WHEN THE DRUM HITS, HANDS ON YOUR HIPS

headache headache headache.

woke up late in the afternoon, did some work and project. then had dinner at st regis. ahh, the hotel is so nice and grand. their doors are so reflective its like mirrors. and their lifts are super nice, its filled with marble. k i know i sound like some mountain tortoise.

crap. i'm really tired. itb proposal to be submitted by eleven fifty nine yet its still not completed. plus there's school tomorrow. there's some discussions to be assessed and its five percent. imagine you sitting there, doing some group discussions and the teacher will grade you from there. its like -.- ahh.

CHJMES

supposed to meet sean at two in the afternoon, but the two of us woke up at two. lol. went to cathay, wanted to catch a movie but the timing weren't in favour of us so had lunch and shopped around. ahh, i saw this really cute soft toy key chain i wanted to get but its kinda expensive so.. :(

met the rest at seven thirty. and we waited until nine for warren and philip. so walked to timbre and there were no seats at all la! see, its because of them! lol. then we decided to go to chjmes! i swear its a super long way there man. but sean made it better by carrying my bag for me. xie xie darling.

kenneth said lychee martini is nice but ew i don't like the taste. k perhaps i don't like the taste of alcohol so i ordered some shirley temple its goood cause its non-alcohol drink. :D took some photos, sat for a while and just got home not long ago. ahh, tiring but enjoyable day. we're planning to go again after common tests! :D

ahh! i'm like desperately in need of money now. i wanna buy so many stuff. cheryl's present, this red f50 and isqueeze! :D but my mom bought so much stuff for me already i'd feel damn bad if i were to ask more money from her. :(

i don't know if i should feel this way, or maybe i shouldn't. but i'm sorry, i don't feel good knowing that. or rather, i don't like it when you don't tell me about it.

DEAD BEAT

DEAD BEAT

yay, i feel so refreshed after having a long, cold bath. :D ah, really really tired today. had cats presentation in the afternoon. and oh my god. somebody wore as if he's going for prom. black and white suit. plus fedora hat. i mean like its a lil too overrated right. so weird. i thought he had some formal function before school.

then it was socccer! :D and i never fail to injure myself during soccer. clumsy, i know. but i mean soccer is very physical what so getting injured is inevitable. right? lol. then went to meet karina cause she wanted to get some formal skirt for interview. ahh i saw so many stuff i wanna get again. stupid, my shopping frenzy can't seem to stop. ohh surprisingly my mom called to ask me what wallet i wanted when she already knew i got a new wallet. miracle. like once in ten years kinda thing.

had dinner with her and whee i bought auntie anne's pretzel. the only flavour i like is the cinnamon sugar. know why? hee. cause the first few times when i went out with sean, he bought the pretzel and i like it after that. :D spent some time catching up and walking around the freezing cold tampines 1. i was literally shivering while walking. lol.

walked home, talked, talked, talked, talked. hahaha. too much stuff to talk about. lol. glad that we met up today. hope we'll meet up with the rest soon! :D

barney and babybob! :D

YOU MAKE ME CRAZIER, CRAZIER, CRAZIER

slept in the morning. ahhh, really tired from those never ending projects. oh ya! and barcelona won the champions league finals! i don't know what was man u doing. but i have to admit barcelona was good! messi smiles like some small boy when he scored yesterday! and ronaldo looks damn cute when he goes pfffffft. hahahah! i really wanted to buy the man u jersey but looks like i'm gonna get the barcelona's one! and ugly barney, let's go let it together okay! since you won soooooo much monehhh. right sean? :D

yay i'm glad i'm done with my cats project. but it seems like i'm the only one editing which means, literally redoing the whole thing. i know i shouldn't be whining, but hey! its a group project but why am i doing it alone. -.- ahh nevermind, i want a good grade for cats, so...

almost done with e learning, left miec and poa. i don't know what's with the poa lecturer. he's like super duper hardworking please. and he posted so many things as compared to the other module leaders. but damn, i don't dare to take the poa test! cause its graded, 5 %. i don't wanna not do well for it. so shall save the best for the last. hahahah!

cats presentation and soccer tomorrow! then meeting karina to buy some stuff. ahh, really tiring man. i just wanna have nothing to do for one day and i'll be happy. :D crazier has been on repeat mode for the whole day and its stuck in my head! lol. i can't wait to watch hannah montanah! hope it'll be nice. :D saturdayyyy. :D

Butterfly, well you landed on my mind
Dammit you landed on my ear and then you crawled inside
Now I see you perfectly behind closed eyes
I wanna fly with you and I don't wanna lie to you
Cause I, cause I can't recall a better days
I'm coming to shine on the occasion

1,2,3,4,0,1,2? WHAT LOGIC!

if i were to use a word to describe my day, it would be PROJECTIFIEDFULLISH. k i don't even know what the word means. i just typed it out randomly. hahahah! ah crap la. its just filled with projects. and i swear by hook or by crook, i will finish my projects by tonight, today! i won't sleep unless i finish it. i don't want it to haunt me for the whole e learning week. what's more, common tests are coming up. the only thing i'm looking forward to is the hannah montanah movie, timbre on saturday and st ridges on sunday! wheeee!

let's see what do i have to do. hmm..

