okay, to sum up my chinese new year, its all about eating, gambling and going out. not really in the new year mood this year. and i suppose the financial crisis did affect the amount of money people put inside the angbaos. lol. this new year isn't a very happy one i thought. but at least i'm glad to have entered the course and school that i always wanted. magnum forceeeee! :D
okay, so today's my first day of work. 14 hrs shift. how awesome. reports reports reports and more reports. but in one way or another, its rather fun cause with just one click, we can shut down all the atm machines in singapore. k, its gonna be two soon. another report to do! and sean is being an idiot. he's complaining that he doesn't wanna ...
Saturday, January 31, 2009
Tuesday, January 27, 2009
LIFE IS AN ENiGMA.
its the disbelief that catches us and its the facts that sweep you off your feet. certain things are unbelievable and its hard to accept. i guess it takes time. time would turn and tell. it takes time to accept. it takes time to realise.
its absolutely absurd that i have to adhere to everything even up till now. i'm SEVENTEEN going EIGHTEEN. i know what i'm doing and i can make my own decisions. even if i made the wrong decision, i won't regret. since i chose this way, i'm willing to bear the consequences. and if i want it this way nobody's gonna stop me because i lead my life, you lead yours. i'm no longer a small kid. talk about respect. but ahhh, now that i'm living off them, i know i have no right in arguing. so i shall just keep quiet and keep my eyes wide open. okay, i shall bear in mind that to err is human and to forgive is divine.
People are often unreasonable, illogical and self-centered;
Forgive them anyway.
If you are kind, people may accuse you of selfish, ulterior motives;
Be kind anyway.
If you are successful, you will win some false friends and some genuine enemies;
Succeed anyway.
If you are honest and sincere, people may deceive you;
Be honest and sincere anyway.
What you spend years building, someone could destroy overnight;
Build anyway.
If you find serenity and happiness, some may be jealous;
Be happy anyway.
The good you do today, will often be forgotten tomorrow;
Do good anyway.
Give the world the best you have, and it may never be enough;
Give the world your best anyway.
Forgive them anyway.
If you are kind, people may accuse you of selfish, ulterior motives;
Be kind anyway.
If you are successful, you will win some false friends and some genuine enemies;
Succeed anyway.
If you are honest and sincere, people may deceive you;
Be honest and sincere anyway.
What you spend years building, someone could destroy overnight;
Build anyway.
If you find serenity and happiness, some may be jealous;
Be happy anyway.
The good you do today, will often be forgotten tomorrow;
Do good anyway.
Give the world the best you have, and it may never be enough;
Give the world your best anyway.
Monday, January 26, 2009
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i've got alot to blog about. but i guess not, cause i'm not in the mood. just typed a few chunks of words and i backspaced it.
Sunday, January 25, 2009
NEW YEAR'S EVE! :D
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DARLING! SEE! I ACTUALLY REMEMBER YOUR CHINESE BIRTHDAY! are you touched? :D
my com's being such a bitch for the whole day, i literally went crazy while waiting for a page to load. stupid internet stupid computer. i really desperately need a new one! yay! its chinese new year's eve already! which means! tomorrow will be the day to wear pretty dress, receive red packets, eat nice food and play mahjong!
oh! and tomorrow from 4 to 6 pm, remember to take a look at the moon! there's something you can see. i dont know what is it called, but i know there's something. lol.
okay! i wanna go and put on my pretty blue nails already! HAPPY NEW YEAR! :D MAY YOU HAVE MORE MONEY AFTER CHINESE NEW YEAR. :D
my com's being such a bitch for the whole day, i literally went crazy while waiting for a page to load. stupid internet stupid computer. i really desperately need a new one! yay! its chinese new year's eve already! which means! tomorrow will be the day to wear pretty dress, receive red packets, eat nice food and play mahjong!
oh! and tomorrow from 4 to 6 pm, remember to take a look at the moon! there's something you can see. i dont know what is it called, but i know there's something. lol.
okay! i wanna go and put on my pretty blue nails already! HAPPY NEW YEAR! :D MAY YOU HAVE MORE MONEY AFTER CHINESE NEW YEAR. :D
Saturday, January 24, 2009
INTOXICATED :D
cause i couldn't get to sleep last night, i went to look at stars! its so nice when the sky are all filled with stars. they're just like accessories which helps to accentuate the beauty of the sky. how nice. :D and stars blink, don't they? sean says they don't.
yay! although i didnt get my PINK SHOES, i've gotten a GREEN ONE. no not me, him. :D i love that milky green! i love that pair of shoes even more cause i know you went everywhere just to look for it. thanks darling. :D i promise i will wear it whenever possible, even to sleep okay! hahaha!
and today, he sent me a picture which make me smile all day but fill my head with lots of question marks. it looks like a heart, but it can't be just a heart. i know there's something more to it but he doesn't wanna tell me. nehmind, i shall wait.
my computer's being such an ass, i can't play maple. :(
yay! although i didnt get my PINK SHOES, i've gotten a GREEN ONE. no not me, him. :D i love that milky green! i love that pair of shoes even more cause i know you went everywhere just to look for it. thanks darling. :D i promise i will wear it whenever possible, even to sleep okay! hahaha!
and today, he sent me a picture which make me smile all day but fill my head with lots of question marks. it looks like a heart, but it can't be just a heart. i know there's something more to it but he doesn't wanna tell me. nehmind, i shall wait.
my computer's being such an ass, i can't play maple. :(
Friday, January 23, 2009
DILEMMA.
oh man. tell me what to do. :( mommy asked me to go overseas with them cause they'll be going to bali, taiwan and hongkong for a month or so. she says she doesn't feel safe leaving me alone at home. but i already agreed to work. what's more if i go, i wont be able to celebrate sean's birthday with him. valentine's day too. :( and its for three weeks or a month. sighhhhh. for the very first time i didnt feel like going overseas with them.
yes, 3 more days to chinese new year. :D finally i've gotten all that i wanted. but i haven't packed my room. last year's textbooks, files, magazines and all are still sitting on the shelves. i'm too lazy to move, let alone packing my room. maybe a new laptop and desktop will motivate me to do so. okay, i'm getting bored and moody, i shall get some sleeeeeeep.
so near yet so far.
Thursday, January 22, 2009
FINALLY HAD ENOUGH OF SHOPPING.
went out with ah mel today. its been seven months since we last went shopping, can you believe it? lol. yay! i bought my pretty AJ bag after hesitating for a night. nevermind, red packets are coming. :D and we found out that there's this shop in fareast it sells very very cute and unique accessories, i swear you wont see it anywhere in singapore. of course, we couldn't resist the temptations and we each bought something! today was damn tiring, my hands and legs are aching ever since i got on to the cab. i kind of regretted buying the dress today. ahhhh. there goes seventy. waste money. :( finally, i had enough of shopping.
but no, i'm still going out with karina tomorrow. oh man, i need to rest. i need to sleep. i need money. i'm desperate for a new laptop and desktop. i need a driving license and a car. oh fairygod mother, be so nice as to grant me all these and you'll be loved.
hello! i miss you but i know you dont!
but no, i'm still going out with karina tomorrow. oh man, i need to rest. i need to sleep. i need money. i'm desperate for a new laptop and desktop. i need a driving license and a car. oh fairygod mother, be so nice as to grant me all these and you'll be loved.
hello! i miss you but i know you dont!
