BREAKAWAY

i feel like some emo shit everyday when things don't go my way. or things don't turn out to be the way i thought it would be. i don't know what's happening to me. i know i have to understand but with everything happening at the same time, i doubt i can do it. with lots and lots of projects piling up, its definitely not helping. almost every tutorial class there will be a project given to us. even cats class have project. i need to breathe. i need to escape to some fairyland for ten days, probably this would work.

stayed at home today. woke up early for some itb project and i have to edit my bcomm slides cause i'm presenting on monday. hope i don't speak too fluently again, that's the irony i don't seem to get it. and as i'm typing i realised that i have poa tutorial to do but i don't know where on the earth my textbook disappeared to. not to forget mircoecons and bmgt too. i hope i get used to all this soon else i doubt i'll do well in poly. i miss studying but i just can't seem to study in poly. i still prefer english, maths, chinese, science rather than econs, poa, bcomm and bmgt. :(

i miss sean. its not about when i last saw him but just how much i want him to be here with me now. no matter how angry or sad i am with him i would still wanna see him. that's just another irony. whenever i'm sad, i want nothing but his hugs and it would brighten up my day. was reading my archives, all our msn convo and glancing through our photos yesterday. although we've been together for a while, i'm sure we've been through alot together. i'm not afraid to say he's my boyfriend because i'm proud of it. he might not be the the handsome-est or richest guy on earth but i know he's definitely good enough for me.

belatedly, i'm starting to miss the good times we had when we just got together. not because we havent been happy but just as the saying goes, the courtship period is the sweetest.

And everything I have in this world
And all that I'll ever be
It could all fall down around me
Just as long as I have you right here by me

I can’t take another day without you
'Cause, baby, I could never make it on my own
I've been waiting so long just to hold you
And to be back in your arms where I belong
I'm sorry I can't always find the words to say
But everything I've ever known gets swept away
Inside of your love