ITB proposal, powerpoint and script.
CATS powerpoint, write up
all my E-learning Quizes

k it sounds like there're only three. but hell no! its alot alot alot and it can kill me and rob me of my life. ahahhah! nonsense. but really, its physically and mentally draining. went to watch s league in the evening with sean and justin. crap man. i should have just followed sean's stupid theory.

oh and the HIGHLIGHT of the day! champions league tonight! no tomorrow morning at two! manchester united and barcelona. i'm sitting on the fence actually. but i guess i'll still stick with MAN UNITED! i already saw ten people's pm in msn. ' GLORY GLORY MAN UNITED' hahahah! yes yes, hopefully the victory belongs to them. :D if they win, i'm gonna get the white man u jersey! :D

You lift my feet off the ground
You spin me around
You make me crazier, craizer
Feels like im fallin'and I
Am lost in your eyes
You make me crazier, crazier, crazier

I've watched from a distance as you
Made life your own
Every sky was your own kind of blue
And I wanted to know how that would feel
And you made it so real
You showed me something that I couldn't see
You opened my eyes
And you made me believe

HOW DUMB CAN I GET

ugh! fuck it, i can't believe i was sucha dumbass just now. i shouldn't have cut and paste. i shouldn't have touched it in the first place. and now i lost one folder of photos. shit you stupid ugly vaio. shit you ITB. i don't understand why do we have to learn all those redundant stupid IT stuff when you don't even teach me how to recover my files. asshole.

GREEN LIGHTS, GREEN DAY!

my shoes almost killed me today. i don't know what kind of flats must i get. the everlast one is damn uncomfortable. so i decided to get the guess one. its just equally uncomfortable man. sucky shoes. the only pair of comfortable shoes i wore before were from cotton on, but the thing is it spoils very easily. irritating shoes man. ah, k enough.

went to school for miec make up tutorial. and its only for an hour. imagine travelling to school for one and a half hour, just to attend a tutorial which last for an hour. well done man! didn't go for dance as my friends weren't going.

felt really bad cause this week i'm busy with my projects so didn't really spend time with sean. went over to his place. had dinner and printed some stuff. ahh, it feels good to be spending time with him again. laughing, eating, playing and taking retarded photos. :D

ahh, crap. i hate this week. projects and nothing else. the best thing is i'm suppose to meet up with my group mates at ten in school tomorrow. i mean i don't understand why the meeting since we all haven't done anything yet. isn't it better for us to split the job first, only when we're done with the work then we meet up to compile it. ughh. sheesh.

















i want you to know, with everything i won't let this go
these words are my heart and soul.
i'll hold on to this moment you know
cause i'd bleed my heart out to show, that i won't let go

thoughts read are spoken, forever in doubt.
and pieces of memories fall to the ground.
i know what i did and so, i wont let this go
cause its true, i'm nothing without you.

TOO TIRED, TOO NUMBED

alright, e learning week is just like any other week. in fact, there're more projects during the e learning week. crap. its super draining and i don't know how much of my brain cells have been killed. went to national library today for itb project. i don't like it man. its really boring. :(

but i had mango tango and that potato! its really nice! at least there's something to brighten up my day. kenneth came to join us for bmgt project. glad that it was rather productive. plus minutes is done. i was so tired i couldn't even walk properly. cant believe i actually lost my friends while walking. dumbass.

miec tutorial and dance tomorrow. common tests coming up next saturday. projects are piling up like there's no tomorrow. i don't even have time for myself. i'm going crazy. i don't need anybody else to make it worse. i miss those times where i can spend the whole day reading on my bed. gone were those times.

