CONTRADICTIONS.

i wanna stay at home and rest, yet i wanna go shopping. cause all the time at home i keep thinking of shopping. i need a job. i need money. i need to shop. im going crazy. i want christmas to come soon cause life's been boring. i neeed something really interesting and exciting to happen. but it means the day of truth will be nearer. i wanna go out with my friends everyday. but again, i wanna save some money for shopping. i want chinese new year to come soon cause at least my pocket will have more money. but nooooooo, i dont want time to pass so soon. i still wanna enjoy my holidays. even if it means rotting at home, i dont mind. i still havent had enough of resting and getting bored. lol.

if i had a chance, i'd rather choose to be some character in fairytale. at least, most fairytales have happy endings. you can turn to the fairy godmother whenever things go wrong. what's more with a wave of the magic wand, whatever you wish for will appear. old & torn clothes could turn into some nice, glamorous gown. with just a kiss, an greenish, ugly frog could turn into some handsome prince. with just a poison apple, it's enough to kill some pretty and innocent girl. all you need to do is to look into some crystal ball and you will know the whereabouts of someone. okay, snap back to reality. i know it all doesn't happen :(

i'm falling even more in love with you,
letting go of all i've held on to.
i'm standing here until you make me move,
i'm hanging by a moment here with you.