I WISH I COULD BE SELFISH FOR A DAY.

i'm probably feeling cranky and selfish.

you know there're days i feel like being selfish. i feel like having everything to myself. a day which i can dont give, share, think and understand. and be the ultimate selfish asshole. i know you have to give and take. cause its mutual, you treat people like how you want them to treat you. but this isn't true all the times. at times, i find it rather difficult to accommodate to people's needs and at the same time, meeting my needs, making myself happy. i loathe to say this, but this is very much how i feel. i know there're times i need to understand but i don't feel happy understanding it. i don't know if this goes to show how demanding or lousy i am as a friend or girlfriend, i'm just like that. but i'm sure everyone has their selfish moments. you want things to be in your way and that's it.

but on certain days when the sun shines longer, i feel happy and more than willing to share, give and understand. it feels like a blessing to be able to understand and think for others cause not everyone can do it. cause you need to be really magnanimous, thoughtful and understanding. i don't know if i belong to the understanding and thoughtful kind or the otherwise. but i really wonder how it feels to always be the selfish sort, does it make you happier and more carefree?

I wish this moment was ours to
Own it and that it would never leave
Then I would thank that star
That made our wish come true