wheeee! i'm so so so so looking forward to it yo! i wanna watch coco before chanel and the proposal!

oh crap, i just read the news and i saw ' WHO predicts explosion of swine flu cases'.

MAN U!

2009-08-23T03:25:00.000+08:00

yay, so proud of Man U. they're finally back! 5 goals against wigan! though its just wigan, ahahhaha they're still good i believe. rooooney's da best! he's my dad! :)

gonna shower now! :D

:(

2009-08-23T00:51:00.000+08:00

damn it, i just did the stupidest thing on earth. i put the whole packet of chicken rice into the oven and guess what. that brown paper thingy caught on fire because it touches the top part of the oven. it was 200 degrees. tell me, how i'm the smartest person on earth who got my chicken rice on fire.

ONE OF THE FEW MOMENTS

2009-08-22T18:53:00.002+08:00

truth to be told, i was a lil' angry with sean just now. because when i called him and asked him about poa he couldn't make out what i was asking so i was pissed and said bye. little did i know that all the time after he hung up the phone he was making his way to central to buy chicken rice for me. :D then i received a text saying he's on his way to my house with the poa textbook and my dinner. aww, thanks love you so much. you're sucha darling. :D though i didn't get to give you a super big hug, i'm still contented to see you for just that lil' while. few minutes i suppose. :)

i used to tell sean i love him more than he loves me. then he'll say, ' if a person doesn't love you the way you want them to, doesn't mean that they don't love you as much.' i think its true.

ughh, i can't speak or smile properly because my left cheek seems to be swollen. i think its my teeth or i don't know actually. lol.

k i can't wait for night time! all the time when i was on my bed yesterday i was thinking of garlic bread and mushroom soup! my mom bought this super delicious garlic bread. i mean its really nice you'd ask for more after eating. so tonight while studying, i shall make that my companion. i'm sucha pig! ahhahah! i think i'm really really growing fat.

you just made my day better even though econs and poa tried to spoil it. :)

STOP

2009-08-21T20:06:00.001+08:00

i'm so tired of expectations and routines. or i should just say i'm tired of life, yet again. not mention i'm barely eighteen. this is getting nowhere.

i guess i'm always living by the expectations of people which unknowingly become a part of me. in secondary school, i'm just suppose to score well because the teachers expect me to do well. because my mom expects me to do well. its always like this. she always says i'm suppose to be better than my brothers so she doesn't really pay much attention to my studying process. its just the results that matter to her. all these then becomes a reason to why i must do well. well, i guess expectations sometimes do play in a part in motivating me to study. but time after time, it gets too draggy and annoying.

when exams are nearing i've to constantly remind myself that, i must study i must do well cause i don't want to let my mom down. then again, after saying that for ten years, it gets a lil' meaningless. but no matter how meaningless or tired it is, i still have to do it. that's just the irony i don't understand. i wish i could just not study for once. then again, i don't want to fail my modules. see, again another irony.

now i realise the purpose of having a blog cause it serves as a comfort corner to write down whatever can't be expressed through verbal conversation. not like after saying this to anyone, i'll feel better. its all the same old words that they'll be saying. ugh, no offence though.

ahh, i guess i'd better stop whining and get back to my notes. and guess what, i haven't even touched my poa at all. and the paper is on the 28th. how awesome. i always don't wanna pay attention to lectures because i always depend on sean to teach me. i just ought to slap myself about this and i'll study on my own this time.

WISH YOU COULD STEP BACK FROM THE LEDGE, MY FRIEND

2009-08-20T23:41:00.000+08:00

now i've a grinning stomach. :D just finished that packet of tortilla chips and salsa and three scramble eggs. awesome.

sleep, eat, study pretty much sums up my day. eight more days till holidays. i know i can't wait for that.

TORTILLA CHIPS + SALSA = HEAVEN

2009-08-19T23:45:00.000+08:00

so yesterday went to the airport to study with sean. since my mom's overseas, i could study overnight there. i love the yakun soft boil eggs and sean's scramble eggs. i realised i've been eating quite a bit. i think i'm gonna grow fat during the exam period due to snacking. went home at around three plus four cause we were both tired. and oh my god, we got a super sleepy taxi driver and its scary. he practically closed his eyes while driving on the highway. lol.

today went to photocopy our personal particulars at challenger's main office. and crap, we're selling brother's printer. i mean, i don't even know there's such brand called Brother. ahhahah! then went back to his house and sleep. crap, exam period are taxing and energy zapping. :( i'm kinda motivated to study now because i realised almost all my classmates are done with their revision and its only wednesday today. scary hardworking people.

now, let me tell you guys a big secret. tortilla chips and the salsa pepper dip from marks and spencer are something worth dying for. it taste like heaven i swear. yay, my companion for tonight all thanks to sean. should have bought pudding milk tea to go along with it. hahahah!

and my darling's been sucha sweetheart. :D

ONSUGAR?

2009-08-17T20:10:00.000+08:00

ah crap, why is blogger still going against me. :( contemplating if i should switch to onsugar because it allows me to import my archive. ah, i think i'll just stick to blogger first. but will you stop having problems. :(

k so yesterday and today's rather productive, i should say. gonna start on my ITB tonight and perhaps going to study with sean tomorrow. i hope i'll do well for my finals. i don't want a lousy GPA.

i feel so fishy now. i could only remember i ate fish, fish and fish for my dinner. yesterday when i was so desperate for food, i ordered KFC. two pcs chicken, shrooms burger and popcorn chicken. so chickeny. what a good balance man. lol.

YOU'RE THE VOICE

2009-08-16T01:44:00.000+08:00

sean is sucha sweetheart! today when i was packing his room i found a paper. he actually wrote down the recipe of super egg! hahahah! k la, i know its some stupid name. i don't know what is it called so just super egg. lol. i used to eat it last time when i was velly velly young. its just some egg plus mushroom and tomatoes i think. he actually wrote it down! i can't believe it. and mind you, i told him that super duper long ago. hahahh! my honeybunny is da best! :D

EIGHTEENTH, TWENTY FOURTH

2009-08-15T23:56:00.001+08:00

met sean in the afternoon and ops i was late for half an hour. really sorry. the first thing i saw other than him is the pudding milk tea! :D ever since fenglin told me try that i fell in love with pudding milk tea! its super duper nice especially with extra pudding! yummaye!

went to his house and watch DVDs. felt like those good old times. last time when we were in secondary school, we did that almost every week. but now, once in a month kinda thing. :( but still, it feels good. ohh, we watched marley & me and taken! i'm still not over taken because its really cool and exciting.

and sean has got to be the dirtiest and laziest person now. ughh, you better stop it okay. mouseypig. hahahah! just reached home not long ago. gonna work on my econs. i remember telling sean i love econs at the start of the term, but it all seems to fade now. i mean i still love econs but there's hell lots of things to study. oh lord, bless me. :( ITB, BMGT, MIEC, POA. ahhh. :(

LUCKY TO BE COMING HOME AGAIN

2009-08-15T02:30:00.001+08:00

ughhh, k i don't know if its my internet connection or blogger has problem. the top bar doesn't come out at all. boo. :( i wanted to post photos but it doesn't allow me to.

i'm sucha good girl today! i stayed at home and did some BMGT revision. i was thinking to spot chapters but when i looked at the past exam papers, i gave up. i decided to study all. the setters are so mean, they can combine two or three chapters in one question. so it makes it a must to study all eleven chapters. feels like those social studies times again. lol.

i want to tag the photos of jon's birthday but again, i dont know if its the facebook or my internet connection problem. :( and this is distracting me from studying. hahahah! yay i can't wait for tomorrow. i mean later. because i'm meeting mouseypig! and its the fifteenth again. still love you the same babe. :D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, JONATHAN! :D

2009-08-14T00:21:00.003+08:00

went to school early to surprise Jonathan. yesterday i was just asking him how would he be celebrating his birthday and he said he would be studying in school. then today in school, fenglin and tricia said that he look very sad and all! hahahahah! stupid, we actually kept the surprise from him quite well. :D

went to burlington square to buy some films and next to russel peanut's house! and wow, his house is super duper nice. a pool table and walls of mirrors to greet you once the door is opened. ohh we can see the seaview from his house too! awesome not? hahahha! not to mention his living room has this super nice sofa to lie on. it was fun taking photos and talking about everything.

then headed to timbre! the guys really drank alot alot man. scary shit. i thought flaming lambo is very strong but somehow i was wrong. the guys drank it and they were still so normal. but their pizzas and chicken wings are velly velly zee nice. :D took quite alot of photos, talked a bit then went home.

alright, enough of playing and having fun. i'll start studying from tomorrow onwards. and darling, good luck for your dss test alright. i know you will and you can do well.

UPSIDE DOWN

2009-08-13T00:31:00.006+08:00

went to school early to wait for sean. and i've to say its unexpectedly productive since i've done some ITB notes. :D i make good use of time eh. hahahah! went to kallang leisure park for lunch/dinner then to the stadium. china vs singapore. and guess what, it was a draw but singapore just have to lose during the penalty kick. :( what a waste. hmm, i've to say the people there are rather uncivilised. headed home after that.

my day went a lil' wrong. first, my handphone's low batt and i forgot to charge. second, my gate couldn't open. third, i forgot to bring the key out. so guess what, when i reached home i stood outside the house for quite sometime, thinking if i should just climb in. because i couldn't find the key, my phone had no batt and i couldn't call at all. oh well, crap. but luckily i manage to get my dad to open the door.

i love to sleep on your meaty shoulders and hug your flabby arms. and not forgetting the way you pat me to sleep. :)

EGGGCITED

2009-08-11T23:32:00.002+08:00

okay, i'm already planning my after exams activities. and i'm already in the holiday mood which is super duper bad. ahhahah! was talking to russel about the photo shoot we gonna have during the holidays! we got super egggcited about it la! all those tinted and split films. ahhh, cool shit. :D really really eggcited okay! ahahahhah!

alright, today's a good day! :D went shopping with my aunt! whee! what could be better than this right? :D i gave up my kate spade bag for a che che bag! :D that bag is way more awesome and prettier! hahahahh! i didn't know there's this brand until i went to centre point today. its some new york brand i think.

pull and bear has very very nice tops now so wait no more and go get yours tomorrow! hahahahh! i sound like i'm promoting their stuff. but their stuff are really nice now.:D

k enough of shopping. now the misery moment. joyce oh joyce. when will you start studying. ahhh, crap. its already tuesday and i haven't done any revision. i ought to slap myself now. :(

PIG SAYS:

2009-08-10T23:36:00.002+08:00

seaN. loves joycey lai says:

* i dont want change my darling already.
* only want this small and irritating mouse.
* that like to hide under the bed
* and eat rice with salted fish

i was just joking and told him that i hid underneath the bed the whole day cause no one asked me out. and that i only had salted fish and rice for dinner. lol.

love you la irritating fat ass! :D

SEAN IS A SNEEZING PIG!

