SCOOPS & BITES

i love my desktop background and my display picture, it makes me smile at the sight of it. with that stupid mischievous smile.

i was really really tired today, almost didn't wanna wake up for school. lol. but what motivated me was, tomorrow will be labour day so no school! wheee! but no sports and wellness, means no soccer. :( reached school really early today so decided to buy some subway cookies for the lectures. and wow, i think i'm blessed. hahahahah! cause a minute after i reached the yellow submarine, it started to pour heavily.

i tried to be a good girl today. look, at least i've tried. hahahah! but i only paid attention to the first one hour of microecons lecture. cause the lecturer has this indian and angmoh accent. can't really catch what she was saying. the main point of today's lesson was, ' the higher the price, the lower the demand. and vice versa. ' i had to keep myself awake by shopping online. :D i saw really nice clothes i wanted to get but ahhh, my wallet's gonna start frowning if i do so.

it goes the same for poa lecture. but at the very least, if i don't know how to do i can ask sean. my poa saviour. :D now i realised almost all the lecturers in np has this distinctive facial feature or this funny name that made students remember them. take for example, my poa lecturer. he look rather hilarious. i mean when i put on my specs and really look at him, i felt like laughing. hahhah! k i'm not trying to be mean, but hey, his eyebrows look like the la pi xiao xin one. very cute. whatever expression he gave, it will just look like he's frowning. lol.

and the itb project that we're working on seems really fun. now i know why we need to attend cats. oh today, this head of bfs talked to us. she said many many things which made me feel like i'm in secondary school again. she preached alot, stated the rules and regulations again. i extremely do not agree to the fact that people say poly life are more relaxed and all. it seems like we've to bear all the responsibilities and consequences ourselves. booooo. i hope i don't fail any modules cause i don't wanna delay my graduation by one sem.

i'm falling even more in love with you
letting go of all i've held onto
i'm standing here until you make me move
i'm hanging by a moment here with you

forgetting all i'm lacking
completely incomplete
i'll take your invitation
you take all of me

EDELWEISS

i'm finding it hard to pay attention during lectures. i have no idea why, no matter how hard i try to listen, an hour later, my eyes will be half closed. i think its the aircon which makes the place really conducive for sleeping. lol. pretty short day today, not to mention i skipped my itb lecture. :D during the first lesson, the lecturer actually told us its okay not to go for itb lectures. we will not be debarred from exams. how nice. lol.

cause we were all falling asleep during lectures, we decided to entertain ourselves by doing retarded stuff. okay, like moving our hands in different directions, pouting our lips and all. i don't understand why people laugh when they asked me to show them how i pout my lips. lol. oh and edelweiss. damn fun. hahaha! the lecturer was kind of irritated by us and she kept asking our class to keep quiet.

went back to school cause the guys wanted to take their certs. talked to ms sabrina for a while and helped her with some cutting stuff. then head to sean's place to print notes. i actually took one and a half hour to print it. just imagine how thick it is. then was rushing to take a cab back before there's midnight charge. ended my day with a just a simple goodnight from the taxi driver. sometimes, i realised just a good morning from the bus driver would make your day. and a goodnight from a taxi driver would end the day pleasantly.

i'm still not used to the tutorial and lecture system. everything's like so independent. you wanna do your tutorial, you do. if you don't, its at your own disadvantage. okay, i shan't complain, i should tell myself to start doing my tutorial after every lecture. i'm looking forward to tuesdays and fridays! cause there's dance and soccer! :D

There’s always going to be another mountain
I’m always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes you going to have to lose,
Ain’t about how fast I get there,
Ain’t about what’s waiting on the other side
It’s the climb

THE MOON'S LIKE A SMILE TODAY

today's lessons were really boring. its all tutorials. and they were so long winded, the cows were coming home man. itb was super boring i swear. the teacher was talking about google shares. and that if he owns one percent of the google shares, he'd be a rich man already. i mean why does he even tell us this right. oh and he said, banking and finance students needs alot of IT knowledge. sigh. i'm totally not interested in it. lol.

ohhh and i love mircoecons. they're just like geography. you analyse, think and write. its the only tutorial that kept me alive and kicking. other than that, i could just fall asleep. plus the aircon in the classroom was super cold. i felt rather stupid, i always bring my jacket to school but decided not to today cause my bag was heavy. it just has to rain and make me turn purple the whole day.

