CROSSROADS

have been sleeping really late these few days, six in the morning and waking up at twelve. and that makes me really really tired. but the thing is i just can't sleep early. lol. orientation's in two days' time. hmm, rather reluctant to travel the distance but excited to meet new friends. i hope they're nice people.

woke up at eleven today and met karina for lunch. we had ikea ice cream! hahahah! the soft ice cream is damn addictive. after eating so many many times, i still haven't got sick of it. i wanna be a swedish! :D went to alter our clothes after that. i kind of regret buying those two skirts from pull and bear cause if i were to alter it, its eighteen each. that means i'm paying fifty eight for one skirt. :( but if i don't alter, i can't wear it. booooooo. :(

i still haven't figured out why life always brings us to crossroads. i wanna have best of both worlds. i know i can't have but why! i want it and i want it means i want it and must have it. okay noo, i'm not like that. hahaha! i don't know what to choose or rather, i'm thinking if i should make the decision myself. but i don't wanna forsake doing something i love so much. nobody tried putting themselves in their shoes and think for me, it's just about them them them and them. so selfish. :( it always happen. it always always happen to me. so much for always doing so. pfffft.

k nevermind! on a happier note, yay shopping with my darling tomorrow! what could make me happier than this! :D and yes, i've completed the soccer ball! whee! just hope tomorrow would turn out happy and i'll be happy. i hope.

I lose myself in all these fights,
I lose my sense of wrong and right.
I cry, I cry. I'm
Shaking from the pain that's in my head.
I just want to crawl into my bed,
And throw away the life I led.
But I won't let it die.