2009-08-10T22:50:00.004+08:00

today feels like a lazy day. been sleeping for almost the whole day. sucha lazy pig i must say. hmm, today's the start of the study break but i haven't even touched my notes at all. looking at the thick pile of notes, its rather intimidating. :( ahahahah! sean just told me about the holidays and i'm started to feel motivated to study! because holidays end at 18th oct! wheeeee! :D

working for the IT fair this coming September! then probably gonna work until the end of September. at least i've 18 days to play and enjoy! :D i'm definitely gonna enjoy my holidays because i know when term starts its gonna be all so busy again.

k on the phone with my pig now! :D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, SINGAPORE

2009-08-10T00:45:00.005+08:00

yay went out with sean and his friends today. was supposed to catch the fireworks but we didn't in the end. instead, we caught the 3D UP and it was kinda funny. just that some parts were boring. towards the end of the movie, i heard those boom boom boom sound. and there goes the fireworks. i heard this year's fireworks were damn good but i missed it. :( oh well, nevermind i guess.

then went to chjmes to watch the man u vs chelsea match. hmm, its time i remind myself not to drink so much since i've been drinking quite a bit this week. but i left halfway because i don't want to pay the extra midnight charge. i guess things are becoming more inconvenient after i moved house. i need a car soon, mommy. really really soon. :( i've given up the thought of having a Volkswagen so just normal family car would do i suppose.

went shopping for a short while in the afternoon and i saw a pair of heels from zara. the heels look nice and unique but its super high and expensive. :( sean told me not to get it cause my legs would hurt. and and and, i saw the kate spade bag that i wanted. sean and kane said its nicee ya know. so i'm really really tempted to get it. :D

and my aunt just asked me if i wanna go on a holiday with her. just me and her. yay, i can't wait. it would be a all shopping and eating week! :D i feel like going to taiwan! or hongkong or alaska or shanghai or paris! wheeeeeeee! :D

TRICIA'S BIRTHDAY

2009-08-08T23:26:00.007+08:00

ACROSS THE WATER

2009-08-08T23:14:00.002+08:00

yay had nice dinner tonight which made my day. then again i'll have to say, afterall its been so long since i really ate properly. hahahah! i loveee the dessert! i love the walnut ice cream and the fried durian ice cream with mango puree. it taste like heaven i swear! yummaye yummaye!

ah crap, last two weeks when i went shopping i actually saw a kate spade bag and it stayed on my mind ever since. what's more its on 60% sale and its hundred plus now. how? i'm dying to get it. :( to make it worse, my aunt came from indonesia and she's actually carrying a kate spade bag. how to resist such temptation man. and she ask me out for shopping on monday! hooooray! :D :D :D

tomorrow's national day and i'm going out with sean, marcus and all. yay, i can't wait. i wanna see the preetty pretty fireworks! :D

I'M SO TIRED

2009-08-07T22:24:00.007+08:00

today's the last day of school since the next two weeks are study break. the last soccer lesson was super tiring with lots of running and stuff. because the coach insisted that if we don't do enough warm ups we would have leg cramps. ughh. but we didn't play much since its a lazy friday.

been taking lots of photos since wednesday. and russel brought his big black camera today. yay its so cool to turn the thing cause it looks so professional. oh did i mention that during the holidays we're going for photo shoots and he would be our photographer? cool shit, can't wait.

as for now, study study study. its gonna be no life weeks before the exams.

YOU'RE ALL I SEE

2009-08-07T00:01:00.005+08:00

was too tired to blog yesterday. yesterday was fun cause we celebrated tricia's and justin's birthday! went to island creamery and had super nice ice cream and took super alot of photos! after which kenneth drove us to dover then went over to bedok simpang for dinner with justin. hahahah then played soccer! :D

today's also equally good! but we went to school for nothing in the morning. miec lecture was cancelled or rather, last week was the last lecture already. but none of us heard it and only tf01 & 02 were present. lol. ordered macs and played cards in the atrium. thats a kinda good start for the day yo!

poa lecture then had bmgt make up tutorial! hahahah i think i went crazy in the library after i wore shawn's jacket! i hate it when i've no jacket cause its freezing cold but when i bring jacket i don't even wear it and it adds on weight to my bag. lol. but the tutorial was fun & kinda unproductive since we weren't listening at all. lol.

yay the best part of the day is i got to meet my friends! yay, happy happy! went to arts house timbre and i think its better than the one at substation. the band was awesome too! k and karina really can't drink for god sake. hahahah! she got red after drinking half of the drink! and its diluted please. lol. me and puay joo drank quite alot though. sex on the beach and sea breeze are gooood! had sucha good time catching up and we took lots of photos too! upload it soon k! :D

Boy, I hear you in my dreams
Feel your whisper across the sea
Keep you with me in my heart
You make it easier when life gets hard

LIGHTHEARTED/ TENSE ?

2009-08-04T22:30:00.004+08:00

today's good and bad.

well, had our ITB presentation today and i guess everything went well. just that, we got a B+. was kinda upset because we spent so many hours doing it. and i spent so long to perfect it. :( oh and hahhaha! something scary happened in school today. i was telling fenglin and tricia about the keropok thing. then when we're in the lift at 56, the lift black out. so we freaked out we kept screaming and holding each other in the lift. so when we came out, everyone looked at us with those 'are they retarded?' faces. lol.

the good thing is i'm only left with the bcomm presentation tomorrow. and i'm still kinda nervous about it. i hope i don't screw it up. god bless me god bless me. haahahha.

dance was good as usual. yay i love rumbaaa! but cca is gonna stand down for three weeks. :( after not attending one lesson, i realised i couldn't dance in my heels. i hope its not psychological. but really, i took quite a while to balance on my heels while dancing, else from the beginning my legs were wobbly. okay and yay, i got my dance partner already. that guy is really cute man. after the last dance, he gave me those ' i got something to tell you' face. but he looked so shy la. only after a while, he asked if i could be his partner. ahhahah funneh.

k, i'm off to work on my bcomm script. just hopefully i won't screw it up, pretty please. yay can't wait for tomorrow. :D

END, END, END, END

2009-08-04T02:15:00.004+08:00

today was indeed fulfilling. i've finally completed my ITB webpage and done with my bcomm presentation slides. still left with the script. nonetheless, i'm bubbling over with the sense of satisfaction cause i've finally completed my ITB and BMGT today. oh my god, i swear the effort and time needed is enough for me to bake one hundred cakes. not exaggerating, i swear. its damn tedious.

i can't wait for this wednesday because everything would then be over. yes yes yes! tricia's and justin's birthday and its the end of my bcomm presentation! or rather, the end of the assignment for this sem! hoooray, a break finally. :D

supposed to watch movie with sean today but i still had to rush my ITB in school so went to his house instead. wanted to work on my bcomm but we end up falling asleep and waking up at eight. :( ughh then again,no work is done. but nehh mind, i managed to get some done at home. today would be perfect with his company if cramps didn't attempt to spoil the day. ahhahha. its been like two weeks since we spent some quality time together.

i realised love really changes people. through the endless tears and heart aches, it definitely did make me emotionally stronger. and i don't deny that i've become more vulnerable since i know that there's somebody to hold me when i fall. but i guess its always better to be stronger because i won't know when you'll be gone.

crap, i know i've some more to talk about but my eyes weigh 100kg its clamming shut now. so goodnight honeybunchs! :D

JELLO

2009-08-01T17:11:00.006+08:00

this is really getting on my nerves. i've received five emails from those blog shops saying that they received bounced mail and the address i gave is incorrect. i mean what the hell, how can it be incorrect. ughhh, but the new address is already registered what! irritating shit, no wonder this whole week i didn't receive any package. :( i want all my dresses and tops now now now!

finally get to spend some time with sean yesterday. afterall its been like a week since i had time for him. next wednesday will put an end to everything. our presentation and projects deadlines. yay, i can't wait for that. projects have been killing me. and its been long since i had fourteen hours of sleep.

so today i woke up hoping to see its four or five pm. but i woke up like four times and its only 1. i wish i could sleep the day away. alright, today's boring because i had nothing on. good time for me to read up on my poa and econs. k, i'm gonna shower and get some work done.

(1/8/09) (3.30.13pm) sean: sorrrrry
(1/8/09) (3.30.14pm) sean: woke up so late

(1/8/09) (3.31.07pm) joyce: EH YOU'RE SUPPOSE TO GO OUT WITH ME LA
(1/8/09) (3.31.09pm) joyce: :(
(1/8/09) (3.31.20pm) joyce: you said you're suppose to go sky dining today!
(1/8/09) (3.31.23pm) joyce: you liar pork!

(1/8/09) (3.31.42pm) sean: so sorry
(1/8/09) (3.31.49pm) sean: i'll pick you up at your place at 7
(1/8/09) (3.31.55pm) sean: then we'll drive over
(1/8/09) (3.31.58pm) sean: i made appointment le

(1/8/09) (3.32.03pm) joyce: okay i go dress up now see you later

(1/8/09) (3.32.40pm) sean: don't worry about the dress
(1/8/09) (3.32.45pm) sean: i called a seamstress to make for you already
(1/8/09) (3.32.46pm) sean: and she's on her way to deliver

(1/8/09) (3.33.02pm) joyce: ahahahha love you la
(1/8/09) (3.33.40pm) joyce: but when? 7 pm today or 7pm next year?

stupid shit. hahahahah! i told sean about the sky dining jo told me. and i was trying to disturb him cause he woke up late and thought that we're suppose to go out today. lol.

