RUDOLPH THE RED NOSE REINDEER

its definitely much unpleasant staying at home with a throbbing headache and endless amount of mucus coming out from my nose. yay i'm sick again. -.- due to those late nights, walking in the rain and all. stupid. now i look like rudolph. plus i can't walk properly cause of muscle aches and my knee hurts. i feel so handicapped. what's more i'm going sentosa with my friends tomorrow, how to walk like that. i don't know why people don't have muscle aches yet i've it all the time. -.- ugh! i'm gonna start exercising!

staying at home means bored means surfing the net means online shopping and ultimately it means spending more money. joyce ah joyce. really hopeless. but then again, i can't deny sense of satisfactory and happiness fills me when i see my wardrobe brimming with pretty pretty clothes. :D i hate having insufficient clothes. it gives me headaches.

school's starting in ten days. i've looked at the timetable and there're so many tutorials. mondays, tuesdays and fridays are filled with nothing but tutorials. yay and i love fridays cause lessons start at 1pm. :D i guess the orientation camp somehow makes me look forward to the first day of school cause there're many nice people in BFS. :D and i think the people in BFS look more normal. no offence. :D i miss the people in my group and i miss having fun, screaming, cheering and crapping with them during the second day of camp. but now its over. nevermind, hope we'll be in the same class. :D

I never felt like this before.
Just when I leave, I'm back for more.
Nothing else here seems to matter.
In these ever-changing days,
You're the one thing that remains.
I could stay like this forever.

LAST DAY OF ORIENTATION CAMP?

wheee! last day of the orientation camp is fun! hahahaha! and the word is i suppose! cause i didn't go! :D met sean for macs breakfast at ten plus. and the thing is we must reached at twelve. knowing that there isn't enough time plus i was lazy and tired, we decided not to go. :D went over to sean's place. and i slept slept slept and slept while he played dota.

when i woke up, i realised today's the 9th! and that means! today is the official opening of tampines 1! yay! shopping shopping and more shopping. temptations after temptations. so i decided not to resist anymore but to buy and buy. :D it actually struck me that with the opening of tampines 1, it makes people from the east more lazy to travel to town. cause it has almost everything. topshop, dorothy perkins, diva, num, almost everything la! lol. with t1, it definitely makes shopping more convenient and finally, i can go shopping with slippers and fbts! :D

went to punk star and surprisingly i saw karina. lol. bought a top there cause its having opening sales! whee! poly's starting means i need more clothes and so, its alright to go shopping cause i dont want to wear the same old tees everyday. :D i was rather excited when i see alot alot of new shops but the people there turns me off. its super super crowded. plus some shops are having sales, which made it worse. nehmind, shall go shopping in the morning someday. :D

i think i should recultivate my reading habits. my english is getting lousier. plus reading helps to kill time. :D i need to read read read. :D

in a sea of people,
there is only you
i never knew what the song was all about
but suddenly now i do.

trying to reach out to you, touch my hand
reach out as far as you can
only me, only you and the band

SUMMER AIR

today is a damn tiring day, its all about games, games, games, falling down, running up slope down slope, waiting for our turns and all. but its really fun especially the chair game cause we beat the other teams, they were totally shocked to see us cutting their line. if you get what i mean. lol. and catching the balloons! yay! i'm so happy i actually caught it cause its damn slippery and the balloons are rolling everywhere. to top it off, we're the first three groups to reach the cc first! :D

then had some stupid cheering competition. cuento is really annoying with their stupid cheer. it goes like this, we don't give a damn damn, we don't give a damn. you can kiss our ass ass, you can kiss our ass. hahahah! very irritating, only know how to say that. lol.

and we did this really retarded and bimbotic cheer with those typical bimbotic accent. but i absolutely love it! hhahaha! it goes like this,
' oh my gosh, i think i need a manicure,
the sun i swear, is bitching up my gorgeous hair,
sixty nine, eighty four, i don't even know the score,
beat beat, fight fight
ohhhhhh, i hope i look alright.'

i think i'm gonna whine about this for a few months. the distance is annoying shit man. today was journey back to the east. lol. long long long and even longer. i desperately neeeed a car or a chauffeur mommy. it was rather early when i reached pasir ris, no where to go, don't feel like going anywhere so i walked home to have some time alone. i don't know if i even had twenty percent of my mom's brain. after running around the whole campus for the whole day, i still chose to walk home and now my legs are aching. don't know if i'm really that stupid. lol.

and tomorrow marks the last day of the orientation. gonna miss my group mates cause we're most probably not gonna be in the same class. :( nevertheless, hope it'll be fun. :D it seems pretty ironic, before the orientation i was so reluctant to go but now i'm in it, i don't want it to end. lol.

Romeo save me, I've been feeling so alone.
I keep waiting, for you but you never come.
Is this in my head, I don't know what to think.

