SLEEP, NO?

i realised i've been really caught up with projects for these two weeks. i havent been having enough sleep since i dont know how long ago. :( and then again, look at the time now. crap, i don't know if i should even go to bed or continue with my cats self reflection.

okay, i went just to brush my teeth and saw a really huge flying cockroach with long feelers in the toilet. that really scare the hell out of me but not enough to keep the adrenaline rushing in my body. i need to stay awake, i've still got things to be done.

stayed back in school for itb until eleven again today. we actually spent 10 hours on itb without having lunch and dinner. tell me, just how pathetic is this. and the thing is, we're still not yet done. :( at the end of the day i couldn't even make out what my friends were saying though they were speaking english. dumb shit.

i'm glad i've nice friends who are such sweethearts. they kept asking me to sleep and drink more water. hahahah i love love you all. :D

BURNING THROUGH MY DARKEST NIGHT

i was really damn tired in school today and i hate not having enough sleep. but yes, i'll hang on because projects deadlines are gonna be over real soon. then its gonna be study week. :( why does everything comes together.

in the past, i used to say shopping is my remedy for everything. but i think it seems all so different now. retail therapy didn't help to relieve my stress. :( in fact, all the while i was out for shopping my mind was filled with projects deadlines. crap. but yay, still kinda happy since i've gotten my blazer. :D

and i lost one of my earrings two days ago! i swear i still saw it on my ears after showering. but when i'm all dressed up ready to go out, i look into the mirror and there goes it. k, ignore the fact that i was too lazy to search for it. :( besides that, my phone went haywire again. this is so shitty, i wanna change phone nowww. but have been spending alot of mom's money i dont know how to open my mouth and say i want a new phone. how now brown cow. :(

k shall get back to editing cats projects. then again, one more night without sleep. awesome much. thanks projects.

SNOWBALL

this is so pathetic. i just got home from school not long ago. projects are really killing and i doubt i've time to sleep tonight again. man, what is this becoming to. :(

had poa graded test in the morning and crap, i think i had some errors here and there. there goes my marks. then had itb. itb is sucha crap. i dont understand why we have to do so much for pbl part 2 and its only 15%. how crappy is that man. its so much work eh. creating a website sucks. especially when you don't even know how to use adobe flash and web expression. now my adobe flash is trying to be irritating with me. ughhh.

feeling slightly contented because we're one quarter done with the web page! yay. happy happy. :D its damnnnn nice. k it might not be that nice but the amount of work we put it is bigger than the universe i swear.

still needa teach my brother a maths. ah crap man. there goes my sleep again. ohhh and i actually skipped dance because of ITB. :( my rumbaaaaaaaa. :(

PAPA PAPARAZZI

today was a rather good day, i thought.

had bcomm report writing test in the morning. and while writing, i suddenly burst out laughing. i don't know why am i always so retarded. lol. its so embarrassing cause the class is so quiet then i started laughing. hahahah! and what made school best was, bmgt was cancelled because charan kaur is on three days mc! yay! bmgt means no presentation. no but again i mean get well soon. ahhahah!

initially wanted to go to central with sean but changed of plans! we went to republic poly instead! k i may just consider a transfer to that school since its much nicer and fully air conditioned. and the food there are much nicer i heard. met karina and spent some time talking to her. woah its been like so long since i last seen her. and eat more please! you're so skinny now! might have plans on saturday! wheee!

went to simpang bedok with sean, marcus and justin. i loveeeee the mash potato there, it tastes like heaven. but i was so full i couldn't finish my rice. nehmind, the food is still damn good there. after eating we were too full to move so sat down for a while and talk about our sec school lives. how nice. and how funny is it to reminisce such mean acts of ours. then cabbedddd home!

i realised i love to hug sean's fat and flabby arms to sleep especially during long bus rides. :D

NEW DIVIDE

ughhh, once again the projects are driving me crazy. i hate it when people send such sloppy work to me and i've to edit it. i mean like if you wanna do it then give it your best right? rather than giving some stupid sloppy work. irritating assholes shitheads. ughh. pardon my language its just gets on my nerves everytime.

had family gathering today at my place again. eeyer i hate it cause have to clean up the place after everything ended. ughh so much things to do now man. report writing test tmrw, miec newspaper editing and bmgt ppt cause there's presentation tomorrow. :(

ahh, today sucks. all the stupid shitheads.

i know tomorrow will be better. i know i know i know and it must be.