SLEEP, NO?

2009-07-31T04:38:00.003+08:00

i realised i've been really caught up with projects for these two weeks. i havent been having enough sleep since i dont know how long ago. :( and then again, look at the time now. crap, i don't know if i should even go to bed or continue with my cats self reflection.

okay, i went just to brush my teeth and saw a really huge flying cockroach with long feelers in the toilet. that really scare the hell out of me but not enough to keep the adrenaline rushing in my body. i need to stay awake, i've still got things to be done.

stayed back in school for itb until eleven again today. we actually spent 10 hours on itb without having lunch and dinner. tell me, just how pathetic is this. and the thing is, we're still not yet done. :( at the end of the day i couldn't even make out what my friends were saying though they were speaking english. dumb shit.

i'm glad i've nice friends who are such sweethearts. they kept asking me to sleep and drink more water. hahahah i love love you all. :D

BURNING THROUGH MY DARKEST NIGHT

2009-07-30T01:51:00.004+08:00

i was really damn tired in school today and i hate not having enough sleep. but yes, i'll hang on because projects deadlines are gonna be over real soon. then its gonna be study week. :( why does everything comes together.

in the past, i used to say shopping is my remedy for everything. but i think it seems all so different now. retail therapy didn't help to relieve my stress. :( in fact, all the while i was out for shopping my mind was filled with projects deadlines. crap. but yay, still kinda happy since i've gotten my blazer. :D

and i lost one of my earrings two days ago! i swear i still saw it on my ears after showering. but when i'm all dressed up ready to go out, i look into the mirror and there goes it. k, ignore the fact that i was too lazy to search for it. :( besides that, my phone went haywire again. this is so shitty, i wanna change phone nowww. but have been spending alot of mom's money i dont know how to open my mouth and say i want a new phone. how now brown cow. :(

k shall get back to editing cats projects. then again, one more night without sleep. awesome much. thanks projects.

SNOWBALL

2009-07-29T00:44:00.002+08:00

this is so pathetic. i just got home from school not long ago. projects are really killing and i doubt i've time to sleep tonight again. man, what is this becoming to. :(

had poa graded test in the morning and crap, i think i had some errors here and there. there goes my marks. then had itb. itb is sucha crap. i dont understand why we have to do so much for pbl part 2 and its only 15%. how crappy is that man. its so much work eh. creating a website sucks. especially when you don't even know how to use adobe flash and web expression. now my adobe flash is trying to be irritating with me. ughhh.

feeling slightly contented because we're one quarter done with the web page! yay. happy happy. :D its damnnnn nice. k it might not be that nice but the amount of work we put it is bigger than the universe i swear.

still needa teach my brother a maths. ah crap man. there goes my sleep again. ohhh and i actually skipped dance because of ITB. :( my rumbaaaaaaaa. :(

PAPA PAPARAZZI

2009-07-27T22:48:00.003+08:00

today was a rather good day, i thought.

had bcomm report writing test in the morning. and while writing, i suddenly burst out laughing. i don't know why am i always so retarded. lol. its so embarrassing cause the class is so quiet then i started laughing. hahahah! and what made school best was, bmgt was cancelled because charan kaur is on three days mc! yay! bmgt means no presentation. no but again i mean get well soon. ahhahah!

initially wanted to go to central with sean but changed of plans! we went to republic poly instead! k i may just consider a transfer to that school since its much nicer and fully air conditioned. and the food there are much nicer i heard. met karina and spent some time talking to her. woah its been like so long since i last seen her. and eat more please! you're so skinny now! might have plans on saturday! wheee!

went to simpang bedok with sean, marcus and justin. i loveeeee the mash potato there, it tastes like heaven. but i was so full i couldn't finish my rice. nehmind, the food is still damn good there. after eating we were too full to move so sat down for a while and talk about our sec school lives. how nice. and how funny is it to reminisce such mean acts of ours. then cabbedddd home!

i realised i love to hug sean's fat and flabby arms to sleep especially during long bus rides. :D

NEW DIVIDE

2009-07-26T22:29:00.003+08:00

ughhh, once again the projects are driving me crazy. i hate it when people send such sloppy work to me and i've to edit it. i mean like if you wanna do it then give it your best right? rather than giving some stupid sloppy work. irritating assholes shitheads. ughh. pardon my language its just gets on my nerves everytime.

had family gathering today at my place again. eeyer i hate it cause have to clean up the place after everything ended. ughh so much things to do now man. report writing test tmrw, miec newspaper editing and bmgt ppt cause there's presentation tomorrow. :(

ahh, today sucks. all the stupid shitheads.

i know tomorrow will be better. i know i know i know and it must be.

SHAKE IT

2009-07-25T20:48:00.002+08:00

i'm craving for the QQ Gummies now. not gummy bears but its some gummies from wang wang. k, i mean want want if its in english. i bought six packets yesterday but i only brought home one. see my greedy ah pui ate almost five packets. hhahah! i had a good time feeding gummies to the senile sean cause i stick it all over his lips! :D

i'm at home now. :( i wanted to go and see torres but my work doesnt allow me to. nevermind! i decided to give it a miss because sean promised me that we would go to anfield and see him one day! and old trafford too! right babe? :D you better keep your promise okay you greedy pork who ate my gummies!

ohhh, i heard nobody by wonder girls just now and i miss BFS camp! :( though our stuff got stolen i still love the camp! especially the first night! cause we kept disturbing fenglin with that nobody dance!

yay, am almost done with miec and i've to remind myself that there's report writing test on monday! busy busy busy. was talking to fenglin just now and we said the only thing to look forward to is the holidays because then we could go to timbre again! timbre has nice pizzas! and sex on the beach is gooooood too!

today's sucha good day since i had fourteen hours of sleep. :D ahh, i feel like dancing now! i wanna learn jive now now now cause i heard its super fun! how i wish melvin is my dad and sharon is my mom! :D

CAME WITHOUT A REASON

2009-07-24T22:45:00.004+08:00

yesterday was really crappy. few minutes before i wanted to go to bed, my phone decided its fun to die on me. the touch screen can't respond at all. so i switched off my phone, thinking that it'll be alright after i turned it on again. who knows my phone can't be switched on. but it decides to work well this morning again what is this man. ughhh, i'm not gonna buy touch screen phone again. so troublesome and irritating. and can't text without looking.

yay i'm so glad bmgt's over. but there's still so much to be done. three more projects to go. then its three weeks to final's. they always say if you go to a poly, life would be more relax. but i think its more like slacking at your own disadvantage man. what a common misconception.

met sean after soccer today then went over to his place cause i wanna eat the chicken rice at central! ahhh, i miss living in pasir ris. :( i miss going to ehub, whitesands, tampines mall and pasir ris interchange.

k, gonna move my ass and get some work done!

ALMOST HERE

2009-07-24T00:40:00.005+08:00

been sleeping at four or five in the morning and waking up at eight. man, this is killing me. but i'm glad tomorrow is friday which means its our bmgt deadline. followed by miec and itb. though i've been complaining about this and that, it definitely brings much satisfaction when i see all the work being done properly.

today isn't the best of day due to the endless editing of projects. i've unknowingly become the editor for almost all the projects. again, sense of satisfaction. but before this sense of satisfaction, lots of whining comes first. but i swear this week is the busiest week of my life, or so if i'm not wrong. because i didn't feel this busy during o's even.

few minutes ago when i was reading sean's message, i felt tears prickling in my eyes. k, i was touched. told you i'm a cry baby. darling, i'm sorry i know i havent been the best girlfriend. but i'll always be by your side and you know i love you the most no matter what. :)

ONE STEP AT A TIME

2009-07-22T22:05:00.003+08:00

decided to give school a miss because i was really too tired for school.

am finally done with my part of bmgt and editing. and now i'm doing itb. web expression isn't that complicated after all. and photoshop is the one that sucks now. :( i know nuts about it man. ughh. everything's crazy. deadline for bmgt this friday. miec and itb next week. its all packed together. rushing all these projects are enough to make you crazy.

and cheryl just have to remind me that the final exams are in one month's time. and its eighty percent. considering that fact that i didn't get all as during the common test, i think i'd better work hard this time round.

I'll do anything for a smile,
holding you 'til our time is done
We both know the day will come,
but I don't want to leave you

RUMBA ROCKS MY SOCKS

2009-07-22T01:31:00.002+08:00

okay, i'm sucha good girl i decide to go to school today!

miec tutorial lasted only for an hour plus. and today he's damn funny. our teacher lost his handphone and he was really worried. then si pei called his phone, only to realise he dropped it in the library. so we told him we could go and get it for him. he said okay, take your time to get it back. like so what the hell right! but hahahha, he's a nice teacher. :D our adviser eh!

next was dance! whee! i kinda love rumba because its slow and the timing is just nice for you to move your butt in the circular motion for one round. hahaha! i know it sounds a lil' stupid, but i'm serious! cha cha is way too fast as compared to this. yay, i heard we'll be learning jive, samba and lastly, some erm. flamingo kinda dance. :D

ohhh and yes, i saw this guy wearing SP inspired NP shirt. its exactly like SP shirt, just that the words are changed to NP and behind they have the words SP but its being striked out. so mean, imagine if we were to wear it to SP. but its seventeen bucks as compared to the SP shirt which is five bucks. -.- i heard the design came from the people in forum. because they said there are too many people wearing SP shirt to NP. such funnehh people.

kenneth and jonathan were so nice they decide to wait for me to walk out of school after dance. hahaha! wanted to have dinner with them, but ah went over to cheryl's house instead. wow, it's been like soo long since i went to her house. lol. had a great time catching up with her and it suddenly feels like how it was back in our secondary school days. :D i miss those days, HEAD PREFECT. hahahahha! and stop it stop making fun of me okay. idiot.

i hate the feeling of always missing something/someone when i know that there's nothing i can do to get it back. its like i'm forced to, and many a times i really don't have much alternatives left. they always say the choice is yours. but sorry, i beg to differ. the choice is not mine. and it sucks to know that i'm actually feeling this way.