then we had dancesports in the evening! and the thing is, the response was really over whelming, half of the dance studio was filled. then we separated into two groups. we were taught basic cha cha! its was damn fun i swear. we had this little competition among ourselves and the seniors kept pulling us up. its really embarrassing when you're up there, with all eyes on you, yet you forgot the steps. hhahaha! i haven't had enough of cha cha-ing. yay! i'm gonna learn jive! bouncy dance! i love the dancing shoes, so pretty and glittery. :D

I don't know why you're so far away
But I know that this much is true
We'll make it through and I hope
You are the one I share my life with

And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I pray that you're the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life

STAR LIGHT, STAR BRIGHT

k i was really tired yesterday. so after i reached home, i went to bed immediately. right, so i'm trying to recall what happened yesterday. lol.

met sean in the morning to have breakfast at whitesands. and cause he sweating profusely, we decided to take a cab to school. the price ah, can kill. but, it feels good to lie on his chest and trace his lips. hahahah! i like to trace his lips, so thin and delicate! like girl like that. lol. coincidentally we were dismissed at the same time so we went to watch seventeen again. its quite nice but erm, hahaha i fell asleep. oh yes, forgot to mention! we had egg mayo, finally. :D

went to his place cause i needed to get some stuff printed and at the same time, i need him to teach me poa. but i was really too tired i couldn't get what he was trying to explain to me. plus i was too tired to sort out the things i need to print, so other day. hahaha. really really tired. sorry darling. i love you la.

oh ya, while waiting for lessons to start, i met my friends and we went to the library to discuss about bcomm stuff. after time, it got boring so we decided to take photos! whee!

EGG MAYO TO THE RESCUE

nothing beats staying at home on weekends, curling up in sheets all day long. i've yet to remind myself that gone were the holidays and that i should start doing my tutorials. everyone is so driven in poly, especially my course. its really competitive. i feel like asking those smart asses, why are they in banking & finance and not in jc. right, so after school's started i finally understood what weekends are for. hence, i'm trying my very best to embrace my weekends and maximise it but my actions beg to differ. i'll get my schooling mood back soon, i mean real soon. but again the keyword is i hope. hahahah!

i wasn't exactly that lazy, i did my itb assignment and attempted to answer some poa questions but to no avail. i redo it for umpteen times. at least ten times, and each time i could only answer the same old questions. so i just give up and decided not to submit my answers cause i heard it'll be assessed. i seriously need help in poa but i don't know why i refused to open my mouth and tell sean i need help. it's not about ego, it's just about time constraint and.. ah whatever, i shall go get my textbook on monday and refer to it. cheryl just told me in second year there'll be AAA, which is much more difficult than POA. what's with all the accounts stuff. now i regret taking a maths because in bfs only a few modules need it.

egg mayo, egg mayo, egg mayo, egg mayo, where are you. ahhh, i've been craving for it since yesterday. so all the while when i was on my bed, images of sean eating egg mayo on friday keeps whirling in my head. and all that makes my angry stomach growls. even as i'm typing i could feel my stomach shouting for it.

up it went again i'm gonna die and all i could do is to lie on my bed and see the money in my restaurant increasing to 80k gradually. i'm bored and i wanna go out. and suddenly i got the urge to write a descriptive essay on expressions.

please just tell me i am wrong this time.
tell me everything will be alright,
just your appearance would brighten up the day
just a hug and a kiss from you would make everything better
and i know that's love.

UGHHHHH

okay today is just not my day. every lil' thing tries to piss the shit out of me. poa is just the root of all evil. business IT is just crap. just when i'm done with the crap, when i wanna submit it, i couldn't access to mel cause my laptop just decides to hang at that page. not to forget, i need to submit it asap. business comm is just another idiot. i don't see all my groupmates online so i can't do it. not having food makes me an angry person. headache just decides to make things worse when its already the worst. not getting in what i want to is the ultimate asshole of the day. i hate you la. what a 25th of april 2009. i literally feel every ounce of me fuming with anger. even chocolates aren't helping.