SIX EIGHT SIX

wheeeee! shopping shopping shopping, eating, shopping pretty much sums up my day. and now i'm like some tired pig. and i still have to meet up my friends for project tomorrow.

shopping with my aunt is the best cause she won't restrict me from buying anything. ohhh! i saw this super nice dress at ted baker! i swear its the nicest thing on earth! i mean, really really really nice. i wanted it so badly! but they have my size anymore. :( but its really really really nice. i think i need some time to erase the image of that dress in my head. i thought i could wear that for the gala dinner.

then we decided to go to hermes! kenneth told me its pronounce as 'er meh'. k its something like that. wah their stuff like -.- a plain polo tee cost one thousand five. its like abit not worth it la. besides that, their materials are so much similar to ted baker's one. they have a lot of cute and pretty baby shoes. i feel like buying and it keep for my children in the future! hahahh!

i want a new school bag and laptop bag. :(

ahhh, k i'm tired and i don't know what to blog about. shall go work on my project.

BABYBOB & BIG BARNEY

ahh, i love weekends more than anything else! lol. finally can have my sweet twelve hours sleep. and i think i dreamt of alot of stuff yesterday and they were super hilarious please. i actually woke up laughing. stupid, my dreams are always so retarded. hahaha!

and yes, i completed my cats project! :D i literally re do the whole powerpoint by myself. i think i should get that hundred percent man. hahahah! but the guys were really good, they were so efficient! met josephine in the afternoon cause we bored! had a good time catching up with her. we seem to have so much to talk about. i miss those schooling days so badly. :(

was talking to jo about cca. then i recalled what tricia told me! she said dancesport is a rather expensive cca because for each competition we participate, we have to pay a thousand! but i don't mind. know why! the costumes are way too pretty and tempting! :D

went for dinner at some seafood place at east coast. its been like months since we had dinner together. i swear i was too full to walk la. i ate so much prawns and now i feel so prawn-ish. i think i will stay away from it for the time being. during dinner, my mom heard me saying there's sales and all. so apparently, she asked my aunt to go shopping with us tomorrow! yay! :D i hope the ax bag that i wanted will be available at taka. yay shopping shopping shopping! shopping makes me whole! :D

my mom has been nagging at me, asking me to pack my stuff and all. i don't understand why everyone is so kanchiong. we're moving in july but now is only may. its like two months away still. i don't feel like moving. i wanna stay here where all my friends are. but she was smart enough to motivate me a lil' by saying she's gonna get a car for me when i get my license. but ahh, i rather stay here than to have a car in the new housee. :(

stupid sean made me so worried just now. i can't believe he actually played soccer with his friends for like three hours plus.

INTOXICATED

i love fridays! fridays make me happy! k let me tell you why. i need not think of what to wear because we all have to wear the s&w shirt. besides that, lesson starts at one which means i can sleep longer. futhermore, there's soccer! not to forget, its the last weekday and it'll be weekend! can finally take a break from those projects and tutorials. so, that pretty much sums up my love for fridays!

even though i don't like cats, but i love my cats teacher! she has to be the youngest, nicest and prettiest cats teacher man! hahaha! all my classmates were rushing for their cats presentation last week as they'll be presenting today. but my teacher let us discuss it in class and we'll only be presenting next week. what more could we ask for? :D not only that okay! we were all complaining that our stomachs are growling so she actually let us go out to buy food in the middle of the lesson. was craving for frolick really badly just now. :(

then we had soccer! whee! today's soccer session is really fun even though the sun tried to kill us. we played some one versus one game and match. yay! and i scored a goal yo! i was damn proud of myself please. i shall just forget the fact that russel deliberately let in the goal! then he tried to convince me that that goal is really hard to save. lol. oh and i saved a goal with my arm! kenneth wanted to score and i was the defender so i just stood there and the ball hit directly on my arm. the impact was damn scary i actually stood stationary for a while after being hit. hahaha retarded i know. :D

wheeeeeeeee! i feel so damn happy today! no idea why. k perhaps today is friday! or maybe i'm just pmsing. :D yay! e learning week next week so don't have to go back to school except on tuesday and friday! can sleeeep for all i want man! :D but ah, projects are such spoiler!