SHAKE IT

i'm craving for the QQ Gummies now. not gummy bears but its some gummies from wang wang. k, i mean want want if its in english. i bought six packets yesterday but i only brought home one. see my greedy ah pui ate almost five packets. hhahah! i had a good time feeding gummies to the senile sean cause i stick it all over his lips! :D

i'm at home now. :( i wanted to go and see torres but my work doesnt allow me to. nevermind! i decided to give it a miss because sean promised me that we would go to anfield and see him one day! and old trafford too! right babe? :D you better keep your promise okay you greedy pork who ate my gummies!

ohhh, i heard nobody by wonder girls just now and i miss BFS camp! :( though our stuff got stolen i still love the camp! especially the first night! cause we kept disturbing fenglin with that nobody dance!

yay, am almost done with miec and i've to remind myself that there's report writing test on monday! busy busy busy. was talking to fenglin just now and we said the only thing to look forward to is the holidays because then we could go to timbre again! timbre has nice pizzas! and sex on the beach is gooooood too!

today's sucha good day since i had fourteen hours of sleep. :D ahh, i feel like dancing now! i wanna learn jive now now now cause i heard its super fun! how i wish melvin is my dad and sharon is my mom! :D

CAME WITHOUT A REASON

yesterday was really crappy. few minutes before i wanted to go to bed, my phone decided its fun to die on me. the touch screen can't respond at all. so i switched off my phone, thinking that it'll be alright after i turned it on again. who knows my phone can't be switched on. but it decides to work well this morning again what is this man. ughhh, i'm not gonna buy touch screen phone again. so troublesome and irritating. and can't text without looking.

yay i'm so glad bmgt's over. but there's still so much to be done. three more projects to go. then its three weeks to final's. they always say if you go to a poly, life would be more relax. but i think its more like slacking at your own disadvantage man. what a common misconception.

met sean after soccer today then went over to his place cause i wanna eat the chicken rice at central! ahhh, i miss living in pasir ris. :( i miss going to ehub, whitesands, tampines mall and pasir ris interchange.

k, gonna move my ass and get some work done!

ALMOST HERE

been sleeping at four or five in the morning and waking up at eight. man, this is killing me. but i'm glad tomorrow is friday which means its our bmgt deadline. followed by miec and itb. though i've been complaining about this and that, it definitely brings much satisfaction when i see all the work being done properly.

today isn't the best of day due to the endless editing of projects. i've unknowingly become the editor for almost all the projects. again, sense of satisfaction. but before this sense of satisfaction, lots of whining comes first. but i swear this week is the busiest week of my life, or so if i'm not wrong. because i didn't feel this busy during o's even.

few minutes ago when i was reading sean's message, i felt tears prickling in my eyes. k, i was touched. told you i'm a cry baby. darling, i'm sorry i know i havent been the best girlfriend. but i'll always be by your side and you know i love you the most no matter what. :)

ONE STEP AT A TIME

decided to give school a miss because i was really too tired for school.

am finally done with my part of bmgt and editing. and now i'm doing itb. web expression isn't that complicated after all. and photoshop is the one that sucks now. :( i know nuts about it man. ughh. everything's crazy. deadline for bmgt this friday. miec and itb next week. its all packed together. rushing all these projects are enough to make you crazy.

and cheryl just have to remind me that the final exams are in one month's time. and its eighty percent. considering that fact that i didn't get all as during the common test, i think i'd better work hard this time round.