POA IS THE ROOS OF ALL EVIL

stupid poa assignment. i seriously know nuts about poa and the lecture notes doesn't have much stuff. ughhhh, i look at the notes and the questions, i wanna cry. of all the forty questions asked in the quiz, i could only answer questions like, assets = liabilities + equity. and none of the poa students are online. shit you man poa. why do they even ask what should a balance sheet shows when they don't even include it in their notes, knowing that only handful takes poa. am i just that stupid. ugh, fuck it.

I'VE SEEN A CRAB BAG, HAVE YOU?

oh well, my eldest brother's gonna be enlisted soon. i see most guys dreading it, except him. he seemed to be so excited about going into army, being an officer and stuff. what's so nice about it man. lol. imagine me going in to the army, i think the physical trainings are enough to kill my lousy stamina body. i'll definitely miss him being ever so annoying at home, irritating me like some idiot. he could wake me up early in the morning just to tell me he bought me a tube, and the next moment he asked me what is a tube. that's just how irritating he is.

back to school, i guess of all days, i still love fridays. cause i don't have to think what i need to wear cause we'll all be wearing the Sports and Wellness shirt. its somewhat like PE in secondary school. just this time, we get to choose what sports we wanna participate in. and so, i chose soccer! cause i didn't choose it as my cca. what's ridiculous is, if you're absent on that day, you've to make up. like what the hell right. lol. you actually need to make up for PE lessons.

met sean for lunch in school. i'm sorry i was too tired, i know i was being an asshole. finally had the sandwich at the atrium after four days of waiting. lol. spent some time talking and walking around the school. then i went for cats. when i went to the class, there's nobody i know except alexus. so have to make new friends from other courses. and they all are nice people. :D all from business studies, biomed and tourism. then after that was PE! didn't do anything much cause we're only having briefing today.

ahhh, and dancesports seems fun! i can't wait! but its gonna be until 10pm. the distance. sigh.

oh sean i know you read this. lemme tell you something that you'll be jealous okay. i feel muscles forming on my arms. cause i lift weighs everyday up and down the hill, its more effective than lifting weighs in gym. so now, you better say you're jealous cause i know you are. i've muscles on my arms but you don't have! :D and now with my muscular arms, i can wrestle with you cause i know i'll win! right? lol.

When you come back all I wanna do is hold you
Have a blast even though there's nothing to do
Hold you close and look you in the eyes

So just come back and I'll tell you how I feel
Never knew how easy you could steal
My heart I miss you come home soon

HEAVY

i can't believe my muscles are aching just because i carried two thick books and a laptop, walking around the campus. it sets me thinking if i'm really that weak and that i should really start exercising really soon. ah whatever. at least i know my friends are just the same as me. :D

today is just. one word says it all, H-E-A-V-Y. heavy lectures, heavy meals and heavy bag. i even tried balancing the laptop on my head so i need not carry it. my hands were really going to give way man. it makes me not wanna go school tomorrow cause there's sports and wellness. then again, i'm looking forward to it cause i'll get to choose what sports i wanna play! touch rugby, soccer, cheer leading, dance sports, and alot more. ahhhh, i'd probably choose soccer or touch rugby! wheee!

what makes you happier than to have five meals a day? ahhaha! eating makes me happy. :D i kept eating and eating. oh my god. i can feel the fats developing all around my body. i can't imagine if i turn into some fat ass next time. small and short like a ball. lol.

had mircoeconomics and poa lecture today. hmm, i think microecons's the only thing that can catch my attention for now. i almost slept dring the poa lecture cause it was dead boring. all the bfs students were there and only 1/4 of them are listening. hahahah! oh i've learnt something today! three pitfalls! fallacy that association is causation. fallacy of composition. ignoring secondary effects.

met sean after lecture, we were supposed to watch movie but. ahh, brought the printer to his house then i fell asleep so other day. laziness has taken its toll. i don't know why ever since school started, i'm feeling so tired everday. i've got no mood for anything. just wish to take a cab home after every lecture.