I can't let you walk away
we planned to live forever in each others arms
so please hold on
you know no one will love you like i do
and that's the thing you know it too

ALMOST AWESOME

almost didn't wanna wake up for school today cause i was rushing my essay last night so slept really late. school is making me age at a faster speed cause it deprives me of sleep. :(

ohh and we learnt something really confusing during econs today. some marginal product stuff. the lecturer had to explain like four to five times. funnaye. then had poa. ahh, didn't really pay attention because my laptop battery was flat and i can't find any power point, then i have no notes to refer to la. all the selfish people. sheeeesh. so we spent the time talking about going to timbre! cause kenneth said they have nice pizza! i think we're some weird people. we actually wanna timbre for pizza instead of drinking! hahahha! yay next saturday!

skipped itb workshop cause i had to go to daiso. and i figured out that if i go after the workshop ended, it would be too late. stupid cats. ugh. went to the daiso at vivo! wheee! ate at bakerzin! i love their macaroons, its damn nice and sean the fatty seems to like it alot. :D i went to ax and can't see the bag that i wanted. crap. i should have gotten it when i saw it, now its goneee. :(

went to sean's house and did my essay cause i'm suppose to submit in soft and hard copy. cats is irritating. cats doesn't brings out the creativity in me, it just deprives me of my beauty sleep. ordered pizza for dinner! had five slices of pizza. oh my. i think i'm growing fatter. no, i mean i grew fatter already, i have tummy! now then i realised, its ugly. :( but i'm lazy to do sit ups. ahh, so forget it, i shall grow fat with sean. :D

some pictures taken during the past few lectures.

SOMEWHERE OVER THE RAINBOW

had poa quiz in the morning. yes, i was indeed upset by my results. as i mentioned before, all my friends are smart asses. its upon fifty. some got full marks, the average was like forty seven and a half. my results are far cry from them. but nevermind, i hope i'll do better for the upcoming one. stress. its like just the best out of the best people in my class. next was itb and econs. i love miec tutorial because the teacher is our form teacher. k not only that but he's a really nice and funny guy. he gets along pretty well with us, just like our daddy. :D

i love dance, it never fails to divert my thoughts. we learnt quite a few steps today. its kinda fun! more turns and all. oh and there's this guy, oh my god. i swear he doesnt know how to turn a girl. he seems to be twisting my arm. yay, and we've a new dance partner in class! at least yoke yeong can be our dance partner in class. how niceee! :D

i regretted buying that shoes from everlast. its just a pair of crappy and hurtful shoes. :( it was damn painful, it actually slit my ankle. and it bled! so the shoes kinda have some blood stains! i hate having scars on my feet cause it doesn't seem to go away, and it makes my feet uglyyy.

i admit i was kinda sad the whole day because i miss sean. okay, wait, not that we're not together anymore. just that he's busy with his stuff, i'm busy with mine so i don't get to meet him as often. but its okay, i guess i'll get used to it and get over it. since he didn't go to school today, i met him after dance! it feels so familiar to be in his arms again after so many days. had dinner and talk for a lil' while. just this lil' while makes me happy already but gets me missing you more. if you're reading this darling, i love you.

We were as one babe
For a moment in time
And it seemed everlasting
That you would always be mine
Now you want to be free
So I'm letting you fly
Cause I know in my heart babe
Our love will never die, no

You'll always be a part of me
I'm a part of you indefinitely
Boy don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me

I MISS YOU

Where are you and I'm so sorry
I cannot sleep I cannot dream tonight
I need somebody and always

This sick strange darkness
Comes creeping on so haunting every time
And as I stared I counted
What's with all the spiders
Catching things and eating their insides

Like indecision to call you
and hear your voice of treason
Will you come home and stop this pain tonight
Stop this pain tonight

i wish i could tell you how much i miss you. but i know i can't have you like how i used to.

GET UP AND SHAKE THE GLITTER OFF YOUR CLOTHES NOW

right, so yesterday i was too tired to blog. spent my sunday afternoon catching up with josephine. ahhh, it just feels like one of the old school days. and after not meeting for so long, we still have so much to talk about. and yes,we shall meet up soon for pizza hut plus secret recipe! we always wanted to do that when we were in secondary school but it always fail. because pigs like us would order meals for three when there're only two of us, so we'll end up stuffing all the food in our stomach. i love the feeling of us not being able to walk cause our stomachs are too bloated. :D

bcomm today and we've gotten our grades. crap. :( our class actually have the intention of skipping bmgt tutorial. i swear it's damn boring. all we do is to discuss, discuss and discuss. the best thing is, in our discussions, we cannot use words like ' maybe, if, what if, may not'. because she wants us to picture ourselves as the board of directors. like what the hell right. lol. not like everybody's gonna be the board of directors when we grow up. pffffft.

i got bored just now and decided to shop online. its been a while, really. :D nowadays, the blog shops are selling really weird stuff. like, f cup cookies, f cup coffee, tea and all. what amazed me was there's this fragrant pill. after you take it, you need not put perfume or any deodorant and you'll smell like rose. possible? no?

poa test tomorrow and i'm not ready. i'm kinda confused with double entry, general journal, comprehensive income and financial position. other than this, i still have miec tutorial, poa tutorial, bmgt project, itb project & cats project to be done. i'm glad i'm still alive and kicking.