I'll do anything for a smile,
holding you 'til our time is done
We both know the day will come,
but I don't want to leave you

RUMBA ROCKS MY SOCKS

okay, i'm sucha good girl i decide to go to school today!

miec tutorial lasted only for an hour plus. and today he's damn funny. our teacher lost his handphone and he was really worried. then si pei called his phone, only to realise he dropped it in the library. so we told him we could go and get it for him. he said okay, take your time to get it back. like so what the hell right! but hahahha, he's a nice teacher. :D our adviser eh!

next was dance! whee! i kinda love rumba because its slow and the timing is just nice for you to move your butt in the circular motion for one round. hahaha! i know it sounds a lil' stupid, but i'm serious! cha cha is way too fast as compared to this. yay, i heard we'll be learning jive, samba and lastly, some erm. flamingo kinda dance. :D

ohhh and yes, i saw this guy wearing SP inspired NP shirt. its exactly like SP shirt, just that the words are changed to NP and behind they have the words SP but its being striked out. so mean, imagine if we were to wear it to SP. but its seventeen bucks as compared to the SP shirt which is five bucks. -.- i heard the design came from the people in forum. because they said there are too many people wearing SP shirt to NP. such funnehh people.

kenneth and jonathan were so nice they decide to wait for me to walk out of school after dance. hahaha! wanted to have dinner with them, but ah went over to cheryl's house instead. wow, it's been like soo long since i went to her house. lol. had a great time catching up with her and it suddenly feels like how it was back in our secondary school days. :D i miss those days, HEAD PREFECT. hahahahha! and stop it stop making fun of me okay. idiot.

i hate the feeling of always missing something/someone when i know that there's nothing i can do to get it back. its like i'm forced to, and many a times i really don't have much alternatives left. they always say the choice is yours. but sorry, i beg to differ. the choice is not mine. and it sucks to know that i'm actually feeling this way.

HALF BLOOD PRINCE

monday blues. :( okay, more like moodless due to insufficient sleep. hahaha!

i hate itb man. what's with web expression and those stupid html codes. its enough to kill my already half dead brain. so the morning was quite unproductive, we didn't even manage to get anything done.

and there's another individual bcomm presentation which consists of 20%. i hate it man. another formal presentation. with long sleeves, heels and this time round, blazer. but hahhaha its good. another reason for shopping. :D its rather irritating when things all happen together, so packed that you could hardly breathe.

but it was definitely much better when i get to spend some time with sean. because i've been rather busy with my projects recently. caught harry potter. actually i think the movie's alright. just that the ending seems not complete. its not that bad, maybe because i didn't read the storybooks. but it was too long, i fell asleep in between. yay finally had pudding milk tea which i've been craving for so many weeks! :D

contemplating if i should go to school tomorrow. because there's only miec tutorial. and after miec tutorial i still have to wait for two and a half hours before dancesport starts. but i don't wanna miss tomorrow's rumba lesson! :( tell me how how how.

WHEN THE GOING GETS TOUGH AND TOUGH GETS GOING

yay, i'm so proud of myself because i've completed controlling for bmgt! and almost done editing for the other topics. the night wasn't that bad with the company of puay joo. see, this is what projects do to us.

am left with itb and miec project. going to school earlier for the itb project later. :(

felt a lil' nostalgic while talking to puay joo just now. i almost wanted to say see you in school, only to realise we're not in the same school anymore. :( gone were the days when i could see my beloved 5N1 in school everyday. was talking to alvin recently and he told me something, ' although we don't get to see each other as much now, you guys will still be kept in my heart.' okay, i know it might sound like some simple sentences that everyone could say. but hey, it holds alot of meanings okay.

ENERGY ZAPPING

indeed, very.

i'm so angry with myself because i just have to get distracted while doing work and i took sucha long time to get my justification report done. its just some short report. shoot me. ughh. but am glad i'm finally done with it. bmgt next. and i heard there's a poa test coming next week which i've yet to study. all those alien topics.

k i know i shouldn't be complaining about the heavy workload and the endless projects. but i hate it cause i barely have time to do my own things. i haven't had time to finish the storybooks i bought earlier. and at times like this, i just feel like going shopping and not care about anything. :( shopping just seems to be the remedy for everything. GSS is coming to an end at the end of this month man. i still haven't had enough of shopping.

tomorrow's the start of a hectic week again. i wish time could move a lil' slower because its getting way too fast. i can't seem to grab hold of anything. and that made me feel handcuffed. :(

on a happier note, i'll get to see my classmates tomorrow again. its always good to have such nice and nonsensical classmates. because they are my source of motivation to go to school when everything gets too draggy.