Wednesday, January 21, 2009
MORE THAN CONTENTED :D
yay! went out for shopping today! :D ahhh. i'm so tempted to buy this AJ bag. but its two hundred bucks. and with sean constantly asking me to buy it, its definitely not helping me to save money at all. lol. the part which i hate most about shopping is, when i see something that i really really really like, its either no size or last piece. very irritating one you know. and it takes time for me to get over it. sheeeeeesh. and i love shopping with sean cause he carries everything. eh but no, that's not the main reason okay. :D i love spending time with him like this. BUT NO. SEAN PREFERS PLAYING MAPLE TO TALKING WITH ME ON THE PHONE. :(
i love thinking of you cause it makes me happy and makes me wanna fall all over in love with you again. :D
i love thinking of you cause it makes me happy and makes me wanna fall all over in love with you again. :D
YAYAYAYAYAYAY! :D
all of a sudden, i feel myself bubbling over with joy! i've no idea why, but its just it. though the song i'm listening to now its a lil sad, but i'm still very happy! :D ahahahah! yay! MAYBE ITS CAUSE I'M GOING SHOPPING TOMORROW! OR NO MAYBE I'M PMSING! SINCE I'M HAPPY, I SHALL TYPE IN CAPS! :D I HEARD JOY IS CONTAGIOUS, SINCE I'M TEXTING SEAN, I SEND MY JOY TO HIM THROUGH TEXTS THOUGH I KNOW HE'S TIRED ALREADY. AHHAHAH! AND I THINK HE'S FALLEN ASLEEP CAUSE HE ISN'T REPLYING TO MY TEXT.
I HATE THE LYRICS BUT I LOVE THE SONG.
I HATE THIS PART- PUSSYCAT DOLLS!
We’re driving slow through the snow on 5th Avenue
And right now radio’s all that we can hear
Now we ain’t talk since we left,
it’s so over do
It’s cold outside but between us…
The world slows down
But my heart beats fast right now
I know this is the part
Where the end starts
I can’t take it any longer
Thought that we were stronger
All we do is linger
Slipping through our fingers
I don’t wanna try now
All that’s left is good-bye
To find a way that I can tell you
I hate this part right here
I hate this part right here
I just can’t take your tears
I hate this part right here
Everyday, 7 takes of the same old scene
Seems we’re bound by the loss of the same routine
Gotta talk to you now before we go to sleep
But will you sleep once I tell you whats hurting me
The world slows down
But my heart beats fast right now
I know this is the part
Where the end starts
I can’t take it any longer
Thought that we were stronger
All we do is linger
Slipping through our fingers
I don’t wanna try now
All that’s left is good-bye
To find a way that I can tell you
I hate this part right here
I hate this part right here
I just can’t take your tears
I hate this part right here
I know you’ll ask me to hold on
And carry on like nothing’s wrong
But there is no more time for lies‘
Cause I see? in your eyes
I can’t take it any longer
Thought that we were stronger
All we do is linger
Slipping through our fingers
I don’t wanna try now
All that’s left is good-bye
To find a way that I can tell you
That I gotta do it,
I gotta do it,
I gotta do it
I hate this part
I gotta do it,
I gotta do it,
I gotta do it
I hate this part right here
And I just can’t take these tears
I hate this part right here
nice song but despressing lyrics. i was telling sean one day when we're not together i will listen to this song. meanwhile i will listen to love story. and yes, no more caps. cause maybe i'm not going out tomorrow again. sheeeeeeeeesh. see the power of the magic word 'shopping' in me? :(
I HATE THE LYRICS BUT I LOVE THE SONG.
I HATE THIS PART- PUSSYCAT DOLLS!
We’re driving slow through the snow on 5th Avenue
And right now radio’s all that we can hear
Now we ain’t talk since we left,
it’s so over do
It’s cold outside but between us…
The world slows down
But my heart beats fast right now
I know this is the part
Where the end starts
I can’t take it any longer
Thought that we were stronger
All we do is linger
Slipping through our fingers
I don’t wanna try now
All that’s left is good-bye
To find a way that I can tell you
I hate this part right here
I hate this part right here
I just can’t take your tears
I hate this part right here
Everyday, 7 takes of the same old scene
Seems we’re bound by the loss of the same routine
Gotta talk to you now before we go to sleep
But will you sleep once I tell you whats hurting me
The world slows down
But my heart beats fast right now
I know this is the part
Where the end starts
I can’t take it any longer
Thought that we were stronger
All we do is linger
Slipping through our fingers
I don’t wanna try now
All that’s left is good-bye
To find a way that I can tell you
I hate this part right here
I hate this part right here
I just can’t take your tears
I hate this part right here
I know you’ll ask me to hold on
And carry on like nothing’s wrong
But there is no more time for lies‘
Cause I see? in your eyes
I can’t take it any longer
Thought that we were stronger
All we do is linger
Slipping through our fingers
I don’t wanna try now
All that’s left is good-bye
To find a way that I can tell you
That I gotta do it,
I gotta do it,
I gotta do it
I hate this part
I gotta do it,
I gotta do it,
I gotta do it
I hate this part right here
And I just can’t take these tears
I hate this part right here
nice song but despressing lyrics. i was telling sean one day when we're not together i will listen to this song. meanwhile i will listen to love story. and yes, no more caps. cause maybe i'm not going out tomorrow again. sheeeeeeeeesh. see the power of the magic word 'shopping' in me? :(
YOUR SMILE FADES IN THE SUMMER.
supposed to go out shopping today, but no, sean fell sick. so we couldn't go. :( i was looking forward to it so much you know. cause its been a long time since we went out shopping in town. i realised i always say this. lol. and i thought i could get to eat nice food. ahhhh. but nevermind! hopefully, you'll get well tomorrow and we could go out! :D
i'm pretty sure by now everyone has their pretty clothes hanging in their wardrobe, and can't wait to put them on during chinese new year. but me! i haven't really gotten my clothes. i thought its still a long way to chinese new year, until today when i actually took a closer look at the calendar, i realised i was wrong. lol. its only like five more days. yay! i cannot wait to open those goodies which are stacked nicely inside the cupboard! :D
and darling, dont worry la. i'm not angry at you for not going out today. i know you're sick. so its okay. :D
i'm pretty sure by now everyone has their pretty clothes hanging in their wardrobe, and can't wait to put them on during chinese new year. but me! i haven't really gotten my clothes. i thought its still a long way to chinese new year, until today when i actually took a closer look at the calendar, i realised i was wrong. lol. its only like five more days. yay! i cannot wait to open those goodies which are stacked nicely inside the cupboard! :D
and darling, dont worry la. i'm not angry at you for not going out today. i know you're sick. so its okay. :D
Monday, January 19, 2009
SOCCER! :D
went over to sean's place in the morning. yay! finally had scramble eggs! i've been craving for it since the last time i ate it :D and since we had nothing to do, we end up talking about how we fell in love, how we were last time and et cetera. very stupid i know, but those were such sweet times. :D
after dinner we went to play soccer with his friends! hahha! i scored four goals! yay! :D and i know its sheer luck. lol. okay, all of a sudden, i'm motivated to play maple again.