WE'RE THE COOL CUPCAKES!

OVER AND OVER AND OVER AGAIN

its been quite sometime since i went shopping. okay and today was just unexpected. had lunch at lerk thai first, its been so many months since i ate there cause there aren't any lerk thai near our school. i love the tom yum soup as usual! :D

then headed to bugis! went to see the wallet i was contemplating to buy for so looong! in fact, i was still procrastinating today. hahaha! because my mom hasn't give me allowance yet and its like hundred plus. ahh! shit i feel it coming, i seem to be quite reluctant to spend on myself lately. i hope this isn't in my blood! lol. when i was still looking at it, sean told the person to get a new piece of it. though part of me felt bad and guilty, the another part of me was brimming with joy! :D yay i finally got the wallet i wanted! to top it off, i bought another pair of shoes! wanted to buy two of it with different colours, but i couldn't bear to spend the hundred dollar note in my wallet cause my mom seldom gives me that.

left around evening cause we decided to meet bernard and hui yi for movie! after watching star trek, i feel like going to space! ohhh and did i mention before. i wanna held my wedding in space! invite those aliens to my wedding dinner! hahaha! k ignore that alien part but its true i want my wedding to be held in space. its damn cool please. taking space ship to my wedding dinner beats sitting in Ferrari, don't you think so? :D its way much cool-er okay! but ahhh, wedding, still a long long way to go.

played soccer for a while then i went home. its really irritating to play soccer wearing dress. i can't run that fast, i can't lift my leg that high. hahaha! but still, its damn fun la. its nice seeing bernard, marcus and alvin again, cause its been few weeks. used to see them quite frequently during the holidays. went home with my toes screaming in pain. :(

i guess sean must be really happy yesterday and today. he bought so much stuff yesterday and today he bought four shirts and one flip flop. ahhh, the flip flop is damn hot! plus the three shirts i gave him, he brought home like seven shirts. happy right heng zi!

whenever my mom goes to Indonesia, she'll buy lots of polo tees for me. but i think she's old already. she keep buying the same designs that she already bought, just in different sizes. how weird and waste monehh man. finally get to see her after two weeks but i think she'll be going away again soon.

oh and crap! poa quiz on monday! i lost my textbook and have nothing to refer to. not forgetting there's tutorial to be done! help sean help!

Cause I try to climb your steps
I try to chase you down
I try to see how low I can get down to the ground
And I try to earn my way
I try to change this mind
You better believe that I am trying to beat this

ANOTHER FIFTEEN WHICH BRINGS THE TWENTY FIRST

happening day i must say. :D went to the singapore history museum in the morning. we're suppose to take photo of two artefact which are creative. ohh and the cool thing is when you're in the history gallery, you'll be given this player which is six times the size of a ipod touch. all you need to do is to key in the number of the artefact and it will play the explanation. how cool is that man. took quite alot of photos but its with deborah. shall wait for her to send to me. :D

then we went back to school for sports and wellness! yay! cause the lightning alert went off and we're told to stay indoor. so we got dismissed half an hour earlier than the usual time! after that i went to meet melanie, warren and my other classmates at our space to play taboo! its still that fun and funny! :D

then it was the climax of the day! melanie and i went to meet puay joo and karina at tampines one! i swear its been really long since we last met and we had lots to talk about. like ALOT. hahaha! after we had dinner we went to macs to have our long talks. and we played taboo too! took quite a few photos with mel's mac book. apple is damn cool man! i wanna get one! reached home around twelve! ah mel send me the photos soon! :D

yesterday me and sean went to sportslink and i saw this lanyard. really nice one. wanted to get but its really long so its kinda ugly on me. when i was out with my friends, he texted me saying that he went to buy it for me and alter it to make it shorter. imagine a guy sewing. i swear my heart melted. hahahah! i was really touched. thanks darling. and i bought three shirts for him too! but i didn't tell him because it's meant to be a surprise. i doubt he would read my blog today so i guess he wouldn't know. :D

okay i better get to bed now cause my eyes are clamming shut. its like three quarter closed. tired but happening. i love today. not only because i met up with my friends but also, its the fifteenth.