HALF BLOOD PRINCE

2009-07-20T22:32:00.003+08:00

monday blues. :( okay, more like moodless due to insufficient sleep. hahaha!

i hate itb man. what's with web expression and those stupid html codes. its enough to kill my already half dead brain. so the morning was quite unproductive, we didn't even manage to get anything done.

and there's another individual bcomm presentation which consists of 20%. i hate it man. another formal presentation. with long sleeves, heels and this time round, blazer. but hahhaha its good. another reason for shopping. :D its rather irritating when things all happen together, so packed that you could hardly breathe.

but it was definitely much better when i get to spend some time with sean. because i've been rather busy with my projects recently. caught harry potter. actually i think the movie's alright. just that the ending seems not complete. its not that bad, maybe because i didn't read the storybooks. but it was too long, i fell asleep in between. yay finally had pudding milk tea which i've been craving for so many weeks! :D

contemplating if i should go to school tomorrow. because there's only miec tutorial. and after miec tutorial i still have to wait for two and a half hours before dancesport starts. but i don't wanna miss tomorrow's rumba lesson! :( tell me how how how.

WHEN THE GOING GETS TOUGH AND TOUGH GETS GOING

2009-07-20T06:47:00.004+08:00

yay, i'm so proud of myself because i've completed controlling for bmgt! and almost done editing for the other topics. the night wasn't that bad with the company of puay joo. see, this is what projects do to us.

am left with itb and miec project. going to school earlier for the itb project later. :(

felt a lil' nostalgic while talking to puay joo just now. i almost wanted to say see you in school, only to realise we're not in the same school anymore. :( gone were the days when i could see my beloved 5N1 in school everyday. was talking to alvin recently and he told me something, ' although we don't get to see each other as much now, you guys will still be kept in my heart.' okay, i know it might sound like some simple sentences that everyone could say. but hey, it holds alot of meanings okay.

ENERGY ZAPPING

2009-07-19T20:00:00.004+08:00

indeed, very.

i'm so angry with myself because i just have to get distracted while doing work and i took sucha long time to get my justification report done. its just some short report. shoot me. ughh. but am glad i'm finally done with it. bmgt next. and i heard there's a poa test coming next week which i've yet to study. all those alien topics.

k i know i shouldn't be complaining about the heavy workload and the endless projects. but i hate it cause i barely have time to do my own things. i haven't had time to finish the storybooks i bought earlier. and at times like this, i just feel like going shopping and not care about anything. :( shopping just seems to be the remedy for everything. GSS is coming to an end at the end of this month man. i still haven't had enough of shopping.

tomorrow's the start of a hectic week again. i wish time could move a lil' slower because its getting way too fast. i can't seem to grab hold of anything. and that made me feel handcuffed. :(

on a happier note, i'll get to see my classmates tomorrow again. its always good to have such nice and nonsensical classmates. because they are my source of motivation to go to school when everything gets too draggy.

DRAINED

2009-07-19T01:21:00.005+08:00

i'm physically and mentally drained. this is so bad. i'm not even enjoying my weekends, not to mention its gonna be over real soon. like tomorrow. then its gonna be a whole project filled week.

my mom actually asked me to type out a chinese proposal for her and translate it to english. typing it out alone could kill. afterall its been so long since i last read chinese. and her chinese are so profound i don't even understand much. and translating it to english took me almost the whole day. i thought i could at least complete my justification report and touch up on my bmgt project.

ughh, tell me how now. to make my day worser, i actually kicked the kitchen sliding door and my toe is swollen. and as i was skipping sideways to my dining table, i hit another sliding door and fell.

i want to sleep now. no. i want some motivation so i could complete my work and projects as soon as possible.

i miss ndp. i miss the times i had three years ago. we would be practicing at the indoor and national stadium on every saturday. i miss our stupid retarded choreography and those national day songs. :( i wanna watch the fireworks.

REFUGEES

2009-07-17T22:41:00.003+08:00

k, i can't believe we actually did this. we hid underneath the tables to take photos during ITB lecture. see how unproductive and retarded we get during boring lectures. -.-

I KNOW I DO

2009-07-17T22:06:00.003+08:00

today's probably the most enjoyable soccer lesson! :D yay, i scored three goals! hat trick! woohoo! ohh and next week we'll have combined dance lesson and we'll be learning rumba! finally done with cha cha! then jive! yay, can't wait can't wait.

ahh, i wanna get the new man u jersey! k, i know its not that nice but just hmm, i wanna get number seven! :D went to watch s league with marcus and sean. ahh crap, i haven't won any soccer matches since the start of the year. so tell me, just how unlucky i can get this year. but sean insisted that i don't think i just buy whatever i want to buy. that's bad.

i saw marcus's wallpaper and i was asking sean why can't things be like how it was during the holidays. why can't the eight of us go out together again. its so difficult to meet up with everyone due to the different time tables we had. well not just that, of course there're some other reasons as well. hmm..

my brother was an ass yesterday and today he decides to be nice. he told me i could play the ps 3 whenever i want to. ohh and he would buy whatever game i want to play. hmm, how nice. :D

There's some things we don't talk about
Rather do without
And just hold the smile
Falling in and out of love
Ashamed and proud of
Together all the while

You can never say never
Why we dont know when
Time and time again
Younger now than we were before

Don't let me go
Don't let me go
Don't let me go

PS 3!

2009-07-16T21:59:00.006+08:00

yay i see ps 3 in my house now! :D tell me i need to stop wanting so many stuff since i bought so much already. :(

AKALLA

2009-07-16T13:10:00.001+08:00

You're not sorry - Taylor Swift

All this time I was wasting,
Hoping you would come around
I've been giving out chances every time
And all you do is let me down
And it's taking me this long
Baby but I figured you out
And you're thinking we'll be fine again,
But not this time around

You don't have to call anymore
I won't pick up the phone
This is the last straw
Don't wanna hurt anymore
And you can tell me that you're sorry
But I don't believe you baby
Like I did - before
You're not sorry, no no ohhh

Looking so innocent,
I might believe you if I didn't know
Could've loved you all my life
If you hadn't left me waiting in the cold
And you got your share of secrets
And I'm tired of being last to know
And now you're asking me to listen
Cause it's worked each time before

this song's been on my head since morning and it has been playing on repeat mode. ignore the lyrics, it's a nice song.

WHAT A DAY

2009-07-16T11:23:00.002+08:00

oh crap, what a day.

i can't believe i spilled my water on the chair. and there goes my pants. its all wet. and stupid kenneth just have to announce to everybody that i wet my pants. how embarrassing. okay but luckily tricia helped me to dry my pants a lil' in the toilet. ahh, now i'm convinced that i've butter fingers. i can't believe the water bottle slipped off my hand and spilled on my chair. pffft.

but yay, itb workshop is cancelled so i'll be dismissed from one! how awesome. maybe i should use some time to revise my work since i've been slacking for so long. i just can't seem to get the drive which i had in secondary school. can't really be bothered to study. oh man. this is bad. :( i'm like the last few in my class. this is so shitty.

SEVENTEENTH

2009-07-15T19:54:00.002+08:00

alright, today was good i suppose since i dismissed myself from school at one. hahaha! k that's besides the point but okay, i was trying to spend my time productively because i know i won't pay attention to ITB lecture. so i skipped it. :D and spend some quality time with my darling kimmy.

supposedly to go to marche for lunch but we went to ministry of food instead. out of so many times we've been there, we always order the same old food. but i've to say the food there rocks my socks and entertains my toes. its super nice especially the desserts! wanted to watch movie but both of us were really lazy so went to his house and i fell asleep. how much of a pig i am yo.

k we're gonna get dinner now and i'll be going home since he needs to study for bstats test. hello you pork, you'd better say you love me more than all the living and non living things in the world. ahhaha!

HEELS ON THE HILL

2009-07-13T14:34:00.004+08:00

met up with puay joo on saturday. changed of plans so we didn't go for hightea. end of the month i suppose. had a good time shopping and catching up with each other. finally i see her spending money. efficient shopping eh. :D then met up with some 5ns at central for dinner.

went to sean's place on sunday to complete my projects. ahhh, super irritating yesterday. so much things to do. so rush. then watched him while he played soccer. i still prefer to see him playing as defender.

and today's our bcomm presentation! yay and the teacher said we've done a good job. yay yay yay. :D but i heard there's still another upcoming individual presentation. and the heels are killing me i can feel my toes screaming in pain. heels on the hill! ahhh k i wanna go home and sleep now. :(

LOST AND INSECURE

2009-07-10T13:11:00.003+08:00

ahh i hate it when there's so much to do yet so lil' time. let's just say i've got so much to do instead of my poor time management. i've got five upcoming projects to done by monday and my house still doesn't have internet connection. ughh. and i hate to remind myself that august is coming which means exams again.

gonna go for some shopping later to destress. i need a bag and my formal shirt. bcomm presentation on monday and i'm not quite done with my script. i really wanna get everything over and done with now. so busy and tired. :(

but i'm sure weekends would be better since i'm meeting my friends for hightea at goodwood park on saturday. then meeting sean for soccer at sunday. :D

YOU FOUND ME

2009-07-09T13:51:00.002+08:00

went to adam road for dinner then island creamery for ice cream yesterday! i finally realised how much of a east person i am. i've not eaten at island creamery before. so when we were going home, kenneth and sean had to scare me with those scary stories of girls being raped. i got so afraid i decided not to walk home.

and today kenneth told me that he asked Ronald MacDonald to protect me cause he's everywhere. yeah right. -.-

i think i'm like living in some rural area with no Internet connection and scv. so all i do when i get home is to do work, read and sleep. how pathetic but simple.