Romeo save me, they're trying to tell me how to feel
This love is difficult, but it's real.
Don't be afraid, we'll make it out of this mess.
It's a love story, baby just say yes.
after dinner we went to play soccer with his friends! hahha! i scored four goals! yay! :D and i know its sheer luck. lol. okay, all of a sudden, i'm motivated to play maple again.
Romeo save me, they're trying to tell me how to feel
This love is difficult, but it's real.
Don't be afraid, we'll make it out of this mess.
It's a love story, baby just say yes.
Sunday, January 18, 2009
YAY! NEW WALLET! :D
yay! somebody called me in the afternoon and said he bought a wallet for me! :D the thought of having a new wallet makes me happy the whole day. can you believe it? i'm actually such a easily contented person. lol.
and because i'm happy, i decided not to be lazy and upload the photos. only seven actually. lol. most of it are still with mehnieeeee. she hasnt post it up so i dont have it. mehnieeeee mehnieeeee! hurry hurry! :D
I'LL BE WAITING. :D
i think i really need to exercise more. my muscles are aching once again. the aftermath of running around in heels. and its been really long since i last ran that much. lol.
oh i forgot to add something! last night when everyone was busy talking, i was busing looking at the stars! the sky was damn pretty again. it was filled with gazillion sparkling, bling bling and shimmering stars! :D okay, there're photos to upload but laziness has taken its toll so some other day.
i literally rot my day away, spending 14 hours mapling. what a fruitful day i must say. okay, i need my sleep now.
and if i open my heart to you
i'm hoping you'll show me what to do
and if you help me to start again
you know that i'll be there for you in the end.
oh i forgot to add something! last night when everyone was busy talking, i was busing looking at the stars! the sky was damn pretty again. it was filled with gazillion sparkling, bling bling and shimmering stars! :D okay, there're photos to upload but laziness has taken its toll so some other day.
i literally rot my day away, spending 14 hours mapling. what a fruitful day i must say. okay, i need my sleep now.
and if i open my heart to you
i'm hoping you'll show me what to do
and if you help me to start again
you know that i'll be there for you in the end.
Saturday, January 17, 2009
MELANIE'S EIGHTEEN! :D
yay! mehnie's eighteen already! dont you feel old? :D went to her birthday party just now, hhahah it was damn fun! we actually played ice and water at the playground. how childish i know. but you wont know how fun it is unless you try it yourself! lol. then we played werewolf. we were laughing so hard at how stupid each other was. how hard we tried to act innocent. and yes, how retarded i was to say out fion's name.
and mehnie, i know you read this, hope you like your present k! no, you better like it cause i chose it! i know after opening the present you'll realise you're falling in love with me! hahha! anyway! HAPPY BIRTHDAY! :D
and yes, i've gotten a job! yay! money money money is on their way to my pocket! :D but the hours are very long. 14 hours. and the thing is! sean will be working on valentine's day! which happen to be on his birthday too. oh man! ah but nevermind, hopefully alvin or justin can take your place. :D
now, at 3.26 am, i actually miss the food i had for lunch with puay joo. the food are awesome. the desserts are very very very nice.
i love you, you love me,
we're happy family
with a great big hug and a kiss from me to you
wont you say you love me too!
and mehnie, i know you read this, hope you like your present k! no, you better like it cause i chose it! i know after opening the present you'll realise you're falling in love with me! hahha! anyway! HAPPY BIRTHDAY! :D
and yes, i've gotten a job! yay! money money money is on their way to my pocket! :D but the hours are very long. 14 hours. and the thing is! sean will be working on valentine's day! which happen to be on his birthday too. oh man! ah but nevermind, hopefully alvin or justin can take your place. :D
now, at 3.26 am, i actually miss the food i had for lunch with puay joo. the food are awesome. the desserts are very very very nice.
i love you, you love me,
we're happy family
with a great big hug and a kiss from me to you
wont you say you love me too!
Thursday, January 15, 2009
WHAT A QUIZ.
So do you have a favorite M&M?
yes, the blue ones cause its crispy in the centre! :D
Is it easy to make you cry?
ahaha! good question, i'm a cry baby.
What was the last song you listened to?
Love story - Taylor swift. its a nice and sweet song!
Do you hear anything right now?
yes, the sound of my keyboard cause i'm typing. lol
Have you ever shot a gun?
haven't tried before. didnt have the thought of trying it though.
What's your favorite store?
hmm! too many to mention i guess. :D
Do you believe in love?
er, yes. cause i'm in love now.
What is the first feature you notice on people?
eyes and teeth!
How many times have you gone to the bathroom today?
no idea. i dont count. nobody does that i suppose.
When was the last time you cried? Why?
two days ago! cause sean made me sad! :D
What's your natural hair color?
dark brown!
Who's your favorite football team?
erm, liverpool or man u
Do you have any tattoos? Want any?
not at the moment. i always wanted a small butterfly on my hip. but.. i guess not.
Name one bad habit you have.
cultivating weird sleeping habits.
How many best friends do you have?
hmm, best friends. i'm not gonna answer. :D
What was the last thing you bought?
earrings for sean!
What kind of car is your favorite?
two door car i suppose :D
What are you wearing?
tee shirt, fbt shorts, bra and panty. :D what a question.
Have you ever snuck out?
eh, nope. i'm a good girl.
Do you like your house?
i guess so. :D
When did your most embarrassing moment occur?
no idea. cannot remember it cause i dont want to. :D
What's one movie you really want to see?
MAMMA MIA! PONYO PONYO! :D
What's the last movie you did see?
Six pounds!
Who'd you watch it with?
my darling sean. :D
How often do you text?
it depends you see.
What's something you want right now?
Agnes B wallet. :D but on the second thought, i wanna have food cause i'm hungry now.
What's one word/phrase you say way too often?
retarded? what the hell?
Are you single?
not for now. lol.
Do you prefer pens or pencils?
pens! colourful pens! it light up my life! :D
Know anyone pregnant?
nope.
When was the last time you sung out loud?
a millisecond ago. lol.
Who knows you best?
sean? puay joo? karina? no idea actually. you should ask them.
Are you forgiving?
at times i will, after convincing myself.
What's your favorite band?
errrr, no idea.
What's your favorite sport?
shopping. :D
What was the last book you read?
i cant remember. i think its one of the shopaholiccs series.
Do you use smilies a lot?
yes yes yes, i do. :D :D
Where are your parents right now?
look at the time, obviously they're in their dreamland.
When did you go to sleep last night?
three plus four.
How is your life right now?
more than satisfying. can be better i hope. :D
Name the one thing you're most thankful for.
recently should be my o level results. thank god. :D
Have you ever broken the law? What'd you do?
not at the moment.
Can you speak more than one language?
i suppose so. :D
Last, if you could have any superpower, which one would it be?
hmm, to have brains that can store almost everything. everyone wants that, isnt it? :D
yes, the blue ones cause its crispy in the centre! :D
Is it easy to make you cry?
ahaha! good question, i'm a cry baby.
What was the last song you listened to?
Love story - Taylor swift. its a nice and sweet song!
Do you hear anything right now?
yes, the sound of my keyboard cause i'm typing. lol
Have you ever shot a gun?
haven't tried before. didnt have the thought of trying it though.