HIT ME LIKE A RAY OF SUN

right, so yesterday i was too bored to blog and today i'm too tired to blog. booo. i swear the business management and itb lecture was a bore man. even though it was only for an hour or two. i felt as if its taking forever. at that very moment, i wish i could reach for the clock and shift the hour and minute hand. was craving for subway cookies while having business management lecture, and that was my only motivation not to fall asleep so that i could be the first to rush to makan place to buy it. tricia and fenglin was just making things worse. hahahah!

and makan place was damn crowded la. there weren't even a single seat available, luckily junxiang recognised me and we took his place. :D itb lecture for an hour and went to meet sean at commonwealth. oh and the two books that i was carrying was super super heavy plus i was carrying my laptop walking all around the school. imagine you carrying 4kg load on your hands. but nevermind. anyway, thanks cheryl for all the printing, books and stuff. :D

played with his cousins and all. ahh small kids are just so adorable and innocent. their smiles and laughter are so true. headed to his place to print some lecture notes. but. ahhh, he did something stupid which messed up everything. for a minute, both of us became blangadesh. i shall be nice and not elaborate more. hahahah! i'm sucha sweetheart right. :D

k i'm waiting for my hair to dry and i need to run to my bed so that i can catch some sleep. i dread thursday. its a really long day. and tomorrow's syf for choir. i hope they'll do well. :D

It’s like I’ve been awakened
Every rule I had you breaking
It’s the risk that I’m taking
I ain't never gonna shut you out
Everywhere I’m looking now
I’m surrounded by your embrace

Baby I can see your halo
You know you’re my saving grace
You’re everything I need and more
It’s written all over your face
Baby I can feel your halo
Pray it won’t fade away

SANDCASTLES

i feel like going to the beach, enjoy the sea breeze, build sandcastles, look at those fluffy, white, soft clouds which resemble packets of marshmallows on the shelves of ntuc, watch the sunset, lie on the rocks and look up knowing that there're gazillions stars blinking, shooting stars flying past every 3 minutes so that i've enough time to make a wish and tie a knot. not to forget to bring my beloved bestfriend there, fooood! cakes from bakerzin, secret recipes. cranberry and guava juice, subway double chocolate chips cookies, cream puff from beard papa, sandwiches from gelare. hmm, that's all i suppose. the more i think, the hungrier i get.

I FEEL YOUR WHISPER ACROSS THE SEA

cause there werent any lectures so didn't have to go to school today. slept half the day away. it sucks not having a printer at home.

will be in school for quite long tomorrow. :( oh and yay, xinhui helped me to sign up for dance sports already. hope she'll be joining that too.

forgot what i wanna blog about or rather i don't think i'm in the mood to blog. goodbye.

PAINT A SMILE

alright, luckily five of my orientation group mates are taking the same module as me. at least i'll get to see them during lectures. yay. i'm not alone. actually i think i'm really stupid cause i can actually check my group mates at mel. but i didn't know how to, until today. lol. first day of school and i'm down with fever. what is this man! my bio clock needs to work properly so that i can have enough sleeeeeep.

all thanks to that pehyu. for telling me not to bring laptop. and when i went to class today, almost all of them brought. so embarrassing. lol. made some new friends. and wow, poly is totally different from secondary school la. everyone's so spontaneous and it'll be weird if you're the only shy one. so today's lesson was kind of, hmm. i guess it takes sometime to mould my brain to think in such business way. cause for the past eleven years, its all about english, maths, chinese, science and all. the lecturer resemble mrs koh alot man! so motherly.

met cheryl and sean at the atrium for a lil' while before they head to the lecture hall. np is very the irritating, the campus is rather big and its all up hill. energy and time consuming. lol. had lunch with fenglin then took a train back with her. we are so alike la and the world is just so small. hhahah!

waited for puay joo at tampines mall and had dinner with her. cause i was too tired and i was walking around, i nearly bang into this stupid wall. how stupid. wheee! finally had teppanyaki! so filling and nice. had a long and nice talk at this sofa-filled place. then went home early cause we're too tired.

i'm the ultimate pig. cause after that heavy dinner, i still feel hungry. so sean went to buy porridge for me. sat at the bus stop, talked to him for a while about what we learn and all. the feeling is so familiar, just like what we always used to do when we're in secondary school. thanks for always buying food for me even when its past midnight and always assuring me that nothing's gonna happen. that's all i ever needed. xie xie ni. ahh, the smoking advertisement was timely, xie xie ning bu zai zhe li xi yan! hahahaha!

i'm watching that sappy korean love drama again. its all sad. about them loving each other that deeply, but cannot get together due to some issues. they broke up endless times. but today, being the last epidsode, both of them finally overcome the problems and live happily ever after. :D

nobody's gonna love me better, i must stick with you forever
nobody's gonna take me higher, i must stick with you
you know how to appreciate me, i must stick with you, my baby
nobody ever made me feel this way, i must stick with you

i dont wanna go another day
so im telling you, exactly what is on my mind
see the way we ride, in our private lives
aint nobody getting in between
i want you to know that, you're the only one for me.