DRAINED

i'm physically and mentally drained. this is so bad. i'm not even enjoying my weekends, not to mention its gonna be over real soon. like tomorrow. then its gonna be a whole project filled week.

my mom actually asked me to type out a chinese proposal for her and translate it to english. typing it out alone could kill. afterall its been so long since i last read chinese. and her chinese are so profound i don't even understand much. and translating it to english took me almost the whole day. i thought i could at least complete my justification report and touch up on my bmgt project.

ughh, tell me how now. to make my day worser, i actually kicked the kitchen sliding door and my toe is swollen. and as i was skipping sideways to my dining table, i hit another sliding door and fell.

i want to sleep now. no. i want some motivation so i could complete my work and projects as soon as possible.

i miss ndp. i miss the times i had three years ago. we would be practicing at the indoor and national stadium on every saturday. i miss our stupid retarded choreography and those national day songs. :( i wanna watch the fireworks.

REFUGEES

k, i can't believe we actually did this. we hid underneath the tables to take photos during ITB lecture. see how unproductive and retarded we get during boring lectures. -.-

I KNOW I DO

today's probably the most enjoyable soccer lesson! :D yay, i scored three goals! hat trick! woohoo! ohh and next week we'll have combined dance lesson and we'll be learning rumba! finally done with cha cha! then jive! yay, can't wait can't wait.

ahh, i wanna get the new man u jersey! k, i know its not that nice but just hmm, i wanna get number seven! :D went to watch s league with marcus and sean. ahh crap, i haven't won any soccer matches since the start of the year. so tell me, just how unlucky i can get this year. but sean insisted that i don't think i just buy whatever i want to buy. that's bad.

i saw marcus's wallpaper and i was asking sean why can't things be like how it was during the holidays. why can't the eight of us go out together again. its so difficult to meet up with everyone due to the different time tables we had. well not just that, of course there're some other reasons as well. hmm..

my brother was an ass yesterday and today he decides to be nice. he told me i could play the ps 3 whenever i want to. ohh and he would buy whatever game i want to play. hmm, how nice. :D

There's some things we don't talk about
Rather do without
And just hold the smile
Falling in and out of love
Ashamed and proud of
Together all the while

You can never say never
Why we dont know when
Time and time again
Younger now than we were before

Don't let me go
Don't let me go
Don't let me go

PS 3!

yay i see ps 3 in my house now! :D tell me i need to stop wanting so many stuff since i bought so much already. :(

AKALLA

You're not sorry - Taylor Swift

All this time I was wasting,
Hoping you would come around
I've been giving out chances every time
And all you do is let me down
And it's taking me this long
Baby but I figured you out
And you're thinking we'll be fine again,
But not this time around

You don't have to call anymore
I won't pick up the phone
This is the last straw
Don't wanna hurt anymore
And you can tell me that you're sorry
But I don't believe you baby
Like I did - before
You're not sorry, no no ohhh

Looking so innocent,
I might believe you if I didn't know
Could've loved you all my life
If you hadn't left me waiting in the cold
And you got your share of secrets
And I'm tired of being last to know
And now you're asking me to listen
Cause it's worked each time before

this song's been on my head since morning and it has been playing on repeat mode. ignore the lyrics, it's a nice song.

WHAT A DAY

oh crap, what a day.

i can't believe i spilled my water on the chair. and there goes my pants. its all wet. and stupid kenneth just have to announce to everybody that i wet my pants. how embarrassing. okay but luckily tricia helped me to dry my pants a lil' in the toilet. ahh, now i'm convinced that i've butter fingers. i can't believe the water bottle slipped off my hand and spilled on my chair. pffft.

but yay, itb workshop is cancelled so i'll be dismissed from one! how awesome. maybe i should use some time to revise my work since i've been slacking for so long. i just can't seem to get the drive which i had in secondary school. can't really be bothered to study. oh man. this is bad. :( i'm like the last few in my class. this is so shitty.

SEVENTEENTH

alright, today was good i suppose since i dismissed myself from school at one. hahaha! k that's besides the point but okay, i was trying to spend my time productively because i know i won't pay attention to ITB lecture. so i skipped it. :D and spend some quality time with my darling kimmy.

supposedly to go to marche for lunch but we went to ministry of food instead. out of so many times we've been there, we always order the same old food. but i've to say the food there rocks my socks and entertains my toes. its super nice especially the desserts! wanted to watch movie but both of us were really lazy so went to his house and i fell asleep. how much of a pig i am yo.

k we're gonna get dinner now and i'll be going home since he needs to study for bstats test. hello you pork, you'd better say you love me more than all the living and non living things in the world. ahhaha!