What's your favorite store?
hmm! too many to mention i guess. :D
Do you believe in love?
er, yes. cause i'm in love now.
What is the first feature you notice on people?
eyes and teeth!
How many times have you gone to the bathroom today?
no idea. i dont count. nobody does that i suppose.
When was the last time you cried? Why?
two days ago! cause sean made me sad! :D
What's your natural hair color?
dark brown!
Who's your favorite football team?
erm, liverpool or man u
Do you have any tattoos? Want any?
not at the moment. i always wanted a small butterfly on my hip. but.. i guess not.
Name one bad habit you have.
cultivating weird sleeping habits.
How many best friends do you have?
hmm, best friends. i'm not gonna answer. :D
What was the last thing you bought?
earrings for sean!
What kind of car is your favorite?
two door car i suppose :D
What are you wearing?
tee shirt, fbt shorts, bra and panty. :D what a question.
Have you ever snuck out?
eh, nope. i'm a good girl.
Do you like your house?
i guess so. :D
When did your most embarrassing moment occur?
no idea. cannot remember it cause i dont want to. :D
What's one movie you really want to see?
MAMMA MIA! PONYO PONYO! :D
What's the last movie you did see?
Six pounds!
Who'd you watch it with?
my darling sean. :D
How often do you text?
it depends you see.
What's something you want right now?
Agnes B wallet. :D but on the second thought, i wanna have food cause i'm hungry now.
What's one word/phrase you say way too often?
retarded? what the hell?
Are you single?
not for now. lol.
Do you prefer pens or pencils?
pens! colourful pens! it light up my life! :D
Know anyone pregnant?
nope.
When was the last time you sung out loud?
a millisecond ago. lol.
Who knows you best?
sean? puay joo? karina? no idea actually. you should ask them.
Are you forgiving?
at times i will, after convincing myself.
What's your favorite band?
errrr, no idea.
What's your favorite sport?
shopping. :D
What was the last book you read?
i cant remember. i think its one of the shopaholiccs series.
Do you use smilies a lot?
yes yes yes, i do. :D :D
Where are your parents right now?
look at the time, obviously they're in their dreamland.
When did you go to sleep last night?
three plus four.
How is your life right now?
more than satisfying. can be better i hope. :D
Name the one thing you're most thankful for.
recently should be my o level results. thank god. :D
Have you ever broken the law? What'd you do?
not at the moment.
Can you speak more than one language?
i suppose so. :D
Last, if you could have any superpower, which one would it be?
hmm, to have brains that can store almost everything. everyone wants that, isnt it? :D
Wednesday, January 14, 2009
I ADDED COLOURS TO MY LIFE :D
yay! i highlighted my hair today! after seventeen years, i finally did it. i added colours to my life! how wonderful. :D had lunch with puay joo then went over to sean's place to pass him things. and finally met up with cheryl in the evening.
from the moment we saw each other we couldn't stop being retarded and kept laughing all the way. woah. its been the longest time since we last did that. thereafter we decided to buy a tub of ice cream to kill our cravings. i then recalled when we first met, whenever we saw each other, we will start playing and laughing like some retards. i miss those times when we were in sec three. then we actually sat down and talked for three hours, so much so that i skipped my dinner. remember, if my stomach decides to scream for food at midnight, you'll have to get it for me. :D i'll be waiting for the day when you get your license and you said you'd drive me around! with your two door car okay! hahahaa.
belatedly, i know how does it feels to be happy again. i actually felt the joy in me when i was laughing. it feels oh so familiar, like how i was in the past. without those anger, tears and disappointment. it feels nice to be alright with him again. although it was just for a while, i'm more than contented. i wish i could stay lost in that moment. i just hope that everything will fall in place soon. and i wouldn't wanna trade anything for any moment like this.
Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know you're unlike any other?
You'll always be my thunder, and i said
Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors
I don't wanna ever love another
from the moment we saw each other we couldn't stop being retarded and kept laughing all the way. woah. its been the longest time since we last did that. thereafter we decided to buy a tub of ice cream to kill our cravings. i then recalled when we first met, whenever we saw each other, we will start playing and laughing like some retards. i miss those times when we were in sec three. then we actually sat down and talked for three hours, so much so that i skipped my dinner. remember, if my stomach decides to scream for food at midnight, you'll have to get it for me. :D i'll be waiting for the day when you get your license and you said you'd drive me around! with your two door car okay! hahahaa.
belatedly, i know how does it feels to be happy again. i actually felt the joy in me when i was laughing. it feels oh so familiar, like how i was in the past. without those anger, tears and disappointment. it feels nice to be alright with him again. although it was just for a while, i'm more than contented. i wish i could stay lost in that moment. i just hope that everything will fall in place soon. and i wouldn't wanna trade anything for any moment like this.
Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know you're unlike any other?
You'll always be my thunder, and i said
Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors
I don't wanna ever love another
Tuesday, January 13, 2009
FOR YOU.
i closed my eyes and the flashback started..
'whats yours is yours' in the past whenever i hear this, i'll think its bullshit. i'm too afraid of losing, i dont wanna let go of something thats ever so precious to me. and i always believe you have to go after what you really want. determination is the key. but after a while, i began to think this phrase makes much sense. cause if its not fated to be yours, no matter how much effort you put it, how hard you try, your effort will just go down the drain. the harder you try, the harder you fall. you'll end up having nothing, but sheer disappointment and tears. i finally understood this.
i know both of us aren't happy now. or maybe its just me. it just feels like a million knives stabbing my heart. sounds dramatic i know, but do you actually know what it feels. i hate the feeling each time i cry cause it takes time to get over it. i just wish i could be like those kids we saw in the evening. they seemed so carefree, happily running around, playing at the playground. they can be happy over the smallest stuff. and when they're unhappy, its over some kiddish stuff. like no toys, sweets or whatever. no hidden feelings within. when they're happy, they're really happy. even though now we're texting, it just seems like we're replying for the sake of it.
sometimes, i really really wanna give up. i'm tired of crying, being angry, getting upset over the smallest and the most insignificant things on earth. i know you felt like this too. not once i know. as much as you're sick of hearing this, i'm sick of saying it. i'm tired of always complaining to you about you not spending more time with me. cause all that you're showing me are that, games, soccer and friends are more than enough to make you whole. like what you've told me previously.' no matter how much sweet stuff you've done, how nice you are, but just as long as you've done something wrong, it erases everything.' and so whenever i'm angry with you, i'll always try to think of all the nice and sweet stuff you've done for me. how much patience you have during the long courtship. seven months. how you took care of me when i'm sick. how you used to rub my tummy for me whenever im having cramps. how you always used to buy food for me whenever i say i'm hungry, even if its late in the night. how you used to carry my bags and stuff for me whenever we're out, be it shopping or just for meals. how you always give in to me although i know i was being unreasonable, throwing tantrum over small stuff. how you always stand by me and of course, there are many more, too much to be pen down. i really appreciate all these little actions of yours. all these made me fall deeper in love with you. maybe you dont know, but this is how i feel.
i trust you more than you thought i would. i'm okay with you talking and going out with other girls. i won't get jealous unless its really extreme. i know that you want your personal space. you wanna have your own friends. go ahead, im not stopping you. just as long as you let me know. and that you still have me in your heart, i'm perfectly fine with it. if you fall in love with other girls, it just tells me what kind of person you are. obviously, i would be unhappy when i tell you everything yet you don't. you know i tell you everything, i cant and wont keep any secrets from you. i dont want you to be just a boyfriend. but more like my bestfriend. somebody whom i can talk to, whom i can tell anything to. though i know somethings are better left unsaid, i still wanna say cause i dont wanna hide anything from you.
there're so much more to say. but no, i need to stop typing and crying. tonight seems cold and lonely. everyone's asleep. there's no one to talk to. ahh, okay now i sound like some emo kid. -.- i'm not okay. i will be happy soon. i just need to cry and i will get over it.
you might not feel the same anymore, but just to let you know. i still love you as much.