AND KNOW THE STARS ARE HOLDING YOU TONIGHT

2009-07-08T14:22:00.002+08:00

dance was awesome as usual and yay, we're finally done with cha cha. gonna learn rumba the next lesson. :D but yesterday's lesson was kinda tiring. we just keep walking and sashaying over and over again.

was reading on michael jackson's life story during bmgt lecture just now. as a kid, i would definitely wanna stay at neverland even though i have to admit that david beckham's house looks nicer and more grand. lol. ohh and kenneth showed us this video where they filmed at neverland and spotted this shadow in michael jackson's room. they thought it was his spirit. scary.

after months of thinking when my bag is gonna give way, it finally gave way today. :( i wonder if melanie's ted baker bag is still working fine. the strap of my bag tore. how embarrassing. i've to walk around school hugging my bag. but my friends were such sweethearts, they carried my bag and laptop bag for me. :D

and now its ITB lecture, which also means self entertainment. tricia , fenglin and me decide that its fun to cam whore during lecture. we actually hid under the table to take photos. refugees. hahaha! and many eyes were on us. kinda embarrassing. i wonder when will i actually pay attention to ITB lecture. i tried but its super boring i swear.

bcomm project discussion later and perhaps meeting sean. your random phone calls definitely did made my days brighter even though i don't get to see you.

A DIZZY TWISTED DANCE

2009-07-07T12:25:00.004+08:00

crap, its funny how i got lost yesterday and couldn't find my house. lol. so i ended up walking for half an hour up hill and down hill. booo. i can't wait to get my driving license so that i can drive instead of walking a long way home.

ohh and did i mention sean was sucha sweetheart on sunday? he actually came all the way to my house just to pass me blank papers so that i can print my troubleshooting report. :D and i had a hard time directing him in and out. but still, thanks darling pork!

okay, i think i've got short term memory so that explains why i got nothing to blog about cause i sort of forgot what happened yesterday. except that i slept for super long after i reached home and talked on the phone with sean. and this sem sucks, really. i've four ongoing projects and the deadlines are next next week. some even this week. i don't know how to complete it on time. :(

I'LL CROSS THE STREAM

2009-07-06T15:02:00.005+08:00

met sean and his friends for soccer yesterday. yay, i finally get to see emyza. :D its been like a few months. lol. since i haven't done my troubleshooting report, i couldn't play with them. so i sat by the side and do my report. :(

but it started to rain so heavily i was so cold i almost turned into a snowman. then came the most interesting part. i took a cab just to use the toilet. expensive toilet fare. hahahah! cause i needed to pee so urgently and its raining, me and justin took a cab to loyang point so that i could use the toilet. :D

yay i love walking in the rain, especially the feeling when i got drenched. so i reached home with water dripping on the floor.

i have a dream, a song to sing

YOU KNOW YOU'RE MY SAVING GRACE

2009-07-03T21:32:00.002+08:00

today feels like a lazy friday. i always remember when i was still in secondary school, i would wake up feeling very happy knowing its friday. but not anymore now. i'm so lazy i feel like rolling instead of walking.

i'm always complaining to sean about how insensitive he is, how he always don't express his love in the similar way as i do and many more little little stuff. only today did i realised that i shouldn't have done that. k i mean i shouldn't be always complaining. he's constantly showing his love to me in a different way, so different that sometimes i wouldn't even notice it.

although most of the times he's super annoying disturbing me with his nonsense and all, there're times when he's very caring. when i'm hungry he always make sure there's food for me, else he would get it no matter how late it is. today he insisted on carrying my laptop even though he had his to carry. its very heavy and difficult to carry because of the surface of our laptop bags. and when i asked him why, he said he knows i'm tired after soccer and he wants to carry it for me. i know its just small lil' actions but it makes me happy, really.

i hate to remind myself that today would be the last day i'll be here. i don't wanna to be so far away.

Everywhere i'm looing now
i'm surrounded by your embrace
baby, i can see your halo
you know you're my saving grace
you're everything i need and more

SEXY SCREWDRIVER

2009-07-03T00:05:00.006+08:00

photos taken during the camp! we're the sexy screw drivers yo! hahahha! some photos look super unglam and ugly i know. and were taken while we were cha cha-ing! it was super fun that night since the whole apartment only has me, fenglin and tricia! :D

ALL SAID AND DONE

2009-07-02T22:31:00.004+08:00

all boring lectures today and i really realised i cannot pay attention to a two hour lecture. its really unbearable. was playing bejeweled to keep myself awake. :D i love two hour lunch break because it gives us sufficient, or rather extra time to do what we want. playing cards, gossiping and all.

went to bugis for a while, didnt manage to get what i wanted to though. in order not to make it a waste trip, i ended up buying some redundant stuff. lol. i was so tempted to buy the dress i saw at top shop. :(

i'm so hungry now. all i had was just almond jelly and kinder bueno. how pathetic is that. boo.

i tried to ignore but i can't. i can't see you falling yet i'm standing there not doing anything. but when i actually tried to help, nothing seems to be working and it pains me so much to see what's happening. and at the same time, i can't bring myself to express it. i really don't know why people have to learn by the hard way. only when you've fallen so hard then you'll realise what is wrong. why can't you take the easy way out.

BULLSHIT

2009-07-02T00:02:00.003+08:00

funny cats mates i have. they can actually ask you to come online to discuss the project and they themselves are not online. and i don't get why we have to meet four hours earlier just to come up with a problem. why can't we discuss it online since its just coming up with a problem. what's the use of msn, oovoo and skype then. super irritating. what's with all the psychology students. -.-

and yay, i finally got the skirt. i thought i wouldn't be able to get it since topshop ran out of stock.

bullshit, seriously.

YOU BELONG WITH ME

2009-07-01T04:25:00.004+08:00

four twenty five am. see what is school doing to me. all thanks to dancesport and investigative report. :( hahha, okay i know my time management sucks. but no, i was too tired.

dancesport today was good. and i think i kinda found a partner from electrical engineering. :D yay for that. else no partner no performance, no competitions. come to think of it, i haven't brought my dancing shoes to school before considering the fact that its been a month since i got it. ahh, waste money again. lol.

after dance was even better since sean was waiting for me with kenneth and jonathan. i see all the nonsense people getting along very well with each other. had dinner at whitesands and homed.

oh ya. i conveniently forgot that we got back our papers today. let's just say it was crap and i deserved it since i didnt really study hard and had insufficient sleep the day before. everything was bad except poa, k at least i've an a. and its really scary to know that our class average score for every module turns out to be eighty plus.

yay and a super short day tomorrow since itb lecture is cancelled. :D hurrayy for that. k sleep.

PHOTO SHOOTS

2009-06-30T03:02:00.002+08:00

i think photo shoots are the coolest stuff on earth. i mean, come on, which girl doesn't like photo shoots. k, leave that modeling purpose aside and emphasize on the fun and joy. it definitely feels good with make up artists around you, dolling you up and getting you ready for the shoot.

i wanna go for photo shoots too but its such an expensive shit. :(

BLANK

2009-06-30T01:23:00.004+08:00

since i couldn't get to sleep and i haven't updated my blog yesterday, i should do it now. so much for going to bed at nine and this is what i get. waking up at such ungodly hour.

first day of school, monday blues. especially those who went for the camp. we were all super tired and quiet. but it wasn't that bad after all since there're only two tutorials. i swear my bmgt teacher is sucha granny. she keeps calling and texting me to give instructions to the class. -.-

met jessica after school because i randomly saw her online today and we decided to meet up. what's more its been so long since we update each other with our lives. finally had my putu piring and pudding milk tea. and i won't feel like eating putu piring for a few months cause it tasted a lil ... k, not as nice as what i ate the previous time.

and darling, cheer up alright. i'm sure every life experience could mould you into a stronger person. and when you've reached the lowest point of your life, the only way it could go is upwards. so don't worry. there's always a silver lining even in the darkest clouds. and you know i'll always be there for you. :)

HOT NEWS

2009-06-28T20:33:00.004+08:00

ahh, super drained after the camp. camp was good except the fact that i paid ten times more than everybody else.

first day was kinda boring since those dirty games were scheduled on the second day. but the night was super fun and high i swear. cause our room only have Tricia, fenglin and me, we ended up screaming, shouting and stacking on top of each other. doing those stupid and retarded stuff. especially the ' i want nobody nobody but you ' dance. didn't really get to sleep much since we ended up talking on the bed. lol. i love disturbing fenglin with that danceee! :D

second day was good. we played really fun games. we were supposed to climb up this hill filled with oil, soap and detergent. after everybody climbed up we slide down the hill. it was super duper fun cause eleven of us slide down together so the impact was quite big. and that explains the abrasions on my leg. from my ankle all the way to my ass. stupid, i shouldn't have wore fbt. or rather, i didn't know the grass could cut. i'm still kinda amazed by the abrasions since i've never gotten it before.

then we had dance party. all the groups were supposed to dress up their mascot and perform a dance. sean was the mascot for his team and he dressed up like Michael Jackson. although it was the fatter version of Michael Jackson, i swear he looks super hot with his sexy poses. i never knew he was like that. he's always so conservative about such stuff. hahhahah! i'm so proud of you, sean. :D after that we started dancing and i kinda got the experience of clubbing. it was damn fun but super tiring.

it was during the night when shit stuff begins. ahhahah! and that's when i realised i paid ten times more than everybody else did. cause when we went back to our room, our stuff was stolen. my hundred bucks. :( i haven't even used it and i lost it, how awesome. its really gracious of those people to take all the money and left us all with ten bucks to take a cab home. lol. police and cids came down, this and that, which made us stayed up till three.

then went to sean's room. and he's sucha a pork. he just went to sleep after playing the cards and left us all outside the living room. came home and i slept till eight plus. now i feel all my muscles aching like crap and i sound like a man. i heard that a girl in np has h1n1 and its from BFS. so hopefully hopefully, tonight we'll receive a text saying that holidays are extended. :D

camp was fun overall. what could be better than staying around with your friends and darling, talking about everything under the sun, playing games together and being retarded. :D

k, hot news. my boyfriend looked so hot yesterday, i wasn't expecting it. but i don't know why he kept saying he's embarrassed.