WON'T GO HOME WITHOUT YOU

i've had always wanted dimples on my face. but just few days ago, i realised dimples are muscle defects!

had miec lecture today. and yes, i manage to pay attention to the lecture but towards the end, we started playing. :D at least, i've learnt something new today! elasticity! econs will be more interesting if its taught by mr matthew pon instead of ms hana sharpe. her voice really like lullaby. its as if she's singing rock a bye baby rhyme. lol. i'm mean i know. :D

next was poa! woah and its the first time sean came for poa lecture. like, finally. hahaha! then had lunch. ohh i had so much fun playing in the games room with my friends. we played taboo. its really fun and exciting. and i swear its been really long since i laugh until my stomach hurts. knowing that we're late for our itb workshop, we still continue to play. i think we're like the naughtiest class in BFS. we play alot alot and we don't pay attention during lectures :D all the naughty but fun and smart asses. lol.

thought i could watch shooter with sean but he said he was tired. :( so had dinner and we went home.

I promise you,
I'm always there,
When your heart is filled
With sorrow and despair,
I'll carry you
When you need a friend,
You'll find my footprints in the sand.

FEELS LIKE TONIGHT

ahhh, shouldn't have missed dancesport cause tricia said they were taught alot of new steps and turns. :( booooo.

i was damn reluctant to go to school today cause i'm kinda sick of it. but i'm glad i made it there cause we had so much fun! :D my friends are one bunch of people who are always so nonsensical and funnehh. during bcomm presentation we were playing soccer. and because somebody tripped me so i kinda made a three hundred and sixty degree turn! hahaha! and bolor is really good with chapteh. their childhood games in Mongolia are totally different from what we played in Singapore.

next was bmgt lecture. i tapao-ed ice jelly into the lecture hall! :D i swear the weather was unbearable, i had no choice but to eat ice jelly! hahahah! the lecturer was late for forty five minutes, we thought we can go off but luckily we stayed back else have to make up.

then had lunch with sean and my friends. glad that they get along quite well. and i swear warren was... hahhha! its the first time they actually talk to each other and warren bombarded him with lots of awkward questions man. he kept saying sean is a nice guy, sean is a nice guy and all. not that he's not nice but looks are deceiving though. :D then he attended itb lecture with us! after that we went to play pool! yay and i won sean! wheeee! k la, i know i'm not that good, its just sheer luck. then off he went for rugby. :(

Now that we’re here,
Now that we’ve come this far,
Just hold on.
There is nothing to fear,
For I am right beside you.
For all my life,
I am yours.

DULL

had poa tutorial in the morning. we were dismissed early as usual because she was rushing to the graduation ceremony. then had one hour itb tutorial. i wonder if the shirt i'm wearing today is that colourful that it attracts so much attention. embarrassing. lol. so as i was walking into the class, louise stared at me, she didn't smile or anything just stared at me. and after the tutorial, she said she like my pink bra that's why she kept looking. lol.

oh and i saw cheryl at makan place. then we walked to the atrium to buy cakes! the cakes look really tempting, i always wanted to buy but there's no place to sit down and eat. so today, i finally bought it. the strawberry shortcake tastes good! :D while the others went for tutorial, some of us went to play board games. its been quite sometime since i last played monopoly. its damn fun la, seeing how much we dread to pass by certain area cause we need to pay alot. especially tanjong rhu cause kenneth bought three houses. lol.

gave dance a miss today, thought will be meeting karina but she had something on so went home. and no museum on wednesday. :( i feel so restless and confused now. :(

i wanna go out like how everyone is going out. i wanna have fun like how everybody is having fun. its been a long time.

KISS ME WITH YOUR EYELASHES TONIGHT

had bcomm presentation today. before the presentation i was damn nervous i swear. i kept telling kenneth and fenglin how scared i was. ahh today's presentation was kinda scary because it was assessed, everyone was so serious. lol. crap, i think i didn't do as well as i did last week. :(

had lunch with my friends and sean joined us as well. i think he's a lil' shy when i introduced him to my classmates, but he just have to insist he's not. lol. as usual, bmgt was crap. and i don't know how come i became the rep for bmgt. lol. went to his place after school and he taught me how to do poa! ah, i felt so accomplished today. really! i actually sat there for 2 hrs just to do poa and he slept. hahaha! he look kinda cute when he sleeps, just like a bear. :D went to central to tapao fooood and home sweet home. i hate to kiss him goodbye. :(

i thought school ends at 1 tomorrow, but nooo, false alarm, it ends at four which means i have to stay until nine for dancesport! very tiring. :( i'm beginning to get used to doing tutorials and stuff, so hopefully, i'll continue doing it. :D and darling, i know you can do it, just a lil' bit more and you'll be done with everything before you know it. :D

and my classmates are calling me mouse now. i've no idea why. lol.