'whats yours is yours' in the past whenever i hear this, i'll think its bullshit. i'm too afraid of losing, i dont wanna let go of something thats ever so precious to me. and i always believe you have to go after what you really want. determination is the key. but after a while, i began to think this phrase makes much sense. cause if its not fated to be yours, no matter how much effort you put it, how hard you try, your effort will just go down the drain. the harder you try, the harder you fall. you'll end up having nothing, but sheer disappointment and tears. i finally understood this.
i know both of us aren't happy now. or maybe its just me. it just feels like a million knives stabbing my heart. sounds dramatic i know, but do you actually know what it feels. i hate the feeling each time i cry cause it takes time to get over it. i just wish i could be like those kids we saw in the evening. they seemed so carefree, happily running around, playing at the playground. they can be happy over the smallest stuff. and when they're unhappy, its over some kiddish stuff. like no toys, sweets or whatever. no hidden feelings within. when they're happy, they're really happy. even though now we're texting, it just seems like we're replying for the sake of it.
sometimes, i really really wanna give up. i'm tired of crying, being angry, getting upset over the smallest and the most insignificant things on earth. i know you felt like this too. not once i know. as much as you're sick of hearing this, i'm sick of saying it. i'm tired of always complaining to you about you not spending more time with me. cause all that you're showing me are that, games, soccer and friends are more than enough to make you whole. like what you've told me previously.' no matter how much sweet stuff you've done, how nice you are, but just as long as you've done something wrong, it erases everything.' and so whenever i'm angry with you, i'll always try to think of all the nice and sweet stuff you've done for me. how much patience you have during the long courtship. seven months. how you took care of me when i'm sick. how you used to rub my tummy for me whenever im having cramps. how you always used to buy food for me whenever i say i'm hungry, even if its late in the night. how you used to carry my bags and stuff for me whenever we're out, be it shopping or just for meals. how you always give in to me although i know i was being unreasonable, throwing tantrum over small stuff. how you always stand by me and of course, there are many more, too much to be pen down. i really appreciate all these little actions of yours. all these made me fall deeper in love with you. maybe you dont know, but this is how i feel.
i trust you more than you thought i would. i'm okay with you talking and going out with other girls. i won't get jealous unless its really extreme. i know that you want your personal space. you wanna have your own friends. go ahead, im not stopping you. just as long as you let me know. and that you still have me in your heart, i'm perfectly fine with it. if you fall in love with other girls, it just tells me what kind of person you are. obviously, i would be unhappy when i tell you everything yet you don't. you know i tell you everything, i cant and wont keep any secrets from you. i dont want you to be just a boyfriend. but more like my bestfriend. somebody whom i can talk to, whom i can tell anything to. though i know somethings are better left unsaid, i still wanna say cause i dont wanna hide anything from you.
there're so much more to say. but no, i need to stop typing and crying. tonight seems cold and lonely. everyone's asleep. there's no one to talk to. ahh, okay now i sound like some emo kid. -.- i'm not okay. i will be happy soon. i just need to cry and i will get over it.
you might not feel the same anymore, but just to let you know. i still love you as much.
PERFECT TEN :D
yay! finally i can blog. :D today was such a nerve wracking day. irritating. i was already panicking the day before. okay, i know everyone was. when i reached school, i got more kanchiong and have to jump around to make me feel better. -.- results were okay but i was rather disappointed with my combined humanities. i expected a distinction but i got b3. i know i deserve it cause i only studied northern ireland and sri lanka. good job right. lol. ah, just hopefully i can go into the course i want.
and after so many months, I FINALLY FINALLY HAD LUNCH WITH MEHNIE. today feels like any of the school days. cause we were having lunch with our school uniform on. it feels like home. surprisingly after so long, we still got so much to talk about. almost everything under the sun! i miss mehnie so much so much so much. shopping and eating, especially. buy our new year clothes soon okay. :D yay! i cant wait to see you on your birthday! so old. eighteen. hahha.
we used to have so much to talk about, but no, not after we started mapling. i hate being ignored. i hate it.
Romeo, take me somewhere we can be alone.
I'll be waiting, all there's left to do is run.
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess
It's a love story, baby just say yes.
and after so many months, I FINALLY FINALLY HAD LUNCH WITH MEHNIE. today feels like any of the school days. cause we were having lunch with our school uniform on. it feels like home. surprisingly after so long, we still got so much to talk about. almost everything under the sun! i miss mehnie so much so much so much. shopping and eating, especially. buy our new year clothes soon okay. :D yay! i cant wait to see you on your birthday! so old. eighteen. hahha.
we used to have so much to talk about, but no, not after we started mapling. i hate being ignored. i hate it.
Romeo, take me somewhere we can be alone.
I'll be waiting, all there's left to do is run.
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess
It's a love story, baby just say yes.
Friday, January 9, 2009
MAPLE MAKES ME TIRED.
Glen Medeiros - nothing's gonna change my love for you
If I had to live my life without you near me
The days would all be empty
The nights would seem so long
With you I see forever oh so clearly
I might have been in love before
But it never felt this strong
Our dreams are young and we both know
They'll take us where we want to go
Hold me now, touch me now
I don't want to live without you
Nothing's gonna change my love for you
You ought to know by now how much I love you
One thing you can be sure of
I'll never ask for more than your love
Nothing's gonna change my love for you
You ought to know by now how much I love you
The world may change my whole life through
But nothing's gonna change my love for you
If the road ahead is not so easy
Our love will lead a way for us
Like a guiding star
I'll be there for you if you should need me
You don't have to change a thing
I love you just the way you are
So come with me and share the view
I'll help you see forever too
Hold me now, touch me now
I don't want to live without you
i'm really really really tired, physically. mapling makes me tired even though i sit in front of the computer all day long and the only thing that is moving are my fingers. lol.
If I had to live my life without you near me
The days would all be empty
The nights would seem so long
With you I see forever oh so clearly
I might have been in love before
But it never felt this strong
Our dreams are young and we both know
They'll take us where we want to go
Hold me now, touch me now
I don't want to live without you
Nothing's gonna change my love for you
You ought to know by now how much I love you
One thing you can be sure of
I'll never ask for more than your love
Nothing's gonna change my love for you
You ought to know by now how much I love you
The world may change my whole life through
But nothing's gonna change my love for you
If the road ahead is not so easy
Our love will lead a way for us
Like a guiding star
I'll be there for you if you should need me
You don't have to change a thing
I love you just the way you are
So come with me and share the view
I'll help you see forever too
Hold me now, touch me now
I don't want to live without you
i'm really really really tired, physically. mapling makes me tired even though i sit in front of the computer all day long and the only thing that is moving are my fingers. lol.