HEELS ON THE HILL

met up with puay joo on saturday. changed of plans so we didn't go for hightea. end of the month i suppose. had a good time shopping and catching up with each other. finally i see her spending money. efficient shopping eh. :D then met up with some 5ns at central for dinner.

went to sean's place on sunday to complete my projects. ahhh, super irritating yesterday. so much things to do. so rush. then watched him while he played soccer. i still prefer to see him playing as defender.

and today's our bcomm presentation! yay and the teacher said we've done a good job. yay yay yay. :D but i heard there's still another upcoming individual presentation. and the heels are killing me i can feel my toes screaming in pain. heels on the hill! ahhh k i wanna go home and sleep now. :(

LOST AND INSECURE

ahh i hate it when there's so much to do yet so lil' time. let's just say i've got so much to do instead of my poor time management. i've got five upcoming projects to done by monday and my house still doesn't have internet connection. ughh. and i hate to remind myself that august is coming which means exams again.

gonna go for some shopping later to destress. i need a bag and my formal shirt. bcomm presentation on monday and i'm not quite done with my script. i really wanna get everything over and done with now. so busy and tired. :(

but i'm sure weekends would be better since i'm meeting my friends for hightea at goodwood park on saturday. then meeting sean for soccer at sunday. :D

YOU FOUND ME

went to adam road for dinner then island creamery for ice cream yesterday! i finally realised how much of a east person i am. i've not eaten at island creamery before. so when we were going home, kenneth and sean had to scare me with those scary stories of girls being raped. i got so afraid i decided not to walk home.

and today kenneth told me that he asked Ronald MacDonald to protect me cause he's everywhere. yeah right. -.-

i think i'm like living in some rural area with no Internet connection and scv. so all i do when i get home is to do work, read and sleep. how pathetic but simple.

AND KNOW THE STARS ARE HOLDING YOU TONIGHT

dance was awesome as usual and yay, we're finally done with cha cha. gonna learn rumba the next lesson. :D but yesterday's lesson was kinda tiring. we just keep walking and sashaying over and over again.

was reading on michael jackson's life story during bmgt lecture just now. as a kid, i would definitely wanna stay at neverland even though i have to admit that david beckham's house looks nicer and more grand. lol. ohh and kenneth showed us this video where they filmed at neverland and spotted this shadow in michael jackson's room. they thought it was his spirit. scary.

after months of thinking when my bag is gonna give way, it finally gave way today. :( i wonder if melanie's ted baker bag is still working fine. the strap of my bag tore. how embarrassing. i've to walk around school hugging my bag. but my friends were such sweethearts, they carried my bag and laptop bag for me. :D

and now its ITB lecture, which also means self entertainment. tricia , fenglin and me decide that its fun to cam whore during lecture. we actually hid under the table to take photos. refugees. hahaha! and many eyes were on us. kinda embarrassing. i wonder when will i actually pay attention to ITB lecture. i tried but its super boring i swear.

bcomm project discussion later and perhaps meeting sean. your random phone calls definitely did made my days brighter even though i don't get to see you.

A DIZZY TWISTED DANCE

crap, its funny how i got lost yesterday and couldn't find my house. lol. so i ended up walking for half an hour up hill and down hill. booo. i can't wait to get my driving license so that i can drive instead of walking a long way home.

ohh and did i mention sean was sucha sweetheart on sunday? he actually came all the way to my house just to pass me blank papers so that i can print my troubleshooting report. :D and i had a hard time directing him in and out. but still, thanks darling pork!

okay, i think i've got short term memory so that explains why i got nothing to blog about cause i sort of forgot what happened yesterday. except that i slept for super long after i reached home and talked on the phone with sean. and this sem sucks, really. i've four ongoing projects and the deadlines are next next week. some even this week. i don't know how to complete it on time. :(