PORK FLU

2009-06-26T03:34:00.002+08:00

The Health Ministry confirmed 95 new cases on Thursday, raising the total infected to 315.

Of the 25 new local infections, 10 are Butter Factory nightspot patrons and staff, four are from the Maju Camp cluster and two caught the virus from close contact with imported cases. Nine are linked to a new Republic Polytechnic cluster, which had three previous cases. The remaining 48 new cases are still being investigated.

NOT AGAIN :(

2009-06-25T22:53:00.002+08:00

yay, my brother's back from army camp. he looks like some Indian. super dark. and i finally understood why people always say boy will become a man when they go into army.

and Russel just told me that's titans flea on Saturday. i missed the previous flea market and I'll be missing this one again. how? :( plus there'll be two hundred and seventy vendors. how. :( i told fenglin and she tells me that the camp will be fun so i won't think about the flea. hahahah! i hope so! save monehhh. ohhh ya, i still haven't transferred the money. gonna do it later.

yay camp tomorrow! i hope its gonna be fun! i can't imagine staying up for two nights. that's likely impossible. lol. and we're discussing whether should we sneak out at night for supper and all. lol.

and karina, don't worry la. you'll be fine okay. :D

Lost and insecure
You found me, you found me
Lyin' on the floor
Surrounded, surrounded
Why'd you have to wait?
Where were you? Where were you?
Just a little late
You found me, you found me

FAMISHED

2009-06-24T21:26:00.004+08:00

stayed at home today and guess what. i want school to start now. its super boring i swear. i think i need to strike a balance between schooling days and holidays. because when school starts, i've lots of work to do but during the holidays, i got none. so it makes me super bored. and after that five months holidays, i realised holidays make me lazy. cannot cannot.

i'm so proud of myself because i just spent another two hundred plus online. how awesome, not. see, this is what holidays do to me. all my money goes pooooof after much clicking. and i've my dad asking why do i have so many mails every week. lol. i think i needa earn alot to suffice my wants next time.

i love the weather these days. so nice and cooling and yay finally the sun decided to rest for a while. :D

i'm still contemplating if i should go to the pasar malam at white sands. i wanna eat the ramily burger, cupcorn, putu piring and all those pasar malam food! i'm feel like the laziest person right now. :( but i guess i'll go after i've showered because i'm hungry already.

If you could see that i'm the one
Who understands you
Been here all along
So why can't you
See you belong with me
Standing by and
Waiting at your backdoor
All this time
How could you not know baby
You belong with me
You belong with me.

ELECTRIFIED

2009-06-24T04:52:00.007+08:00

i guess its time for me to cultivate proper sleeping habits. its eight minutes to five yet i'm still wide awake. i could feel my kidney and liver screaming in dismay. and my growling and irritating stomach isn't making things any better. getting supper now would be perfect, but no, its already breakfast time.

all i could think of is what i ate for dinner just now. that corn was super delicious. and i realised corn is becoming my felicity. and ahh, the spaghetti that sean had, tasted awesome i can imagine the joy if that were to go inside my mouth again.

spent sometime reading my archive again. yes, again. lol. i was that bored and i decided to relive those wonderful and sad memories of mine. amazing how time seems to pass so fast, nobody could even grab hold of it for a second. those happy times seems so familiar and clear, but only to realise a few months have passed. and as i was glancing through my baby photos that time, i could still clearly remember those times when my parents took the photo. but guess what, its been ten years now.

i know if i were to say time is short, people would be telling me to cherish the good times and forget about those bad times. but hey, do one really knows how to cherish? i pretty much doubt so. its often after losing then one would realise how important it is to cherish someone or something. it seems somewhat contradicting that people actually need to learn by the hard way. kinda amusing since humans are supposed to be more intelligent.

although i'm already seventeen, i'm still rather amazed by those minute things that happened. if someone were to analyse 'life' i guess it would take a lifetime. and a lifetime for others to understand and experience it. since i only plan to live until sixty years old, one quarter of my life has been gone. and only god knows what would i become ten years later.

HARRIS IS MY SAVIOUR

2009-06-23T23:12:00.011+08:00

ohhh yes! harris is my saviour so that makes me grateful to harris because i bought my board there. okkay, its not called chipboard, its cork board. which sounds kinda wrong and weird. ahhahah!

caught transformers at great world cause sean has free movie tickets. and wow. the show is rather foreign to me since i don't watch such show. but towards the end, it got really nice and exciting. and its pretty cool when you see everything around you transforming. kinda scary too. imagine the laptop i'm using transform into some alien looking creature. ' you don't hide, you don't stop, you run!' haahahha! nice show, go catch it if you haven't.

i realised i've been eating alot these few days. even sean said so. hahhaha. after the movie i had pepper lunch! wheee! i was just craving for it last night before i went to bed and today i had it! awesome! :D ahh, before that we took out the camera and snap snap snap! i love the cute instant photos that just pop out of the camera. :D

yay bfs camp on friday! i can't wait! somehow i want to go back to schooling days. i wanna see my classmates and have fun with them. but the timetable is super chaotic and it makes me a busy woman. ahhh, that puts me in a dilemma.

MORE THAN ANYTHING

2009-06-22T23:04:00.004+08:00

was talking to cheryl on msn then we decided to meet up. and on my way to meet her, i've got the biggest and happiest surprise from sean! i called him and he said he wanted to see me for a while. but guess what! when i saw him, i saw a plastic bag with green words on it. 'Fujifilm Digital Image'. i was really really shocked to see a Polaroid camera that i always wanted!

the camera came as a surprise that i actually took some time to register it. i can't believe it's sitting beside me now. no words could describe how touched and happy i am. afterall its been so super long since sean surprised me with such stuff. thanks darling pork.

met cheryl then we walked to ikea in search for a chipboard. but the person actually told me its out of stock and new stock will only be arriving in august. and i don't know where on earth to buy chipboard now. :( and the person was kind enough to tell me that giant has it. so we walked over there only to find a tiny weeny small one.

so we walked back to ikea for wings and daim cakes! ahh, delicious baby! :D i was all so eager to open the box to see my camera! so i took it out and snap snap a few photos! :D yay i love the photos i love the camera! :D me and cheryl was totally amused and excited about the photos and camera. ahahhah! had a fun time laughing and being retarded!

and cheryl said she was happy for me cause she could feel that i'm happy. hahahha! yes yes, i was damn happy la. :D and sean said something that made me happy again. usually when i asked him to go out with his friends, he would just say, 'oh okay'. but just now he said, ' but i want you to go.' okay i mean its nothing big but hahha it's enough to make my day. cause he seldom says that. :D i don't need you to buy me alot of stuff, i just need your care and concern and sweet nothings. that's all i ever asked for.

i love you alot alot alot darling. you made me the happiest girl on earth today. :D

CURL YOUR UPPER LIP AND LET ME LOOK AROUND

2009-06-21T23:37:00.002+08:00

woke up close to four in the afternoon today. ahh, super tired. had dinner to celebrate my mom's birthday. then went to the new house for a while. eeyer i don't like my room, the colour is so dull. it makes my life colourless. ah k, that was crap. but i never liked dull colours. -.-

ohh and we took out our baby photo albums. i was damn fat last time, so fat and short that i actually looked like a pumpkin. and i realised when i was young, i went overseas quite a few times but not now anymoree. busy peoplezzz. it was nice laughing at how i looked last time. so fat and short and tomboy-ish. hahhah.

ahh, k nothing much to blog about now. shall go play bejeweled or watch tv or stone.

SO HUNGRY I COULD CRY

2009-06-21T01:10:00.006+08:00

DON'T BITE OFF MORE THAN YOU CAN CHEW

2009-06-20T22:51:00.002+08:00

supposed plan was to go to pasir ris park for roller blading, but it somewhat changed. ahhahah cause i argued with sean the pork. okay, we were being assholes. no, you, me. k, us. hahaha!

so i went for some walkathon. and i foresee that my legs and back's gonna ache really badly tomorrow because i walked close to four kilometers okay. don't ask me where. don't ask me how i know, the yellow markings on the road says so. :D

went to pass sean his wallet in the evening. then we had dinner together. our dinner was pathetic but that's what i wanted so .. nevermind. spent some time complaining about what he said to me just now. then we ended up like some stupid small kids tickling each other. hahahha! i love lying around him it makes me feel fat and happy. i'm joining him and becoming ah pui! lol.

hello sean, read this. J rules the world today. better don't play play okay. hahhahh!

UGLY DUCK-LING

2009-06-20T02:03:00.003+08:00

ohhhhh yeah, i feel so refreshed after a cold bath. :D hahahah! long day man!

met sean in the afternoon cause i wanted to get a new laptop bag! watched land of the lost. initially i was a lil' reluctant to watch but its super nice and funny. its a must watch movie yo! dinosaurs have brains like the size of a walnut. :D thereafter went to far east cause i wanted to see the new arrivals of dancing shoes but.. disappointing. went there for nothing. :( so we decided to go to wisma! whee i got quite a few knickers from topshop! but sean said its too lacey.

met the rest at bedok simpang. we were the first to reach though. lol. its was fun to see the F&N students again. and once we sat down, its like some market when everyone talks together. :D spent some time catching up with my friends again. and ms sabrina was the one who foot the bill! aww, thanks, even though i know you won't get to read this. lol.

then we went to play cards. and i was very much annoyed by the burpings and fartings of marcus and alvin. irritating shit man. i know it don't stink but still the sound is enough to irritate me. ohh we played some stupid game called bastard taitee and i understood how the name of the game came about. lol. then we were talking about staying over at the chalet or hotel at sentosa during our semester break! ohh the joy! :D

was reading cheryl's blog and wow her birthday was definitely a blast. happy that you've enjoyed yourself and sorry for not attending. i'm sure you know why and i'm making things easier for you. :D

ahhh, there's a pimple inside my nose and its annoying me. lol.