A LITTLE TOO WRONG

i've been craving for the kuehs at bengawan solo for a few days already. my timing's always wrong. when i go in the morning, the kuehs are not there yet, then when i go at night, its all sold out. and school's the cause of it. lol. so yesterday i actually dreamt of it, shows how much i wanna eat that. i wanna eat the egg tarts at lei garden. marche and shoduko too. :(

was woken by the loud and irritating thunder in the morning. i swear the thunder was really loud. like somebody shouting at you. fell asleep after a while. and then my irritating brother have to squeeze beside me and wake me up again. today's mother's day. i'm sure almost everyone celebrated it with their family, had dinner or something. but my mom's overseas. :( she seems to be really busy nowadays. i feel a lil' deprive of family love nowww. hahahaha! i want her to come back soon cause i wanna eat goood food. i'm kinda sick of home cooked food and fast food. ya okay, spoilt i know. :D

everything seems to be happening at the same time, hello, i need a break. school, school, school, exams are coming up, i need to pack my stuff soon cause i'm moving house next month or so. and i've alot alot alot of stuff to pack. abit reluctant. no, very reluctant. but my mom won't be selling this house so probably i might be able to come back and stay when i feel like it. i hope after moving there my mom will decide to hire a chauffeur cause the walking distance can kill.

although things have been pretty hectic, i seem to be looking forward to everyday. i don't know why too. i want 15 october to come soon cause i wanna be eighteen! i wanna get my driving license and i'll bug my mom to get me a car! but i'm okay if she doesn't wanna get me a car as long as she lets me drive hers. ahh k, i think i must be daydreaming again. bcomm presentation tomorrow and i'm not yet prepared. :D very well done, joyce. ohh and bcomm presentation means i've to wear long pants, and that means i can slide down the staircase railings! wheee! i feel kinda tomboy-ish now.

AND I KNOW MAN U WILL WIN TONIGHT! ROOOOOOOOONEY!

i'm gonna see my big tree soon. :D

It’s like I’ve been awakened
Every rule I had you breaking
It’s the risk that I’m taking
I ain't never gonna shut you out

Everywhere I’m looking now
I’m surrounded by your embrace
Baby I can see your halo
You know you’re my saving grace
You’re everything I need and more
It’s written all over your face
Baby I can feel your halo
Pray it won’t fade away

BREAKAWAY

i feel like some emo shit everyday when things don't go my way. or things don't turn out to be the way i thought it would be. i don't know what's happening to me. i know i have to understand but with everything happening at the same time, i doubt i can do it. with lots and lots of projects piling up, its definitely not helping. almost every tutorial class there will be a project given to us. even cats class have project. i need to breathe. i need to escape to some fairyland for ten days, probably this would work.

stayed at home today. woke up early for some itb project and i have to edit my bcomm slides cause i'm presenting on monday. hope i don't speak too fluently again, that's the irony i don't seem to get it. and as i'm typing i realised that i have poa tutorial to do but i don't know where on the earth my textbook disappeared to. not to forget mircoecons and bmgt too. i hope i get used to all this soon else i doubt i'll do well in poly. i miss studying but i just can't seem to study in poly. i still prefer english, maths, chinese, science rather than econs, poa, bcomm and bmgt. :(

i miss sean. its not about when i last saw him but just how much i want him to be here with me now. no matter how angry or sad i am with him i would still wanna see him. that's just another irony. whenever i'm sad, i want nothing but his hugs and it would brighten up my day. was reading my archives, all our msn convo and glancing through our photos yesterday. although we've been together for a while, i'm sure we've been through alot together. i'm not afraid to say he's my boyfriend because i'm proud of it. he might not be the the handsome-est or richest guy on earth but i know he's definitely good enough for me.

belatedly, i'm starting to miss the good times we had when we just got together. not because we havent been happy but just as the saying goes, the courtship period is the sweetest.

And everything I have in this world
And all that I'll ever be
It could all fall down around me
Just as long as I have you right here by me

I can’t take another day without you
'Cause, baby, I could never make it on my own
I've been waiting so long just to hold you
And to be back in your arms where I belong
I'm sorry I can't always find the words to say
But everything I've ever known gets swept away
Inside of your love