Thursday, January 8, 2009
I'M A LITTLE TEAPOT :D
i hate hate hate hate hate denigratory comments. sheesh, all the irritating people. no, person. if you happen to be one then dont dont dont dont read my blog okay. -.-
yay, i'm finally back to normal. i'm feeling as happy and bouncy as ever. :D watched seven pounds in the evening. the movie is kind of boring. cause at the end of it, you will hear people rambling about how boring it is. lol. but again, its quite touching, that's to what i think.
listen to this nursery song, its damn cute and i cannot stop singing when i was outside. i'm a little teapot, short and stout. here is my handle, here is my spout. when i get all steamed up, hear me shout. tip me over and pour me out! okay, retarded i know. :D
woohoo! four more days. just four more. 96 hours, 5760 minutes, 345600 seconds to go! i'm actually that bored i went to do the calculation. lol. ahhh, hopefully, i'll do well. i dont wanna think of other courses other than banking and finance.
Somedays I feel broke inside but I won't admit
Sometimes I just want to hide, cause it's you I miss
And it's so hard to say goodbye when it comes to this.
yay, i'm finally back to normal. i'm feeling as happy and bouncy as ever. :D watched seven pounds in the evening. the movie is kind of boring. cause at the end of it, you will hear people rambling about how boring it is. lol. but again, its quite touching, that's to what i think.
listen to this nursery song, its damn cute and i cannot stop singing when i was outside. i'm a little teapot, short and stout. here is my handle, here is my spout. when i get all steamed up, hear me shout. tip me over and pour me out! okay, retarded i know. :D
woohoo! four more days. just four more. 96 hours, 5760 minutes, 345600 seconds to go! i'm actually that bored i went to do the calculation. lol. ahhh, hopefully, i'll do well. i dont wanna think of other courses other than banking and finance.
Somedays I feel broke inside but I won't admit
Sometimes I just want to hide, cause it's you I miss
And it's so hard to say goodbye when it comes to this.
Wednesday, January 7, 2009
HELLO I THINK I'M BORED.
apparently, ms suhaila called me in the afternoon and tried to be funny. she asked why am i not in school to collect results. everybody's there except me. well done. lol. i actually believed it for a second and burst out laughing. so irritating. lol. its on the 12th anyway. 5 more days.
everyone's busy. :( everybody in the family is at orchard, leaving me all alone at home. and finally they're back, both hands full of stuff from ax, raoul, boss and burberry. and i've got none. they got all the expensive stuff. :( how awesome. that's so much for reaching home early. ugh irritating people. but nevermind nevermind! i'm not jealous! cause i'm going shopping soon. :D i will shop till i drop. i will buy everything in the shopping mall, be it necessary or not. its just to kill my want. yes, i always say soon, but. ahhhh. i'm just trying to comfort myself. lol.
okay, i'm gonna be happy and play my game! :D
everyone's busy. :( everybody in the family is at orchard, leaving me all alone at home. and finally they're back, both hands full of stuff from ax, raoul, boss and burberry. and i've got none. they got all the expensive stuff. :( how awesome. that's so much for reaching home early. ugh irritating people. but nevermind nevermind! i'm not jealous! cause i'm going shopping soon. :D i will shop till i drop. i will buy everything in the shopping mall, be it necessary or not. its just to kill my want. yes, i always say soon, but. ahhhh. i'm just trying to comfort myself. lol.
okay, i'm gonna be happy and play my game! :D
Tuesday, January 6, 2009
HELLO MAPLE :D
and cause i was that bored at home, i decided to play maple again. it kills time much faster and keeps me occupied. okay, my life isn't that eventful so i've got nothing much to blog about.
maybe i should really widen my vision and my choices so as to choose what's best for me. and yes, i will do it. cause now i realised its rather useless to cling onto something that's not that worthy. thank god, i finally understood this. and please dont lie to me cause i'm not that magnanimous to forgive.
maybe i should really widen my vision and my choices so as to choose what's best for me. and yes, i will do it. cause now i realised its rather useless to cling onto something that's not that worthy. thank god, i finally understood this. and please dont lie to me cause i'm not that magnanimous to forgive.
Monday, January 5, 2009
FRIENDS FRIENDS FRIENDS :D
okay, i dont know why i keep blogging. perhaps i'm really bored and i've got lots of things to say. lol. was talking to josephine just now. ahhhhhh i miss her so much. we used to be so close, go home together after school, go for lunch, meet randomly for dinner and shopping. we used to go to siglap for pizza hut and eat until we couldnt even stand up. talk about our boyfriends. how irritating they are and how they always make us angry. and yet, i actually havent seen her for more than two months. same for mehniee.
i miss the four of us going out together for shopping, eating, bitching, laughing, doing stupid things and taking photos. :( we even had a ring each. and the words we engraved are ' so fucking awesome'. lol. abit crude i know. i felt as if i've lost alot of things last year but i just couldn't fathom what is it. and now, i know its the happy times that i spent together with my friends. how sad right. lol.
okay, i wanted to upload more photos but its inside my phone so forget it.
this is edited by mehnieee! two years ago i think. lol.
i miss the four of us going out together for shopping, eating, bitching, laughing, doing stupid things and taking photos. :( we even had a ring each. and the words we engraved are ' so fucking awesome'. lol. abit crude i know. i felt as if i've lost alot of things last year but i just couldn't fathom what is it. and now, i know its the happy times that i spent together with my friends. how sad right. lol.
okay, i wanted to upload more photos but its inside my phone so forget it.
this is edited by mehnieee! two years ago i think. lol.
ONE MORE MOMENT
oh man. today's already the 5th. people seems to be counting down to chinese new year, but i'm counting down to the day of truth. i can imagine the fear and anxiousness in me the day before the release of the results. kicking, tossing and turning in bed cause i'm too kanchiong and scare about my results. the building up of tension when i'm sitting in the hall, especially when the results are flashed on the screen and finally the collection of the result slip. lol.
henry henry can you call soon! like now! ughhhhhhh. i need to kill time and have some monehhh. :D maybe i should take up salsa or latin soon. i'm getting very lazy. i need to move.
all of a sudden, i got awakened and realised i'm not afraid of losing anymore.
And the words that seem so hard so say,
come out when you've gone away.
just stay a little while and hear me say,
that I want you here tonight and
I need you by my side.
for just one more moment,
for just one more moment with you.
henry henry can you call soon! like now! ughhhhhhh. i need to kill time and have some monehhh. :D maybe i should take up salsa or latin soon. i'm getting very lazy. i need to move.
all of a sudden, i got awakened and realised i'm not afraid of losing anymore.
And the words that seem so hard so say,
come out when you've gone away.
just stay a little while and hear me say,
that I want you here tonight and
I need you by my side.
for just one more moment,
for just one more moment with you.