A BRAND NEW BEGINNING AWAITS

i am still not yet done admiring my electric blue nails! :D

was talking to samantha in the afternoon, asking her about choir and stuff. glad that choir sounds better now, according to her. lol. and then she told me that ms suhaila injured her hand when she fell, so i texted her. all she said was, ' don't friend you already la, why never come on friday? i was looking forward to meet you guys! ' what a teacher! hhahahha! but still, i miss you man.

met jessica in the evening and went for facial. quite alot of people were at tampines 1 today. puay joo, karina, cheryl and all. my face are semi filled with squeezed marks and its kind of red and puffy and ugly. shouldn't have done it a day before school starts. oh well, nehmind. each time after i've gone for facial, i'll promise myself that i'll take good care of my face. use mask everyday, apply this and that, but each time it only lasts for less than a week. i guess i've lousy determination. lol.

cause there were some delays here and there, ah, it makes the timing so messy. supposed to meet terry and all but we were there late. by the time we were there, there're already done eating so forget it. met sean and his friends, then headed to bedok 85 for dinner. wheeeeee! all the same old food that we'll eat when we're there! very yummaye. their nonsense definitely made the dinner much brighter. :D

and then, everyone starts talking about school. rather reluctant to go to school. haven't had enough of holidays i suppose. sigh. hope it'll be fun tomorrow.

darling, thanks for that four hundred and fifty dollars supplements! correction, nine hundred. hahaah!

And all I've been doing is protecting
A lie for the sake of my pride
While all the others set me thinking
we could be more than just amazing

I guess I'm holding on to my faith
A solid hope I'm heading your way
And crawling over is so tempting
We could be more than just amazing

SEIZE THE DAY

i don't wish to go into some sappy post but listening to high school muscial songs just makes me think of my classmates. :( and joyce is really really good at emo-ing about such stuff, right sean?

i miss all the geniuses in smashing rock 5, jojo, xinhui, fenglin, alexus, sebestian, benjamin, nash, this mongolian guy i don't know how to spell his name cause its too exotic, this victoria guy who offered to help me to carry my drinks and that's very nice of him. i don't know why i miss them but i just feel it. nevermind, i'll get to see them when school starts.

then ultimately i miss my classmates, but i won't get to see them as often anymore. i wouldn't want them to be a chapter of life that passed by ever so quickly, or rather to call them my 'ex classmates'. yes, we promised to meet up but how often will that be? will that be the same as we were in 5n1? going to the toilet to tie our hair and all. rushing to the canteen for some stupid non existent free food. i forgot whose idea was it. laughing at mr thoh during almost every a maths lesson? pissing the shit out of our chinese teacher during every chinese period? hmm, i wish i wouldn't have to move on without you guys in my life.

i suddenly miss them so much so so so much cause its hard to accept that they'll not be the ones i'll see in my class anymore. :(

learnt that everyone enjoyed their orientation and that they are beginning to love their school. most importantly they're having great friends. i'm happy for them and i should probably do the same too.

ELECTRIC BLUE!

yay i love sleeping beside my laptop for i don't know what reason. ahahha! i think its just the convenience. wake up, on laptop, rc, read blogs, msn. oh and i did some quiz on facebook! which sin are you and i'm a sloth. how to disagree right! its just true. :D

went out with jessica in the evening. see, when i decided that i should stay at home and not spend money, jessica asked me out for shopping. i swear the money in my atm is gonna be zero dollar soon. oh and i've received this mail from posb bank with regards to some unposted transactions. i got a shock of my life. so after looking at it, i think its only right to tear it into pieces before my mom sees it. the money i spent is way too much, way way more than what a normal teenager should. i ought to be remorseful, but nooo, i spent again today! hahaha! so tell me, just whose genes is running in my blood.