MARRIED COUPLE

2009-06-18T22:35:00.005+08:00

the husband wanted a divorce because he has a new girlfriend outside and decided that he totally have no more feelings for his wife. so when he brought this up to her, she didn't say anything and just teared.

she sat by the study table the whole night. the next morning when her husband woke up, she said,' i'll agree to your divorce but you've to accede to my request.' because he desperately wanted a divorce, he agreed immediately. the request was to delay the divorce by one month. and during this one month, she wants her husband to carry her from the room to the door. like how he used to do on their day of marriage.

on the first day, he had difficulty carrying his wife as it has been years since they had such physical contact. upon seeing that, their son clapped and cheered happily, not knowing about the divorce.

by the end of the week, things began to be more comfortable. she lean on his chest and he could carry her easily. he could smell the fragrance from her blouse. next, he then took a closer look at her. she doesn't look the same as she was since marriage. there were wrinkles on her face. at this time, her husband then realised how much she've been through throughout the wedding.

on the second week, he felt that their intimacy were returning. it felt the same when they just got married. he realised that he could carry his wife so much easier than the week before. and the truth is, she had lost weight. she buried so much pain and bitterness in her heart that no one knows.

on the day before the divorce, the husband realised what was missing in their relationship. hence he decided to tell his girlfriend that he won't leave the family. after carrying his wife for a month, he understood that their life lacked intimacy. he found his marriage live boring as he did not value the details of their life. he took everything that his wife did for granted.

on his way home, he bought a bouquet of roses for his wife, just like how he used to do during the courtship. he ran upstairs wanted to surprise her, only to realise that she was dead. fatigue and sadness has taken its toll on her.

so sad right. just when you've learnt to cherish, you lost that special person.

TRANSFORMATION OF SK

2009-06-18T19:04:00.010+08:00

The tiny weeny baby sean

The medium size cute sean wearing party hat

The a lil' mature sean

The grown up but retarded sean

The grown up biggy sean wearing his favourite AX shirt!
the transformation of small sean to big sean! hahahh! k sorry darling, i'm just bored. i don't mean to post your photos here. :D

nothing much today, home again. but kinda looking forward to tomorrow! yay gathering gathering gathering but not all are going though. ohhh i read this really touching story on yahoo. but its super duper long. i'll shorten it and post it up later.

QUACK QUACK QUACK

2009-06-18T01:55:00.009+08:00

ah crap, i spent much so time just to figure out how to bold the title but to no avail. how nice. k now i think the skin is a bit dull i'm gonna change it tomorrow when i have the time.

stayed home the whole day. ahh, rest. :D while lying on my bed all these while, my cravings start again. i wanna have fondue and waffles. ohh plus the rosti at marche! i swear its been the longest time since i've been to marche. :( the banana crepes there are super nice too! ohh and the japanese restaurant at bugis! i miss eating their noodles. the noodles that tasted super nice but sean just have to disagree with me. then know what? he kept drinking the soup. -.- their dessert are nice too! those ice ice stuff.

i'm so hungry after talking about food. i feel like cooking porridge now but i'm lazy to wash the dishes. i wanna order macs but by the time the food arrives, i'll feel like sleeping already. tell me how. :(

quack quack quack.

FIVE : ONE

2009-06-16T23:58:00.005+08:00

woke up really late today but just in time for dance sport. whee! i love today's lesson because they decide to stop teaching us with new moves. haahhah! we finally recap all the dance moves for the past four lessons. and it was awesome baby! :D

went to orchard to look for my aunt. but by the time i reached there, it was already eight thirty so didn't get to shop much. :( but nevermind, it was fun looking at those kitchen wares and towels. and now i actually realised how expensive a bath towel can cost. had dinner at ice cube and home sweet home.

ohh and on the way home, i heard something interesting from class 95 fm. it's called something to make a relationship work out best. in order to do so, we've to follow the ratio five : one. every one wrong deed we've done, we need to do five sweet things to erase the wrong deed. every cold war between us, must be erased by five big hugs. hmm, i think its rather true. :D

You use to call me your angel
Said I was sent straight down from heaven
You'd hold me close in your arms
I loved the way you felt so strong

I Miss You
I miss your smile
And I still shed a tear,every once in a while
And even though it's different now,
You're still here somehow
My heart won't let you go,
And I need you to know,
I miss you

EVERY ENDING BRINGS A NEW BEGINNING

2009-06-16T01:47:00.006+08:00

just like how people would always say, there's no end to everything or anything. because every ending would lead to a new beginning. ironic much. then when would things ever come to an end? i hope good things never ever come to an end. :D

caught drag me to hell with sean and his friends. scary shit. i swear the sound effects and the sudden effects were so scary. i actually screamed a few times cause the granny appeared too many times, unexpectedly. but i was glad i actually watched the show. because that time when we watched 4bia, my eyes were closed three quarter of the time. without those effects, i think drag me to hell seems rather funny, especially the fighting part. lol.

then we went to play soccer. was kinda tired so wasn't really at my best today. k whatever, i'm not that good anyway. but i did manage to score against colin the previous time. :D ohh and the crappy thing was, i actually left my wallet at the multi purpose hall. it scared the shit outta me man! not because of the money but sean bought the wallet for me. what's more his primary school ez link card was inside. heh. fatty bom bom! hahah! :D it was good to see bernard, alvin, justin and jessica again. :D

dancesport tomorrow at six and then i'm off for shopping! woohoo! yay, shopping again! :D there're still so many things on my to buy list despite the previous shopping trip. it seems to update on its own. hahhah! i wanna get a new school bag because my ted baker one is tearing. :( and that rainbow top from pull and bear! and yay, probably getting itouch! :D

today's the fifteenth, but darling we didn't take our neoprints. sometime later this month k. :D

ohhh last but not least,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHERYL! :D

hurry go get your license! you said you'll drive me around! have fun la k! see you around in school! love you!

ACT CUTE ONLY

2009-06-14T23:59:00.009+08:00

TWIRLY WHIRLY

2009-06-14T23:44:00.005+08:00

after much procrastination, i decided to perm my hair! whee! everyone's asking me to just try, if its not nice then rebond again. ahhaha. then i realised its rather troublesome, have to keep twirling it after shower.

so yesterday, i stayed over at the new house with puay joo, sean and justin. i'm still dreading it, its so far inside. because we got bored at night, we decided to go heartland mall to play pool then went to chomp chomp for supper. the guys were such pigs i swear, it took me so long just to wake them up this morning. sleep somemoree, snore somemoreeeee. hahha, but it was damn fun la. taking photos, playing, laughing, wrestling with sean and talking about some stuff.

came home in the morning i slept until eight. super duper tired man, not to mention i only had an hour of sleep on friday. so while playing soccer, i was actually yawning with my eyes threatening to shut.

and now i'm blogging with a happy stomach because sean just bought food for me. :D so yesterday i actually told him i don't wanna move house and he told me something sweet. ' don't be like that la, next time we stay together also need to move house what.' aww. i love you la darling. but i'm sure it would be a completely different feeling next time. but now, still :(

TIMBRE

2009-06-12T23:18:00.006+08:00

MY FAITH IS SHAKING

2009-06-12T22:44:00.005+08:00

alright, so today's been really busy. packing my stuff, bringing it here and there. tiring man. ah, staying there feels like being stranded on an island because i don't know how to get out of that place. i'm still dreading it, terribly. though its just a highway away from pasir ris, but still :(

today feels lonely. i was all alone. and that got me missing my ex classmates alot. i know its time things get better but i miss the fun i had with them. the laughter, nonsense and all. everyday when i stepped into the classroom, either alvin or emyza will kick start their nonsense. and that's enough to make my day. i miss being in school, at least i'll always be laughing and having fun. nothing could ever replace those memorable times we had.

then it got me missing sean. going out during free period to get food at the canteen, going to com lab for fnn together, walking back to classroom from the hall and stuff. at least, i get to see him everyday. things are so much different now. i mean i don't want to keep talking about this, like missing him alot and stuff but i really miss him alot. after talking to him that day, i kind of have a different feeling about it. i'm starting to not show my feelings anymore. but as i said, i don't wanna lose this in the relationship. because i know certain words and some sweet nothings could bring wonders to the relationship.

sometimes i wish i had male character in me. i wish i don't miss a person that much, perhaps it would not get me so upset at times. i wish i am much much stronger. i guess i had enough of it. instead of making myself so unhappy, i'd rather think positively and let nature takes its course. its been a while and its super draining.

SEX ON THE BEACH

2009-06-12T00:34:00.005+08:00

yay today marks the end of itb paper. just when i thought i would do better to make it up for my econs, i was so wrong. itb paper turned out rather tough. i actually wrote crap for my essay question. joyce is so not cut out for itb stuff, its just not in her. but for guys, it comes so naturally its like part of their language kinda thing. but oh well, its over! :D ohh the joy!

then we went to timbre! woohoo! a lil' tipsy plus headache. hahaha my head feels so fuzzy wassy. don't know what stupid word is that actually. hahahah! we got kinda high just now when the live band starts playing. the pizzas plus the chicken wings plus the seafood platter were soo delicious. we drank quite a bit actually. sex on the beach! ahhah! it tasted good! :D ohh the happiness!

wanted to play pool but i don't know how come plans were changed so headed home! and i'm surprised my mom didn't nag at me, she actually asked if i've eaten and stuff. hahhah!

ohh and my brother got enlisted today. :( luckily both of my brothers won't be go to ns together else i'll be bored to death at home. i'll definitely miss him disturbing, waking me up early in the morning, telling me where to go for clubbing and stuff.

i can't wait to turn eighteen! i wanna get my driving license as soon as possible but ahh, i dread the theory and practical exams. -.- i think i must practice my driving skills by playing daytona. hahahah! yay after i get my license i shall bug my mom to get the lime green Volkswagen beetle for me! ohh the joy! then probably i'm gonna get iphone! plus the bags i wanted. hee. :D

i just read the yahoo news. i can't believe ronaldo is going over to real madrid for 190 million. i don't understand why ronaldo actually expressed his desire to leave. i thought he'll be reluctant to do it since he's been in man u for quite long.