Sunday, January 4, 2009
MONEY MONEY MONEY! :D
yay! i've gotten my scholarship. half a thousand. :D sounds like alot right? but nooooo, five hundred bucks is way too little for shopping. if you've been shopping with me before, you'll know that its not enough. lol. and ahhh, mehnie's birthday is coming. she asked me to buy her an expensive gift. lol. this reminded me of last year, mehnie was the first to turn seventeen in the class and we bought her a cake! and we had dinner at cafe cartel! :D time seems to travel in the speed of light and the key word is unknowingly.
today, just now, was scary. i actually black out for a few seconds due to i dont know what reason. after seventeen years, i finally know how it feels. lol. and i think i deserve to go shopping right? everyone's so kanchiong buying new year clothes but i still dont feel the want to shop for new year clothes, instead i wanna buy more clothes for poly. i dont wanna be wearing the same old tees, skirts, dresses and shorts for that twelve months. no, correction, 36 months. i can't wait for mommy to give me more money for shopping! i think i should request for a credit card when i'm eighteen since i'm such an impulsive buyer. go ahead and say that i'm spoilt or whatnot, but i just love the way i am. :D
The sky has lost it's color,
The sun has turned to grey
At least that's how it feels to me
Whenever you're away.
today, just now, was scary. i actually black out for a few seconds due to i dont know what reason. after seventeen years, i finally know how it feels. lol. and i think i deserve to go shopping right? everyone's so kanchiong buying new year clothes but i still dont feel the want to shop for new year clothes, instead i wanna buy more clothes for poly. i dont wanna be wearing the same old tees, skirts, dresses and shorts for that twelve months. no, correction, 36 months. i can't wait for mommy to give me more money for shopping! i think i should request for a credit card when i'm eighteen since i'm such an impulsive buyer. go ahead and say that i'm spoilt or whatnot, but i just love the way i am. :D
The sky has lost it's color,
The sun has turned to grey
At least that's how it feels to me
Whenever you're away.
INSIDE OUT.
Beyonce Knowles- if i were a boy
if i were a boy, even just for a day
i'd roll outta bed in the morning
and throw on what i wanted and go
drink beer with the guys
and chase after girls
i'd kick it with who i wanted
and i'd never get confronted for it
cause they'd stick up for me.
if i were a boy, i think i could understand
how it feels to love a girl
i swear i'd be a better man
i'd listen to her cause i know how it hurts
when you lose the one you wanted
cause he's taken you for granted
and everything you had got destroyed.
if i were a boy
i would turn off my phone
tell everyone its broken
so they'd think that i was sleeping alone
i'd put myself first and make the rules as i go
cause i know that she'd be faithful,
waiting for me to come home
to come home.
if i were a boy, i think i could understand
how it feels to love a girl
i swear i'd be a better man
i'd listen to her cause i know how it hurts
when you lose the one you wanted
cause he's taken you for granted
and everything you had got destroyed.
it's a little too late for you to come back
say its just a mistake, think i'd forget you like that
if you thought i would wait for you,
you thought wrong.
but you're just a boy
you dont understand,
yeah you dont understand
how it feels to love a girl someday
you wish you were a better man
you dont listen to her
you dont care how it hurts
until you lose the one you wanted
cause you've taken her for granted
and everything you had got destroyed.
i feel like going out now. i wanna go shopping alone. i dont wanna see anybody except myself. i'm becoming autistic. :D
if i were a boy, even just for a day
i'd roll outta bed in the morning
and throw on what i wanted and go
drink beer with the guys
and chase after girls
i'd kick it with who i wanted
and i'd never get confronted for it
cause they'd stick up for me.
if i were a boy, i think i could understand
how it feels to love a girl
i swear i'd be a better man
i'd listen to her cause i know how it hurts
when you lose the one you wanted
cause he's taken you for granted
and everything you had got destroyed.
if i were a boy
i would turn off my phone
tell everyone its broken
so they'd think that i was sleeping alone
i'd put myself first and make the rules as i go
cause i know that she'd be faithful,
waiting for me to come home
to come home.
if i were a boy, i think i could understand
how it feels to love a girl
i swear i'd be a better man
i'd listen to her cause i know how it hurts
when you lose the one you wanted
cause he's taken you for granted
and everything you had got destroyed.
it's a little too late for you to come back
say its just a mistake, think i'd forget you like that
if you thought i would wait for you,
you thought wrong.
but you're just a boy
you dont understand,
yeah you dont understand
how it feels to love a girl someday
you wish you were a better man
you dont listen to her
you dont care how it hurts
until you lose the one you wanted
cause you've taken her for granted
and everything you had got destroyed.
i feel like going out now. i wanna go shopping alone. i dont wanna see anybody except myself. i'm becoming autistic. :D
YOU'RE ALL I EVER WANTED :D
i think i've changed, i'm not like that in the past. i don't get angry as often. i actually forgot how it feels to be angry or sad for four years. since i cannot sleep and i'm not exactly happy or angry, i shall think about something nice that will make me happy. cause i wanna go to bed being a happy person.
happy things! you can choose not to see though. :D
pink long purse from agnes B!
Coach pouch!
Gucci bag!
Polaroid camera! cause the photos are print instantly and the camera is very cuteeeee!
Seductive red Sony camera!
okay, that's all for now. i'm an easily contented person. :D and now i can go to bed! cause i'm happy already! but now, i feel bad. if you're reading this, i'm sorry.
happy things! you can choose not to see though. :D
pink long purse from agnes B!
Coach pouch!
Gucci bag!
Polaroid camera! cause the photos are print instantly and the camera is very cuteeeee!
Seductive red Sony camera!
okay, that's all for now. i'm an easily contented person. :D and now i can go to bed! cause i'm happy already! but now, i feel bad. if you're reading this, i'm sorry.
Saturday, January 3, 2009
MY FINGERTIPS ARE HOLDING ON TO THE CRACKS OF OUR FOUNDATION.
today is a pretty fruitful day. planned to go out today but i've done what i'm suppose to do in the late January. and i got it done within a day. ahhh. so proud of myself. and my bestfriend, of course. had fun laughing and talking about everything under the sun although its only been a week since we last met. :D
' if you give your hundred percent in a relationship, you won't regret even though it doesn't last.' i guess it's true. it sometimes sets me wondering why do i even bother to do that extra bit and go that extra mile. it brings nothing but tears and anger. the outcome is always the exact opposite of what i thought it would be. nobody appreciates it. i hate not being appreciated. time after time, this just proved that all that aren't necessary. finally, i'm convinced. and maybe i shouldn't have much expectations. cause with expectations, it brings disappointment and exasperation.
I'd take another chance, take a fall, take a shot for you
I need you like a heart needs a beat, it's nothing new
I loved you with a fire red now it's turning blue
' if you give your hundred percent in a relationship, you won't regret even though it doesn't last.' i guess it's true. it sometimes sets me wondering why do i even bother to do that extra bit and go that extra mile. it brings nothing but tears and anger. the outcome is always the exact opposite of what i thought it would be. nobody appreciates it. i hate not being appreciated. time after time, this just proved that all that aren't necessary. finally, i'm convinced. and maybe i shouldn't have much expectations. cause with expectations, it brings disappointment and exasperation.