I'LL CROSS THE STREAM

met sean and his friends for soccer yesterday. yay, i finally get to see emyza. :D its been like a few months. lol. since i haven't done my troubleshooting report, i couldn't play with them. so i sat by the side and do my report. :(

but it started to rain so heavily i was so cold i almost turned into a snowman. then came the most interesting part. i took a cab just to use the toilet. expensive toilet fare. hahahah! cause i needed to pee so urgently and its raining, me and justin took a cab to loyang point so that i could use the toilet. :D

yay i love walking in the rain, especially the feeling when i got drenched. so i reached home with water dripping on the floor.

i have a dream, a song to sing

YOU KNOW YOU'RE MY SAVING GRACE

today feels like a lazy friday. i always remember when i was still in secondary school, i would wake up feeling very happy knowing its friday. but not anymore now. i'm so lazy i feel like rolling instead of walking.

i'm always complaining to sean about how insensitive he is, how he always don't express his love in the similar way as i do and many more little little stuff. only today did i realised that i shouldn't have done that. k i mean i shouldn't be always complaining. he's constantly showing his love to me in a different way, so different that sometimes i wouldn't even notice it.

although most of the times he's super annoying disturbing me with his nonsense and all, there're times when he's very caring. when i'm hungry he always make sure there's food for me, else he would get it no matter how late it is. today he insisted on carrying my laptop even though he had his to carry. its very heavy and difficult to carry because of the surface of our laptop bags. and when i asked him why, he said he knows i'm tired after soccer and he wants to carry it for me. i know its just small lil' actions but it makes me happy, really.

i hate to remind myself that today would be the last day i'll be here. i don't wanna to be so far away.

Everywhere i'm looing now
i'm surrounded by your embrace
baby, i can see your halo
you know you're my saving grace
you're everything i need and more

SEXY SCREWDRIVER

photos taken during the camp! we're the sexy screw drivers yo! hahahha! some photos look super unglam and ugly i know. and were taken while we were cha cha-ing! it was super fun that night since the whole apartment only has me, fenglin and tricia! :D

ALL SAID AND DONE

all boring lectures today and i really realised i cannot pay attention to a two hour lecture. its really unbearable. was playing bejeweled to keep myself awake. :D i love two hour lunch break because it gives us sufficient, or rather extra time to do what we want. playing cards, gossiping and all.

went to bugis for a while, didnt manage to get what i wanted to though. in order not to make it a waste trip, i ended up buying some redundant stuff. lol. i was so tempted to buy the dress i saw at top shop. :(

i'm so hungry now. all i had was just almond jelly and kinder bueno. how pathetic is that. boo.

i tried to ignore but i can't. i can't see you falling yet i'm standing there not doing anything. but when i actually tried to help, nothing seems to be working and it pains me so much to see what's happening. and at the same time, i can't bring myself to express it. i really don't know why people have to learn by the hard way. only when you've fallen so hard then you'll realise what is wrong. why can't you take the easy way out.

BULLSHIT

funny cats mates i have. they can actually ask you to come online to discuss the project and they themselves are not online. and i don't get why we have to meet four hours earlier just to come up with a problem. why can't we discuss it online since its just coming up with a problem. what's the use of msn, oovoo and skype then. super irritating. what's with all the psychology students. -.-

and yay, i finally got the skirt. i thought i wouldn't be able to get it since topshop ran out of stock.

bullshit, seriously.

YOU BELONG WITH ME

four twenty five am. see what is school doing to me. all thanks to dancesport and investigative report. :( hahha, okay i know my time management sucks. but no, i was too tired.

dancesport today was good. and i think i kinda found a partner from electrical engineering. :D yay for that. else no partner no performance, no competitions. come to think of it, i haven't brought my dancing shoes to school before considering the fact that its been a month since i got it. ahh, waste money again. lol.

after dance was even better since sean was waiting for me with kenneth and jonathan. i see all the nonsense people getting along very well with each other. had dinner at whitesands and homed.

oh ya. i conveniently forgot that we got back our papers today. let's just say it was crap and i deserved it since i didnt really study hard and had insufficient sleep the day before. everything was bad except poa, k at least i've an a. and its really scary to know that our class average score for every module turns out to be eighty plus.

yay and a super short day tomorrow since itb lecture is cancelled. :D hurrayy for that. k sleep.