IT GEEK

2009-06-10T23:05:00.004+08:00

' I do not fear computers, I fear the lack of them.'
- Issac Asimov

' I do not fear the lack of computers, i fear computers.'
- Joyce Lai

ITB'S DRIVING ME CRAZY

2009-06-10T22:11:00.004+08:00

ahh crap, i think i screwed up my miec paper. to think i said i love that module. -.- i only had myself to blame cause i slept really late yesterday and i couldn't even think today. best thing was, i forgot what's surplus. its supposed to be supply more than quantity demanded but i actually chose supply more than demand. crap la. stupid brain of mine. and the graphs. ahhhhh. joyce ah joyce. -.-

now i'm actually half dead with half of my brain filled with it stuff. those ports, cpu, motherboard, expansion cards and all. i hate the chapter on software. its all about software and i have no idea why we need to study the software. its just. ughh. just went to mel and realised that iN2015 is tested. ahhhhh! i need to inject endurance into my body right now now now.

ohh and i finally saw dwayne in school today after, erm.. one mth plus. lol. k my brain isn't working that well so i think i'd better start studying again before i fall asleeeeeep. yay timbre tomorrow, i think. ahhaha. and i can't believe three quarter of my classmates are going. woohoo!

YOU'RE TERMINATED, YEAH BABY

2009-06-09T22:59:00.006+08:00

went over to sean's place today after his macroecons paper. woo. yay, i got to eat the scramble eggs he cooks. super delicious. whee! took a nap cause i was too tired. i didn't have enough sleep because i had to wake sean up at six.

studied econs for a while and i decided that i should disturb sean and wake him up. hahah! damn funny. batman, superman, little red riding hood and dwarfs. then he played dota while i continue studying. all i heard from the game was you're terminated, yeah baby, unstoppable and alot more. i forgot. :D

then we went to watch Hannah montanah! whee! it was a super duper nice movie! but the running time was a lil' short though. it would be better if its longer. i love the songs and the countryside. this really makes me wanna move to a countryside after i retired. but hahha, still many years to come. and i wish i could be a star for a day. hannah montanah! :D

after the movie, we took a stroll at the beach. nowadays we seldom we go to the beach because sean doesn't like it. he doesn't like to perspire. but was glad, we went today. we had a super long talk about us. those stuff which i didn't had a chance to say to him in the past, i said it today. it made us realised alot of stuff. i guess, it did make things better. i really hope things would stay the same and nothing would ever change.

You tucked me in
Turned out the light
Kept me safe and sound at night

And when I couldn't sleep at night
Scared things wouldn't turn out right
You would hold my hand and sing to me

Caterpillar in the tree
How you wonder who you'll be
Can't go far but you can always dream
Wish you may and wish you might
Don't you worry, hold on tight
I promise you there will come a day
Butterfly fly away

SO TIRED OF TEARS

2009-06-08T16:03:00.009+08:00

SO TIRED OF TEARS

just when i thought i'm tired of tears, i thought wrong. i don't even drink much water and i wonder why i've so much tears. stupid sore eyes, it makes my eyes so red and teary. like some disgusting Dracula's eyes. sheeesh.

stop reading, its all whinings.

come to think of it, i've become some emo shit this year. i cry over the smallest thing on earth. i wonder whatever happened to the joyce i was. the bubbly and carefree girl my classmates always refer me to. but you can't expect me to smile and laugh when everything seems so wrong because i'm not that strong. eh, it rhymes. hahaha. maybe i should just believe that since i can't change the things that's happening, i should change myself. but fff that, seriously. i don't feel happy understanding it.

right now, i'm so tired of everything. i'm tired of trying when the outcome stays the same. i'm so that tired i can't be bothered to ask, to get angry or sad anymore. i really feel like giving up because i see no motivation and assurance in continuing anymore. i hate to grow up. i hate how things changed when we grow up. i wish words like adaptability, determination and confidence didn't have to exist so that life wouldn't have to revolve around those. why do people have to say, ' life isn't always a bed of roses' why oh why. why am i always asking why. -.-

knowing that everything we do we need motivation and assurance, pretty much sucks. oh and that's something i learnt from bmgt. lol. we need motivation in our daily lives to carry out the daily routines for years and years. we need motivation in our studies so that we can do well. we need assurance in relationship to continue giving in to each other. just like what people say, love has an expiry date, we need to renew it to stay in love for as long as possible. almost every single thing we do, we need motivation. now it seems so true.

i don't even know why i am whining here when i'm supposed to study for my econs and itb. fuck it. ahhh, just ignore me and treat it as i'm having a super bad day. i just need to whine and i'll be back to normal. i wanna go to the beach. i wanna hear the rustling of leaves, the seawaves, the sound made by crickets, the laughter of those kids at the playground.

SAD.

2009-06-08T04:04:00.003+08:00

of all these times, i could only remember something.

' everything happens for a reason and what doesn't kill you, makes you stronger.'

SEVENTH

2009-06-08T00:14:00.007+08:00

studied a bit in the afternoon then met puay joo. had teppanyaki for dinner. what could be better than this. :D its been a long long time since i last ate it and she seems to be the only person who would eat that with me. lol. bought some yummaye macaroons but ah, i went late so only left the pistachio flavoured one. but nevemind, at least i get to eat it. :D happy happy.

then we took a shuttle bus to ikea cause i wanted to eat the soft ice cream. but guess what. crap, the ice cream doesn't taste as nice anymore. it tasted diluted, hahah ikea saving costs on ice cream. lol. then she came to my house. had a good time catching up with her. hmm, i think its been a month or three weeks since we last met la. it feels oh so familiar to be talking to her about everything under the sun again. :D

LEAN IT BACK, CLAP THREE TIMES

2009-06-06T18:56:00.006+08:00

woke up really early in the morning for poa paper. and i think i must get an alarm clock for sean by sunday else he won't be able to wake up for his upcoming papers. stupid pig. ahhh, wanted to have the ljs's breakfast but we didn't have enough time. although their food aint that nice, their breakfast definitely brightens up my morning. their sandwiches are super nice.

k, the poa paper wasn't that bad. in fact, i wasn't really as nervous as i thought i would be. when i sat down, hoedown throwdown was playing in my head on repeat mode. makes me wanna dance while sitting down. hahahah. everything was okay except for my general ledger. ughh, stupid. i should have realised that one sentence isn't worth five marks. joyce the dumbass. and i can't believe i'm an accounting student now. lol.

went home and slept for seven hours. whee! it feels so nice to have sufficient sleep . i barely had three hours of sleep yesterday. and today, while being seated at the convention centre, it feels like i'm in secondary school again. memories. ahhh, five years. sometimes it just feels good reminiscing about the past, we've all been through the good and bad times knowingly and ever so quickly. yay and i heard from sean, yong jian is gonna plan a gathering again after our common test week! :D

econs and itb papers coming up next, i'd better start revising for it soon. itb = shit stuff. econs = practical and interesting and lovely module. :D

that's no explaining how i feel inside
i'm going through a transformation
that's so hard for me to hide
i had a revelation
that finally opened up my eyes
the one i spent a life time searching for
was right here with me all the time

KEAN'S BIRTHDAY!

2009-06-06T00:00:00.003+08:00

seems like its already a habit to buy lunch and eat it during cats class. lol. the teacher didnt really mind, which was kinda good. :D then had soccer! but before that i had to put lots of sunblock on my body. today's soccer was full of falls and dribbles. we had to dribble the ball like two three times around the court. then we when we were playing match, it was damn fun. me and my two friends stick out our legs together and we fell at the same time. got entangled by each other's legs. ahahha.

whee! its been sucha long time since all of us met. everyone was there except ian. but nevertheless, it was damn fun la. and jessica said something which made me sad. hahah okay. not really sad. she said i've become more tanned. which is bad, because i apply sunblock everyday before i leave my house. :( had dinner at bedok simpang. me and jessica had to secretly buy a slice of cake from mad jack, hide it then bring it back. lol.

played soccer again! hahahah! and yay, justin kick my ankle and now its swollen and blue black. lol. k actually its my fault cause sean said i shouldn't have stick out my leg to tackle. then comes some ugly dark blue monsters and we decided to play captain's ball! :D today's really really tiring but i enjoyed myself alot.

and because of that, i feel damn bad cause i ought to be at home studying. poa paper at 830 tomorrow. ahhh! sian, i hope sean could write my name on the paper and do the test for me. lol. k, i'm off to study! :D

WHEE PHOTOS!

2009-06-05T00:54:00.006+08:00

EMOTIONS

2009-06-04T23:32:00.003+08:00

so i didn't go to school today again. lol. aww and i've such nice and sweet classmates. thanks alot i'm better now. :D met sean in the afternoon cause i need him to teach me adjustment entries. ahh, i kinda get it but still a lil' confused. really regret not taking poa in secondary school man. :(

sean the pig was supposed to teach me poa but he ended up sleeping okay. i woke him up like so many times but he just ignore me and went back to sleep. what a darling. hahah, but still thanks for teaching me. we ordered pizza like about nine plus, ah i feel fats coming. and then he went crazy and wrestled with me. hahahaa but its quite fun. i didn't even get a chance to hit him or anything, he carries me and throw me down so easily.

ahh, i wanted to post the photos we took just now but sean's not sending me the photos. darling kim kim kim kimm kimmy you send it to me or tag me on facebook or you log in to my account and post up the photos okay. thankss. send it to me please.

CHANGES

2009-06-04T01:44:00.005+08:00

i hate changes. the way people changed, the way things changed and the way surroundings changed. then again i know one must accept that changes are inevitable. but sometimes the way things changed just seemed so unpredictable and saddening. as naive as it may sound, at times i wish things could stay the same forever, i rather get sick of it rather than not having it anymore. everybody, including myself hope things to change for the better, some even to perfection.

then again the pursuit of perfection sometimes seems so unattainable or rather impossible. because different people have different definitions for perfection. perfection seems pretty subjective. its up to one's eyes to see if people are perfect. the journey to perfection is rather excruciating, immeasurable and self deprecating.

perfection appears to be an element instead of a scale. it can't be measured at all. nobody knows what definition of perfection, nobody knows how to attain it. its just somewhat similar to best. everyone would say they have tried their best, but do they even know what best means? so, don't say it unless one knows what it means.