I'M SO SORRY I COULDN'T FOLLOW THROUGH

decided to arrange my closet since i was bored and its been really long since i last did it. but but but, i gave up halfway or rather got tired of it and went to play pet society. this results in all my clothes lying around me, on my bed. shall go pack it again later.

was talking to my brother just now. its been a month since i actually talked to him like this. i don't want him to go to NS soon cause if both of my brothers got enlisted together, i would be all alone at home. and my mother would have all the time in the world to nag at me and only me. i miss those times when he's having his holidays and he never fails to disturb me when i'm doing my work. or when i'm bored he would come and talk to me. snatching ice creams and tidbits with me, making me laugh as loud as some witch when he sees that i'm sad and all. though he can be really really irritating at times, at least there's someone to accompany me when i'm at home. :(

i find this blog is more like a comfort zone than just a diary which keeps track of my daily routines. when you're upset or whatnot, you can just type it here. it get won't tired of you always complaining or getting upset over the same stuff over and over again. you know everyone would tell you, ' hey just come to me when you're down or when you've any problems k, i'll be there always. ALWAYS. ' but -.- when you actually go to the person, perhaps the person already got sick of what you're gonna complain and probably not wanna listen to you anymore. thats pretty sad.

'My happiest moments are now. My unhappiest moments are too few and too unimportant to remember.' my all time favourite i suppose. whenever i'm upset i would look into these sentences again and convince myself that yes yes, my unhappiest moments are too few and unimportant to remember. very stupid i know but this is how i get over things other than crying. yes and everyone should memorise and understand this.

will you stay awake for me?
i dont wanna miss anything
i will share the air i breathe,
i'll give you my heart on a string,
i just dont wanna miss anything.