I'd take another chance, take a fall, take a shot for you
I need you like a heart needs a beat, it's nothing new
I loved you with a fire red now it's turning blue
Friday, January 2, 2009
THE ROSE. :D
been watching little nonya on youtube to kill time. when is henry gonna call? its been more than a week already. hopefully my phone will ring tomorrow! :D today's already the 2nd. that means results will be out real soon. i'm dreading it. okay, more like im afraid. i know i'm abit pessimistic. somehow got influenced by puay joo. she said its always better to think of the bad side first. lol. yay! and my 500 is coming on sunday. shopping time, at last. :D
westlife - the rose
some say love it is a river
that drowns the tender reed
some say love it is a razor
that leaves your soul to bleed
some say love it is a hunger
an endless aching needed
i say love it is a flower
and you is only seed
it's the heart afraid of breaking,
that never learns to dance
it's the dream afraid of waking,
that never takes the chance
it's the one who wont be taken
who cannot seem to give
and the soul afraid of dying
that never learns to live
when the night has been too lonely
and the road has been too long
and you think that love is only
for the lucky and the strong
just remember in the winter
far beneath the bitter snow
lies the seed that with the sun's love
in the spring, becomes the rose.
so true, so true.
westlife - the rose
some say love it is a river
that drowns the tender reed
some say love it is a razor
that leaves your soul to bleed
some say love it is a hunger
an endless aching needed
i say love it is a flower
and you is only seed
it's the heart afraid of breaking,
that never learns to dance
it's the dream afraid of waking,
that never takes the chance
it's the one who wont be taken
who cannot seem to give
and the soul afraid of dying
that never learns to live
when the night has been too lonely
and the road has been too long
and you think that love is only
for the lucky and the strong
just remember in the winter
far beneath the bitter snow
lies the seed that with the sun's love
in the spring, becomes the rose.
so true, so true.
Thursday, January 1, 2009
HELLO 2009! :D
i can't believe 2008 is gone.
it was such a wonderful year, happening i must say. its the year where we get to celebrate mehnie's birthday together. i got a ipod from sean as valentine's day present. i gave karina her birthday present on time! its the first time i went out with sean after him asking for so many months. on puay joo's birthday, we actually sang birthday song at some place at downtown east. and smashed the cake on her face without her knowing.
we had this motivation talk which saw many people crying. and yes, motivated for a period of time. lol. then comes the mid year examinations and soon after prelims. i actually love but hate that period of time. cause i was so deprived of shopping and going out with my friends as often. i hate that my results have to meet up to the teachers' expectations. its very pressurizing. i hate that i had to do something drastic to my a maths so as i could at least have a b3 or a2 for o's. of course, practicing it continuously for two weeks and i actually couldn't do the paper for prelims. the feeling sucks. then the stress of the big 'O' kicks in. ahhh. that period was. irritating and stressful. and if i didnt remember wrongly, i quarreled with sean the day before e and a maths paper. we always always always have to quarrel during or before some major exams. lol.
and finally, the end of papers. :D i think everyone was anticipating that very moment. then comes puma sales! that was the best time ever, even though there was some quarrels here and there. i miss puma sales. :( i miss having to rush to the mrt station at 8 o'clock. i miss running just to catch bus 64.
then comes prom! ahhh! shopping for prom stuff, making a trip down to swissotel just to book the room, making up and all on the day of prom and the stay over were awesome! we had so much fun and all the time we were laughing. :D except that my period sort of dampens my mood. lol.
a day after was class chalet! and its the first time my mom allows me to stay over. :D alvin was being an idiot, running around scaring the girls with the cockroach on his hand. damn disgusting. the screaming, laughing and running around part was fun and crazy. lol. and now, i miss my classmates so much. :(
all the time from then until christmas eve, i spent the days rotting, having fun, shopping, and watching movies. waiting for a job, of course. but ahhhh. to no avail. irritating. lol.
on new year's eve, had fun at escape in the morning. thankfully, it didnt rain. only after we left. :D headed to marina square for the huge burger at carl's junior. and each time we eat there, sean never fail to help me with the burger cause i have tiny and clumsy fingers. i love you and you know it. :D we went to play pool! i chose to play with arielle cause as i said previously, i suck at it. lol.
and it was fireworks time! the fireworks definitely did light up the dull and boring sky cause it was a star-less night. they were just like some worms wriggling, then they boom into some nice, colourful, shimmering, sparkling diamonds! okay, at least that's what i think. :D and i love the finale part. after which we went to watch yes man at the grand cathay. reached home at four. but nevertheless, yesterday was fun! yesterday was last year. today, tomorrow, next week, next month is next year! :D
You're like a storm against the window
Follow me around just like a shadow
I'll swim a never-ending ocean
Until you bring back your devotion
it was such a wonderful year, happening i must say. its the year where we get to celebrate mehnie's birthday together. i got a ipod from sean as valentine's day present. i gave karina her birthday present on time! its the first time i went out with sean after him asking for so many months. on puay joo's birthday, we actually sang birthday song at some place at downtown east. and smashed the cake on her face without her knowing.
we had this motivation talk which saw many people crying. and yes, motivated for a period of time. lol. then comes the mid year examinations and soon after prelims. i actually love but hate that period of time. cause i was so deprived of shopping and going out with my friends as often. i hate that my results have to meet up to the teachers' expectations. its very pressurizing. i hate that i had to do something drastic to my a maths so as i could at least have a b3 or a2 for o's. of course, practicing it continuously for two weeks and i actually couldn't do the paper for prelims. the feeling sucks. then the stress of the big 'O' kicks in. ahhh. that period was. irritating and stressful. and if i didnt remember wrongly, i quarreled with sean the day before e and a maths paper. we always always always have to quarrel during or before some major exams. lol.
and finally, the end of papers. :D i think everyone was anticipating that very moment. then comes puma sales! that was the best time ever, even though there was some quarrels here and there. i miss puma sales. :( i miss having to rush to the mrt station at 8 o'clock. i miss running just to catch bus 64.
then comes prom! ahhh! shopping for prom stuff, making a trip down to swissotel just to book the room, making up and all on the day of prom and the stay over were awesome! we had so much fun and all the time we were laughing. :D except that my period sort of dampens my mood. lol.
a day after was class chalet! and its the first time my mom allows me to stay over. :D alvin was being an idiot, running around scaring the girls with the cockroach on his hand. damn disgusting. the screaming, laughing and running around part was fun and crazy. lol. and now, i miss my classmates so much. :(
all the time from then until christmas eve, i spent the days rotting, having fun, shopping, and watching movies. waiting for a job, of course. but ahhhh. to no avail. irritating. lol.
on new year's eve, had fun at escape in the morning. thankfully, it didnt rain. only after we left. :D headed to marina square for the huge burger at carl's junior. and each time we eat there, sean never fail to help me with the burger cause i have tiny and clumsy fingers. i love you and you know it. :D we went to play pool! i chose to play with arielle cause as i said previously, i suck at it. lol.
and it was fireworks time! the fireworks definitely did light up the dull and boring sky cause it was a star-less night. they were just like some worms wriggling, then they boom into some nice, colourful, shimmering, sparkling diamonds! okay, at least that's what i think. :D and i love the finale part. after which we went to watch yes man at the grand cathay. reached home at four. but nevertheless, yesterday was fun! yesterday was last year. today, tomorrow, next week, next month is next year! :D
You're like a storm against the window
Follow me around just like a shadow
I'll swim a never-ending ocean
Until you bring back your devotion
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