cotton on is having sales so bought some stuff. then went into puma and saw peggy! wow, surprisingly she still come and talk to us and, the highlight was, there's staff discount today. 40% off. so joyce the asshole decided to buy this pouch, afterall after discount is nine bucks. help peggy to be step nearer to their sales target! else ben will scold right? hahahah! and then! jessica, decided to be irritating and persuade me to go for manicure. lol. i suck at resisting temptations so i gave in and painted my nails electric blue! its damn hot please! its the bomb man! haahhah! really, damn hot! i'm gonna stick my fingers infront of sean when i see him and tell him how hot it is every minute every second.

then she wanna trim her eyebrows! and so, here comes the best part! eventually it became us booking facial appointment together! sigh sigh sigh. ahhhh! i give up, i give up. hahahh! met alvin and kean for dinner then went home.

oh, i came across this while reading. it makes sense.

" When you drop a glass or a plate to the ground it makes a loud crashing sound.
When a window shatters, a table leg breaks, or when a picture falls off the wall, it makes a noise.
But as for your heart, when that breaks, it's completely silent.
You would think as it's so important it would make the loudest noise in the whole world,
or even have some sort of ceremonious sound like the gong of a cymbal or the ringing of a bell.
But it's silent and you almost wish there was a noise to distract you from the pain.

If there is a noise, it's internal.
It screams and no one can hear it but you.
It screams so loud your ears ring and your head aches.
It thrashes around in your chest like a great white shark caught in the sea ;
it roars like a mother bear whose cub has been taken.
That's what it looks like and that's what it sounds like, a thrashing, panicking, trapped
great big beast, roaring like a prisioner to its own emotions.
But that's the thing about love - no one is untouchable.
It's as wild as that, as raw as an open flesh wound exposed to salty sea water, but when it actually breaks, it's silent.
You're just screaming on the inside and no one can hear it. "

- if you could see me now.

YOU GAVE ME THE BEST MIXTAPE

yay sean i love that song. stayed at home today. yes, its boring. however, its definitely made brighter with me curling up in my cozy warm bed all day long with laptop just beside me, junk food within my reach and air con turned on. just reading blogs, playing restaurant city, listening to songs and reading books. all these kill time faster and made the day more pleasant. i think i'm gonna share my bed with ants today. hahaha! sean said something sweet yesterday but i couldn't remember. i spent quite sometime figuring out, but to no avail. i only remembered something like what wine. darling you wanna say that to me again? or have you forgotten about it too? lol.

i love the strawberry body polish from the body shop. that sweet strawberry smell still lingers on my skin after shower. made me feel as though i just showered in strawberry sugar coated juice.

was craving for some food so decided to make my way to elias mall to get them. on my way there, i saw this old couple sitting on the bench, talking, laughing, lying on each other shoulders and holding hands. just seeing them makes me smile and i couldn't help but to relate it to myself. i wonder sixty years down the road, how will my life be. i hope kimmy and i would still be together. and by the time, we would have already migrated to some country side away from such hectic life. sitting by the beach all day long, baking all sorts of cookies and cakes, attending weekly parties at some neighbour's house, leading a nice and relax life. k, i must have read too much storybooks already.

ahhh okay, i should stop envisaging about such stuff, i better be quick to pack my wardrobe, or rather my room. cause i only left tonight and tomorrow to do it. kimmy darling, can we go watch seventeen again soon? i don't mind midnight movies tonight though. hahahah!

alright, i hope the bbq on sunday is still on. cause the next day after it will mark a brand new beginning of schooling session for everyone. i definitely wanna see my classmates again before school starts. :D

No, i cant find the words cause i lost them
the minute they fell out of my mouth,
and its love and i'm in it, so give me your lips
and just let me kiss them.
and lets get messed up and listen to possibly

the best mixtape i have
and even all the bad songs aint so bad
i just wish there was more than that
about me and you.