NOTHING ELSE, JUST DISAPPOINMENT

today was kinda relaxing, only had cats and s&w. for cats we actually came up with stupid wacky ideas using durian, train, ipod, toilet bowl, teddy bear and some other stuff. crap. we need to visit the Singapore history museum and daiso to look out for something creative and were created to solve problems in everyday life. but i'm lazy and i don't know where the museum is. :(

then had soccer today. everything else was good except the sun. when i left the house, it was drizzling so i thought perhaps there'll be no sun today. and i didn't apply any sunblock. luckily my friend brought it and i applied it all over my face and arms before i run to the field. did some simple and basic stuff like dribbling using inner and outer foot, turning, penalty kick and all. then we had one vs one that kind. crap. i was playing with this girl who is in soccer. so while i was trying to control the ball and kick it away from her, i fell flat onto the grass. second time, we ended kicking each other's ankles. it was damn painful la with blue black here and there. nevertheless, it was fun. :D i feel like buying the pink mercurial vapor.

i know i shouldn't be feeling this way since its a trivial matter, but i really felt very disappointed. i know not telling me isn't lying to me. i know somethings are better left unsaid. i know i shouldn't expect people to tell me every single detail that happen in their everyday lives. but somehow, not telling me some things just disappoints me alot alot. and it hurts to know that. sorry, perhaps i'm just different.

CAUSE YOU'RE HOT AND YOU'RE COLD

microecons and poa lecture today. boring shit. but at least i learnt how to do something on double entry. :D sean said he would sit beside me during poa lecture but he didn't turn up for lecture again. its the only lecture we have together. :( so met him for lunch and i went to bukit timah plaza to meet my friends.

was deciding if we should go back to itb workshop. but went back in the end. the sun was unbearable i swear. i almost took a cab back. lol. we girls sat at the back of the class. as usual, we were doing our own things not really paying attention. itb workshop was really crap. he taught us about mother board, mouse, keyboard, quality of computer, the ram and stuff. i mean why on earth teach us such stuff. boring man.

so sean waited for me and we went to town! wanted to get my wallet but si pei told me that kipling will be participating in GSS so i shall wait. had lunch at heeren. oh my god. we saw this sumo wrestler statue. i was asking sean to take a photo with it but he felt embarrassed so we didn't! the statue is really cute! fat and short! hahahah! then to fareast! wheeeeeee! i bought my dancing shoes and skirt! and someother stuff! :D happy man! :D

i felt kinda bad cause sean was carrying my stuff all along. not to mention he has his own laptop and book to carry. thanks darling, you know i love love you. :D

i love my dancing shoes! although it might not look that nice, its all glittery with different shades of colours! and i think i would buy more next time! wheeeee! :D

UNFAIR, DEFINITELY

there's this news on yahoo about ' US face transplant patient show face'. i don't know why but i feel tears in my eyes when reading it. its so sad. her husband shot her in 2004. The blast shattered her nose, cheeks, the roof of her mouth and an eye. Hundreds of fragments of shotgun pellet and bone splinters were embedded in her face. Only her upper eyelids, forehead, lower lip and chin were left.

so she decided to go for face transplant and had to undergo thirty operations. i'm sure she doesn't deserve this, definitely. and the sad thing is, after going through so much, when she walks on the street, people recognises her as monster. :(

she said this, "When somebody has a disfigurement and don't look as pretty as you do, don't judge them, because you never know what happened to them. Don't judge people who don't look the same as you do. Because you never know. One day it might be all taken away."

20 SECONDS

started the day with really bad traffic congestion. probably due to the rain, all highways are full of cars. accident and accidents, as if the weather isn't bad enough to cause the congestion. apparently, my mom wanted to go by tpe but the jam is really bad. so changed and changed and changed. i was late for half an hour despite leaving my house like ten minutes earlier than usual. luckily when i walked into the class, mrs chua was smiling at me. lol.

and soon, it was my turn to present. the best part was, i didn't even have script. so i just borrowed some paper from fenglin and scribbled some words on it which i barely referred to when i was presenting. stupid. lol. in a presentation, you've to speak fluently. but mrs chua said i was too fluent it became too flowy and i tend to link up my words, so my dictions weren't clear enough. so weird right. not fluent cannot, too fluent also cannot. lol. ahhh, will be presenting again next week! ten percent! :D

after bcomm was bmgt lecture. we went to makan place to tapao subway cookies and bubble tea. :D i getting kinda sick of subway cause i seem to be eating it almost everyday. ohh and i saw cheryl there! the school is really big, you seldom get to see your friends. i haven't even seen dwayne and kirstie in school before. that's just the irony. same school but don't get to see them. bmgt lecture was boring at usual.

i wanna slide down the staircase railing! but the one at the entrance of BA is too tall i can't reach it. then one at the underpass is too steep, i'm afraid of it! imagine if i fall backwards. lol. hello sean, i need you to hold me! hope i'll see you when i wanna do those kind of stupid stuff cause only you'll hold me. :D

oh and we took some photos during itb lecture. :D








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