SMASHING ROCK FIVE.

apparently i did not go to bed yesterday, something really went wrong with my human clock so i stayed up the whole night. journey to the west was long and dull and boring. i thought i could at least sit down and sleep but there wasn't any space at all. :(

so today's orientation wasn't as bad as i thought it would be. my group only has four girls so the four of us clique together almost instantly. ahahha! all very outgoing. :D and wow, most of the people in my group are from many prestigious school like, victoria, nan hua and anglican. just when i thought the people in my group would be my classmates, i thought wrong. :( have to make new friends during the first day of school again. booooo. then what for go for the orientation camp right. lol.

surprisingly most of them are from the east side. so when we talked about the travelling distance, we kind of regretted not going to temasek poly, mjc or tpjc. lol. but after watching the video, i changed my mind. wheee! ngee ann seems fun. :D saw the magnum force and dancesports performance and now, i'm in a dilemna. nevermind, i shall see how it goes again!

after the camp, we went to watch afc league. exciting match with lots of goals but ah, my eyes were half shut so wasn't really in the mood. tomorrow's games day! :D

I promise the best part is yet to come
Slow dance together,
Two become one
That's what we've waited all day for
No one else but me and you
Nothing I would rather do
Then hold you all through the night
Under my tree.

SPIRITLESS

a very tiring yet fun and fulfilling day. went to queensway to get my fbts for the camp and billabong outlet to get some shirts. then to funan to get laptop skin. but bought stickers in the end. cause we figured out its cheaper and more practical. i regretted not taking good care of my laptop. :( cause if i were to change the whole casing it'll be five hundred plus and i'll be paying three thousand for my laptop. -.-

took a bus back from there. the bus trip very very very long man. but chatting with sean makes the trip seemed shorter and more pleasant. went over to his place, had dinner then came home. i am very the tired now. so i have no idea what i'm blogging about. lol.

orientation camp's tomorrow. i'm kind of dreading it cause a week after the camp marks the end of our holidays. though its been long and boring, i can't deny its fun and relaxing at times. tomorrow seems like the sec one orientation camp. there's nobody in my group that i know. that's pretty sad and makes me not wanna go to school. i don't wanna go to school not knowing anyone there. :(

my eyes are clamming shut i need to sleep soon else i can't wake up at six tomorrow. :(

The sun is breaking in your eyes
To start a new day.
This broken heart can still survive
With a touch of your grace.
Shadows fade into the light.
I am by your side,
Where love will find you.

Now that we're here,
Now that we've come this far,
Just hold on.
There is nothing to fear,
For I am right beside you.
For all my life,
I am yours.

CROSSROADS

have been sleeping really late these few days, six in the morning and waking up at twelve. and that makes me really really tired. but the thing is i just can't sleep early. lol. orientation's in two days' time. hmm, rather reluctant to travel the distance but excited to meet new friends. i hope they're nice people.

woke up at eleven today and met karina for lunch. we had ikea ice cream! hahahah! the soft ice cream is damn addictive. after eating so many many times, i still haven't got sick of it. i wanna be a swedish! :D went to alter our clothes after that. i kind of regret buying those two skirts from pull and bear cause if i were to alter it, its eighteen each. that means i'm paying fifty eight for one skirt. :( but if i don't alter, i can't wear it. booooooo. :(

i still haven't figured out why life always brings us to crossroads. i wanna have best of both worlds. i know i can't have but why! i want it and i want it means i want it and must have it. okay noo, i'm not like that. hahaha! i don't know what to choose or rather, i'm thinking if i should make the decision myself. but i don't wanna forsake doing something i love so much. nobody tried putting themselves in their shoes and think for me, it's just about them them them and them. so selfish. :( it always happen. it always always happen to me. so much for always doing so. pfffft.

k nevermind! on a happier note, yay shopping with my darling tomorrow! what could make me happier than this! :D and yes, i've completed the soccer ball! whee! just hope tomorrow would turn out happy and i'll be happy. i hope.

I lose myself in all these fights,
I lose my sense of wrong and right.
I cry, I cry. I'm
Shaking from the pain that's in my head.
I just want to crawl into my bed,
And throw away the life I led.
But I won't let it die.

UNEXPECTED S.

the thunder woke me up in the early afternoon. it was damn loud man. so decided not to sleep already. played pet society for quite a while cause i want to earn more money to make my toilet! bath tub, basin, toilet bowl and all. :D and yeah, restaurant city! i need more money man. playfish is being way too selfish, giving so little money and ingredients. i wanna decorate my restaurant too!

supposed to meet sean for dinner today but i think i shouldn't be too .. so yeah, i met jessica instead. went tampines mall and century square. shop shop shop shop shop. each time the cashier swipe my atm card, i can feel it screaming for help asking me to stop. but i cannot! no wonder in the past my mom and aunts always say, they pity the person who marry me. now i figured out why. hahaha! went to mango and we saw alvin there so decided to have dinner with him! while waiting for him to knock off, we shopped inside mango for an hour. i saw this lime green bag, it was so nice i couldn't resist but to buy it. its really really really nice! its LIME GREEN and its HUGE. lol. i like! :D

and now, i'm watching the liverpool match and fixing the soccer ball. i must finish it by today today today. cause if i were to drag any longer, i know i'm not gonna complete it on time.

i can't speak, i can't make a sound
to somehow capture your attention,
i'm staring at perfection.