SHUT UP, DON'T WANNA HEAR YOU.

went to sean's place in the afternoon cause i'm an IT idiot so have to ask him some stuff about my laptop. hahaha. and how to put songs into my ipod! k la, i know i'm sucha dumbass. i know! lol. cause since last year, he's the one putting in songs for me so yeah, i don't even know how. oh and hahahah! i discovered some secrets about sean! its really amazing. no, cute. i shall be nice and not say it out here okay. :D watched teevee and talked for a while. all the time i was talking, that asshole was busy laughing at me. my expressions very classic meh. lol. and i realised, i haven't been a good girl. :D cause my mom's overseas and i have been going home like what, twelve plus. heeeeee. enjoy while i can right! hahahaha!

wheee! and i reconstructed my restaurant already! no, sean did it for me! :D no more pink pink stuff, now its all blue and crystal-like. i need mangoes and tomatoes! i seriously can't figure out why is it so difficult to get tomatoes in restaurant, with rarity of only two stars.

oh and yes, i am so very tempted to buy that sony camera. i've been eyeing on it since long long time ago. hmm, ever since the first seductive red sony camera came out. but now, its so damn expensive. like seven hundred plus. how to buy like that. :( on days like this, i wish i'm already working and is the richest person on earth. so that i can buy whatever i want without procrastinating, worrying about how much i left for this week and all. sometimes it sucks to know that when you grow up, the things that you want become more expensive. :(

and fuck it. i cannot stand this you know. i don't like people to type like the way i type. i mean ya, its english, its common, everyone types like that. but hey, nooooo, it isn't coincidental. cause its happened for like umpteen times. when i used that word, you use. when i don't use, i don't see that appearing. so tell me, how much of a coincidence can that be? just go back to the way you type in the past la. you know what is sense of originality? maybe you should go and learn. very irritating one you know. ugh. k la, i'm just bitchy today. in fact, each time when i see those stuff. ugh irritating eh wah lao. -.- cheryl knows this! right? :D

You Say Hello, Inside I'm Screaming I Love You
You Say Goodnight, In My Mind
I'm Sleeping Next To You
You Drive Away From My Car Crash Of A Heart
And I Don't Know

FIFTEENTH.

seven dwarfs, happy! i've got happy head, happy face, happy smile, happy hands, happy feet and happy butt! happy feet that cannot stop dancing and happy butt and hands that cannot stop shaking. so when i move together, i looked like some retard even sean feels embarrassed holding my hands. right?

went to bugis today, had lunch at that japanese restaurant. ahhh, their food are always as good. didn't regret making the membership card. :D went shopping for a short while to look for sean's mom present. and i saw a few guess wallets that are quite nice but i've got no money to buy. :( the price of the pink agnes b wallet that i wanted to get has increased hundred bucks. this is crazy man. should have gotten it last year. :( and sean got me a shawl that i always wanted. that is really nice nice nice. :D thanks honeybunny.

went to marina square to watch taken. oh my, the show is so scary but its nice. you know like the content is nice but the sound effects and all make it scary. hahahaha. must go watch it, guys will like it cause the way they fight is really cool. lol. i was telling sean how afraid i am if someone were to kidnap me. and he came out with so many excuses that people wouldn't wanna do that, cause i'm too troublesome. i need to sleep with aircon, i need to eat good food, i cannot cook, cannot do housework and all. -.- but kinda true. then again, is also not i cannot do housework, is cause don't need me to do what. lol.

felt like playing mahjong so called kean and jessica. surprisingly kean wasn't working so we went to sean's place to play! wheee! i won them! they all damn cute okay. they had no chips left, so when i won, they took out the drawer and showed me that its empty. lol. then we decided to play jackpot. wah, that game made my heart race faster. lol. but its fun la. :D just came home not long ago. and i had the biggest shock just now. so damn scary i swear.

i love the shawl i cannot take my eyes off them. i don't know why but each time i got something that i really like, i'll keep looking at it. lol.

Shadows fill an empty heart
As love is fading,
From all the things that we are
But are not saying.
Can we see beyond the scars
And make it to the dawn?

Change the colors of the sky.
And open up to
The ways you made me feel alive,
The ways I loved you.
For all the things that never died,
To make it through the night,
Love will find you.

SOBER

accompany kirstie to np this morning and went to collect this shirt that we need for some module. while waiting for the laptop to be configured, we went round exploring the campus. i don't believe it has seventy plus blocks, but now i do. lol. its damn big, just like a maze. but luckily ba block is just beside the convention centre.

took a train back and there were no seats at all. i swear my legs were about to give way. lol. wanted so badly to sit down but ahh, i'm wearing skirt so not very nice. when i heard the next stop was bedok. i can feel my legs squealing in delight. lol.

nowhere to go so decided to go to tampines 1 again. and this time round, decided to queue up for the uni qlo. actually ah, i don't think the stuff inside are worthy of the number of people queueing outside. its not really nice. just normal tee shirts. the place is really really packed with people, very difficult to shop so went over to tampines mall to look for some stuff. had dinner at ikea and home sweet home. :D

i don't know if its just me. but i feel that we're drifting apart. either that or this is the way i'll feel when school starts.

KINDERJOLLY JOY! :D

yay i finally get to see my very huggable and kissable ah pui for a tiny weeny while today. he bought lunch and came to pass me my easter day eggs! one big box of kinderjoy! whee! and i felt like a selfish asshole cause i don't wanna share it with anyone. :D took a nap in the afternoon. and guess what! i woke up only to realise that i was hugging that big box of kinderjoy! hahahah! the box that became my bolster in the afternoon. :D


had dinner then went to meet cheryl. while walking to meet her i suddenly feel the craving for chocolate fondue so we went to new york new york to have it. all the desserts look so tempting i swear. i could even memorise one of the description. ' sail down the banana island in a silky lake of chocolate. serve with ice cream' ahhah! something like that. lol. walked home and i saw very very nice clouds! one looked like a baby angel and one looked like casper! you know casper the ghost? it looks damn cute. wanted to snap a photo but, hmm, i don't have EIGHT MEGA PIXEL phone. :( how sad. hahahhahah!

and ah pui, i miss miss you. you know what we're suppose to do on wednesday? its the fifteenth. :D love love you.


Boy, I hear you in my dreams
Hear your whisper across the sea
Keep you with me in my heart
You make it easier when life gets hard

Lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again

WHAT ABOUT NOW

every year on easter day, we would be having fun in school. finding those awfully coloured eggs during assembly. then we would be given kinder surprise based on the amount of eggs we found. i miss school.

my eyes are so sore and puffy. my fingers are all filled with cuts and winnie the pooh plasters. i haven't slept since yesterday. i don't know what's happening.

i'm really amazed.

...

Falling leaves like a blanket at my feet
There's a canopy of stars
And I just miss you like crazy
Suddenly the world's too big
And the hours move too slow
And I just wish that you were holding me near

I won't sleep until you're finally next to me
Can't wait to breathe you in
Don't wanna waste my time dreaming
I just wanna treat your name like
A whisper on my skin
And never have to say goodbye again

FEVO :(

fevo fevo fevo. :(

went to sentosa today and had fun fun fun. :D headed to vivo for lunch first then jesscia suggested to buy sun block cause she said she doesn't wanna get sun burnt again. and so! okay, we did something really auntie-ish. lol. we went to watsons, wanted to get some cheap sunblock but no, there isn't any. thus, we came up with this ingenious plan of testing the sunblock and ended up applying them all over our bodies. :D super auntie and embarrassing la! lol.

wanted to go to cafe del mar cause got the beds but it requires a minimum spending of two hundred bucks. how to spend until two hundred bucks right. lol. so we gave up that thought and walked to palawan beach. had a hard time finding a good spot cause its really crowded with some private function going on and tp was having their orientation there.

played a little while then it started to rain heavily. we find it rather stupid to go to the toilet cause it'll be super packed so we continue playing in the rain! hahahah! its damn fun okay, running around, kicking and throwing the ball in the rain! i likee i like! was stucked at the toilet for quite some time since none of us brought umbrella. lol. went back to vivo and did a little bit of shopping. :D joyce what, what you expect right. lol. just as i was about to leave the ax shop, this huge white bag caught my eye. oh my. i love it but its damn expensive. :( but its really nice. :(

oh and the first thing we saw when we stepped into candy empire was this palm sized easter egg. and its in the colour i love most! milky green. was procrastinating if i should get it for sean cause tomorrow's easter day. but .. so nevermind. so close to bringing it to the cashier. :( what's more i don't think i'll be meeting him so forget it. and i think you forgot what you promised to get for me on easter day. :(

finally had what i always wanted to eat! this watermelon! hahahah! its quite big and there's a hole at the bottom so the water was flowing out. lol. all we had for dinner was chicken wings chicken wings and chicken wings. too lazy to check out other food so just keep ordering that. lol. actually i've no idea what i'm typing cause my eye lids are getting heavier.